Severus Snape

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[herounlikely]

Long time, no see, friends.

[[ Hello, everyone! Dava Severus-mun here! I’m alive!! I don’t know how many of you will see this, or how many of you even still remain from when I ran this blog 2.5 years or so ago, but for those of you that are still here and might see this, I guess I just wanted to pop in and say hello and give you all a little update of how my life has changed since putting this blog on hiatus so long ago. :)  You see, a LOT has changed since the last time I was here. I still live at home and maintain the same job that I had gotten shortly before I left you all, but much more than that is different nowadays. For starters, in the time that I was gone I realized that I am not the cisgender bi/pan woman that left, but a (butch) nonbinary lesbian that now uses they/them pronouns! I still identify on the ace-spectrum, but i’m not longer cis or into dudes! at all! This is an identity that was a long time in the making and needed some time and LOTS of self inspection to come to, but I’m so much happier than I ever was when I id’d as cis and bi. 

I also came out as gay to my mom last year! I haven’t, and probably won’t, come out as nonbinary, but she knows i’m gay now and it’s not something i constantly have to hide with her, though she didn’t exactly take it well so it’s not something we discuss all that much either. That’s a point of stress at home, and things in general are still pretty stressful there, but for the most part it’s a huge relief to have it out there if for no other reason than to make myself feel better and able to take steps to living a life I can be truly happy with. 

Perhaps the most exciting change, however, is the fact that I’m dating someone! Well, perhaps more accurate would be to say that I have a girlfriend whom I very much love and adore beyond all reason. She’s brilliant, creative, an incredible artist and writer, hilarious, and is so unbelievably gorgeous that she takes my breath away. We’ve been together for going on 7 months now and met here on tumblr about a year and a half ago. It’s long distance for now, but she only lives a 5 hour drive away so I’m able to see her 2 or 3 times a year. It sucks, but i’m hoping that I’ll be able to move closer to her within the next few years, as soon as I’m fiscally able to. I’m so completely and utterly in love with her and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us. 

I’m also on antidepressants now as of December and they’re absolutely changing my life for the better. I no longer feel as if i’m drowning, and my doctor is also helping me fix a bunch of other shitty things and while everything’s not quite regulated yet, I feel a far cry better than I have in years, and I’m extremely grateful for that. 

Here’s the bad news. Unfortunately, I’m still not able to return to this blog. Between work, home, and other extra curricular things (mostly playing and writing for d&d and just trying to not go crazy), I’m simply too busy at the moment. I do hope to return one day, but I still don’t know when or if that day will come to be. I miss this blog and RPing with you all terribly, but I still can’t commit to running this blog full time right now. :/  Should anyone actually see this and want to chat, I’ll be checking back in on this blog for the next couple of days to check messages and replies should there be any, but otherwise you can find me on my personal, as always, @cosmicdisastr. (i’ve changed my URL from ukrainianironbellyy). Feel free to follow me or message me there as well, I would love to see what all my old friends are up to :) 

I’ll try to check in more often, my friends, but for now I’m afraid it’s goodbye again. I miss you all, but I will see you around <3 ]]

[herounlikely]

Long time, no see, friends.

[[ Hello, everyone! Dava Severus-mun here! I’m alive!! I don’t know how many of you will see this, or how many of you even still remain from when I ran this blog 2.5 years or so ago, but for those of you that are still here and might see this, I guess I just wanted to pop in and say hello and give you all a little update of how my life has changed since putting this blog on hiatus so long ago. :)  You see, a LOT has changed since the last time I was here. I still live at home and maintain the same job that I had gotten shortly before I left you all, but much more than that is different nowadays. For starters, in the time that I was gone I realized that I am not the cisgender bi/pan woman that left, but a (butch) nonbinary lesbian that now uses they/them pronouns! I still identify on the ace-spectrum, but i’m not longer cis or into dudes! at all! This is an identity that was a long time in the making and needed some time and LOTS of self inspection to come to, but I’m so much happier than I ever was when I id’d as cis and bi. 

I also came out as gay to my mom last year! I haven’t, and probably won’t, come out as nonbinary, but she knows i’m gay now and it’s not something i constantly have to hide with her, though she didn’t exactly take it well so it’s not something we discuss all that much either. That’s a point of stress at home, and things in general are still pretty stressful there, but for the most part it’s a huge relief to have it out there if for no other reason than to make myself feel better and able to take steps to living a life I can be truly happy with. 

Perhaps the most exciting change, however, is the fact that I’m dating someone! Well, perhaps more accurate would be to say that I have a girlfriend whom I very much love and adore beyond all reason. She’s brilliant, creative, an incredible artist and writer, hilarious, and is so unbelievably gorgeous that she takes my breath away. We’ve been together for going on 7 months now and met here on tumblr about a year and a half ago. It’s long distance for now, but she only lives a 5 hour drive away so I’m able to see her 2 or 3 times a year. It sucks, but i’m hoping that I’ll be able to move closer to her within the next few years, as soon as I’m fiscally able to. I’m so completely and utterly in love with her and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us. 

I’m also on antidepressants now as of December and they’re absolutely changing my life for the better. I no longer feel as if i’m drowning, and my doctor is also helping me fix a bunch of other shitty things and while everything’s not quite regulated yet, I feel a far cry better than I have in years, and I’m extremely grateful for that. 

Here’s the bad news. Unfortunately, I’m still not able to return to this blog. Between work, home, and other extra curricular things (mostly playing and writing for d&d and just trying to not go crazy), I’m simply too busy at the moment. I do hope to return one day, but I still don’t know when or if that day will come to be. I miss this blog and RPing with you all terribly, but I still can’t commit to running this blog full time right now. :/  Should anyone actually see this and want to chat, I’ll be checking back in on this blog for the next couple of days to check messages and replies should there be any, but otherwise you can find me on my personal, as always, @cosmicdisastr. (i’ve changed my URL from ukrainianironbellyy). Feel free to follow me or message me there as well, I would love to see what all my old friends are up to :) 

I’ll try to check in more often, my friends, but for now I’m afraid it’s goodbye again. I miss you all, but I will see you around <3 ]]

[herounlikely]

Goodbye for Now

It was time for Severus Snape to leave. Time to leave Spinner’s End. Time to leave London. Time to leave England in its entirety. It would be odd, he thought, to leave his home of the last 57 years, but it was a long time coming. It was the only place other than Hogwarts that he’d known for his entire life, along with all the people that he’d met along the way, and he was leaving. Baffling, he knew, but here he was, packing his things in the middle of a mostly empty house, an “Indefinitely Closed” sign in his shop window, and the keys to his new home in his pocket. 

He wouldn’t be selling Spinner’s End. He didn’t think he could give up his childhood home, even if it wasn’t a very pleasant childhood. Or adulthood, for that matter, but that’s what this move was about. New beginnings. Sure, 57 might seem a little long in the tooth for a brand new life, but it needed to happen, at least for a while.

As Severus packed the last of his books, he felt unusually melancholy, his jaw clenched and his brow furrowed. He thought about the last four years; the people he’d met, the memories he’d made. He’d never been a sentimental man, by any means, but the thought that he’d be leaving soon struck a chord that he didn’t expect.

How could he say goodbye to this place? These people? Suddenly a quote by J.M. Barrie swam to the forefront of his mind. “Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting.” But for once in his life, Severus didn’t want to forget. He didn’t think it was possible after all he’d been through anyway, but for the first time since he was a boy, he didn’t want to, and he wouldn’t. 

He would never forget the ones that showed him kindness when he had nothing but vitriol to give them in return. He would never forget those that stuck around long enough for him to realize that he wasn’t alone in the world and that actually burrowed themselves into his cold and broken heart. Nor would he forget those that he continued to despise, he thought, smiling to himself.  He regretted not telling them all personally how he felt about them before he left, but he thought it best to make a clean break. Goodbyes were hard, especially for a man like himself. If they had been around each other this long, they surely knew how he felt about them and knew how he would remember their time together, whether fondly or not. 

He closed and shrunk the last box, setting it in the trunk with the rest of his things with a sigh and stood to take another look around. What little furniture that was left was covered in white sheets, the cabinets were bare, and rooms mostly empty. This was it, he thought. It was time. 

He accio’d a familiar piece of parchment donned with his own spiky handwriting and placed it in the window nearest the door, a sticking charm added to make sure it didn’t go anywhere and would greet anyone that tried to visit him: 

He picked up his trunk and opened the door, taking one last look  back before he whispered into the darkness. “Goodbye, my friends, but only for now.” With a rueful smile he closed the door behind him, making his way to the nearest Apparition point and with a distinct ‘Pop!’, he was gone. But, not for forever.

[herounlikely]

Semi-Permanent Hiatus Notice

TL;DR Bolded Text

[[ Hi, all. It breaks my heart to post this but it’s recently occurred to me that at this juncture in my life, I don’t have the time or the mental energy to keep up this blog. I’m working full time and commuting up to two hours every day (often not getting home until after 7 pm), my life at home is only getting more hectic as time goes on, and my sanity is hanging by an ever thinning thread…I never thought there would come a day that I would be announcing a Semi-Permanent Hiatus, but after what is probably the 10th unexpected lengthy absence, I think it’s time to let you all know that I have no idea when I’ll be able to come back, so this is my way of telling you all…I’ll be back, I just don’t know when, and I don’t want you all to continue waiting for me. 

I won’t be deleting Severus’s blog. I’ve put too much work into him and I love him and all of you too much to get rid of him entirely, so he will remain as an archive, for now, until I can get my life in order and be in a place both physically and mentally to return someday. I will be back someday, when I’m no longer living at home and constantly physically and emotionally exhausted. I don’t know how long that will take, but Severus will be waiting for me when I get back, and I hope you all are as well. 

I won’t be disappearing, mind you. I’ll still check into this blog from time to time and check messages, etc., and you can always get a hold of me on my personal blog (ukrainianironbellyy.tumblr.com) or hit me up for my skype or discord or whatever else you want to keep in touch, I just won’t be writing for Severus anymore for now. I still care for all of you and would love to keep in touch with all of you, I just can’t keep up an RP blog anymore and I don’t want to keep stringing you all along with promises I can no longer keep. 

I love you all, and I will miss the hell out of all of you. You’ve been amazing partners, both old and new, and there has never been a more patient, understanding, amazing group of people than all of you on this blog. 

I have written a sort of goodbye piece from Severus that is now on my blog. I hope you all enjoy it and that it conveys really truly how I feel about the last 4+ years I’ve spent here. You’ve all been amazing, and I couldn’t have asked for better people to have gotten to know. 

Goodbye for now, but never forever. 

-Dava, Severus-mun]]

[herounlikely]

Goodbye for Now

It was time for Severus Snape to leave. Time to leave Spinner’s End. Time to leave London. Time to leave England in its entirety. It would be odd, he thought, to leave his home of the last 57 years, but it was a long time coming. It was the only place other than Hogwarts that he’d known for his entire life, along with all the people that he’d met along the way, and he was leaving. Baffling, he knew, but here he was, packing his things in the middle of a mostly empty house, an “Indefinitely Closed” sign in his shop window, and the keys to his new home in his pocket. 

He wouldn’t be selling Spinner’s End. He didn’t think he could give up his childhood home, even if it wasn’t a very pleasant childhood. Or adulthood, for that matter, but that’s what this move was about. New beginnings. Sure, 57 might seem a little long in the tooth for a brand new life, but it needed to happen, at least for a while.

As Severus packed the last of his books, he felt unusually melancholy, his jaw clenched and his brow furrowed. He thought about the last four years; the people he’d met, the memories he’d made. He’d never been a sentimental man, by any means, but the thought that he’d be leaving soon struck a chord that he didn’t expect.

How could he say goodbye to this place? These people? Suddenly a quote by J.M. Barrie swam to the forefront of his mind. “Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting.” But for once in his life, Severus didn’t want to forget. He didn’t think it was possible after all he’d been through anyway, but for the first time since he was a boy, he didn’t want to, and he wouldn’t. 

He would never forget the ones that showed him kindness when he had nothing but vitriol to give them in return. He would never forget those that stuck around long enough for him to realize that he wasn’t alone in the world and that actually burrowed themselves into his cold and broken heart. Nor would he forget those that he continued to despise, he thought, smiling to himself.  He regretted not telling them all personally how he felt about them before he left, but he thought it best to make a clean break. Goodbyes were hard, especially for a man like himself. If they had been around each other this long, they surely knew how he felt about them and knew how he would remember their time together, whether fondly or not. 

He closed and shrunk the last box, setting it in the trunk with the rest of his things with a sigh and stood to take another look around. What little furniture that was left was covered in white sheets, the cabinets were bare, and rooms mostly empty. This was it, he thought. It was time. 

He accio’d a familiar piece of parchment donned with his own spiky handwriting and placed it in the window nearest the door, a sticking charm added to make sure it didn’t go anywhere and would greet anyone that tried to visit him: 

He picked up his trunk and opened the door, taking one last look  back before he whispered into the darkness. “Goodbye, my friends, but only for now.” With a rueful smile he closed the door behind him, making his way to the nearest Apparition point and with a distinct ‘Pop!’, he was gone. But, not for forever.

[herounlikely]

Semi-Permanent Hiatus Notice

TL;DR Bolded Text

[[ Hi, all. It breaks my heart to post this but it’s recently occurred to me that at this juncture in my life, I don’t have the time or the mental energy to keep up this blog. I’m working full time and commuting up to two hours every day (often not getting home until after 7 pm), my life at home is only getting more hectic as time goes on, and my sanity is hanging by an ever thinning thread...I never thought there would come a day that I would be announcing a Semi-Permanent Hiatus, but after what is probably the 10th unexpected lengthy absence, I think it’s time to let you all know that I have no idea when I’ll be able to come back, so this is my way of telling you all...I’ll be back, I just don’t know when, and I don’t want you all to continue waiting for me. 

I won’t be deleting Severus’s blog. I’ve put too much work into him and I love him and all of you too much to get rid of him entirely, so he will remain as an archive, for now, until I can get my life in order and be in a place both physically and mentally to return someday. I will be back someday, when I’m no longer living at home and constantly physically and emotionally exhausted. I don’t know how long that will take, but Severus will be waiting for me when I get back, and I hope you all are as well. 

I won’t be disappearing, mind you. I’ll still check into this blog from time to time and check messages, etc., and you can always get a hold of me on my personal blog (ukrainianironbellyy.tumblr.com) or hit me up for my skype or discord or whatever else you want to keep in touch, I just won’t be writing for Severus anymore for now. I still care for all of you and would love to keep in touch with all of you, I just can’t keep up an RP blog anymore and I don’t want to keep stringing you all along with promises I can no longer keep. 

I love you all, and I will miss the hell out of all of you. You’ve been amazing partners, both old and new, and there has never been a more patient, understanding, amazing group of people than all of you on this blog. 

I have written a sort of goodbye piece from Severus that is now on my blog. I hope you all enjoy it and that it conveys really truly how I feel about the last 4+ years I’ve spent here. You’ve all been amazing, and I couldn’t have asked for better people to have gotten to know. 

Goodbye for now, but never forever. 

-Dava, Severus-mun]]

[herounlikely]

[[ Hey everyone! Sorry I’ve been so completely MIA the last few weeks. It’s been really stressful at home for me as I searched for job and with stress comes depression and exhaustion and general home related crappy stuff and because of that I’ve barely had the energy to exist much less RP. BUT! the other day I finally got a good job offer and I start later this week, so that should help with a lot of the stress I’ve been under lately. It might create a little different stress and I’ll be busier, but my home life should calm WAY down and I should be able to start returning to you guys and to Severus.  

I love you guys and I’m so thankful for all of you that stick around during my random disappearances. You’re all so amazing and you’re what makes this worth doing. I’ll be back as soon as I can! xoxo ]]

[herounlikely]

[[ Hey everyone! Sorry I kinda disappeared but I went on a mini vacation with my mom and just got back last night. It wasn't fantastic but regardless I'm not in as terrible a mood as I was a week ago. I don't know if I'll be on tomorrow because I plan on doing some overhaul cleaning around the house but I'll be on as soon as I have some free time! Thank you to those that checked in on me and thank you to the rest of you who have been so patient and stuck around. You're all amazing and I couldn't ask for better followers! I'll see you all soon! :) ]]

[herounlikely]

[[ sorry i haven’t really been active, not having the best time in my home life and have been in an awful mood as a result. i’m just trying to keep from drowning and i can’t really think about RP right now. I’m really trying though, I promise i’m trying ]]

[quotable-notable]

you are terrifying and strange and beautiful and not something everyone knows how to love.

Warsan Shire - ‘For Women Who are ‘Difficult’ to Love' [x] (via masochisticsadist)

[confessionsofa-roleplayer]

“I admit it, I’m kind of jealous of those people who can just approach someone new in chat and start plotting and chatting with them like its no one’s business. If I did that, I know I would get more stable, devoted partners, and more solid relationships between muses. Yet, it’s just so hard when you’re not sure if someone truly enjoys talking with you or if you’re annoying them just saying hello.”

[herounlikely]

[[ hoping watching Sweeney Todd will brighten my mood a little. Ugh I’ve felt so shitty all day. ]]

[shewhomuses]

                                                      Deep down, you know                                                   you weren’t built for fighting,                                                       but that doesn’t mean                                                     you’re not prepared to try.

                                                       What they don’t know                                                       is your real advantage;                                                    When you live for someone,                                                      you’re ᴘʀᴇᴘᴀʀᴇᴅ to ᴅɪᴇ.

[herounlikely]

[[ okay so i’m finally getting to watch Galavant since it’s on Netflix now and it was soooo worth the wait. I’m like 10 minutes in and it’s amazingly funny. A musical and a renaissance comedy series all in one. I really couldn’t ask for more ]]

[olderthanyourjesus]

Skype Alternative

Hello all my RPer people.

Are you too sick of Skype?

Are you looking for something different?

Something that will run on Mac, Windows, Linux, in Browser and has an App for iOS and Android?

Something that gives you separate servers for people, where you can have unlimited text and voice channels?

Something that is more stable than Skype and has no annoying ads?

Something that is way more organized than stupid Skype?

Something like, I don’t know, Discord?

It is actually made by and for Gamers, but with the features it has, you all should rejoice.

You can have a server with a friend, like I do with Katie and want with more people. It’s awesome!

How does it play out? Well, you make a server, invite your friend(s) and bam!

Text channels. Voice Channels.

Run an RP group? Perfect!

It is time we ditch Skype. It has been time for a while.

[herounlikely]

[[ I finally hit 600 followers! Thank you, everyone, you’re amazing! ]]

[herounlikely]

[[ looks like everyone is offline for the night and i still don’t have the muse for many of my current threads so I’ll be heading off myself. going to go get some icons off of netflix for the first time ever in my existence. lol. THAT is how scarce Adam Driver icons are haha. See you all tomorrow! ]]