I have been severely depressed the past few months, and have even been fighting suicidal thoughts and really unsure about life right now.
We lose ones we love because sometimes we're not the best at showing them the love they need and yearn for. We for some reason always hurt the ones we love the most, for no legitimate reasons, or because we care and love to much we push them away.
I've lost the one I love and would give the world for selfish reasons, and no matter how much you try to patch it, it doesn't erase the past damage. Trying to re-earn trust is nearly impossible especially with this lifestyle I live, people who are close to you or don't even know you want to damage and bring you down. Why? Maybe for their own pleasure? Rumors, false information, defamation are all things that really do hurt, and can ruin and damage even the best of relationships. Lies, never get you anywhere in life, and I find it sad that people make it their goals to do harm on to others.
I'm not writing this for people to reach out to me or even care or feel sorry for me. I'm saying this in hopes that everyone thinks before they act, it's simple treat others how you would like to be treated. Spread love and positive energy and maybe we could slowly create a better world if not a closer community.
Not only do I live in physical pain everyday,I live in deep emotional pain, regret and depression, music has been my only avenue of self expression and happiness. Seeing others forget their problems through me playing music has always brought me happiness. I wear a mask every day, to hide it all, and no longer have the light that made me forget about all of it. And sometimes we all need to be that light for someone.
I'm not sure where I'm going with all this, but just know every single person has the power to either make someone's day or ruin it. You can be the reason someone to choose not to step off the cliff or you could be the reason the fall from it. Love each other, help each other and respect one another. We're only given one life on this earth, protect it and use it wisely. My only hope is that others don't go through the pain I feel and see everyday, it's a dark place where no one should be alone in
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