i'll sing love

there is magic in art.

[hersunsettia]

𝄞 ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ 𝄞

rika/mo. 22. she (they). bi. gacha prisoner and vn/dating sim enjoyer. huge fan of religious imagery + doomed (probably time related) media + bluepurplegreen palettes + characters with wings + being the third (fourth) (fifth...) in various yaoiyuri... more here (carrd in progress)

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byf wip -> (tagged) gore + nsfw + dark(ish?) content. please tag graphic self harm + eds for me!! i block freely. i don't tend to engage in fandom discourse anymore (unhand me twt ...). heavy use of capslock + sometimes i don't spellcheck TT

dni wip -> genai users. 17 & under. too much to list re:basic dni criteria so just no hate & discrimination against anybody please!

media music #skz shows/movies/etc. #link click, #solo leveling, #tbhx, #spy x family, #the apothecary diaries, #kcdramas, #kpdh, #alnst gaming (#loz : #botw, #totk, #skyward sword, #mm, #oot), #hades game, #hades 2, #genshin impact, #hsr, #zzz, #infinity nikki, #fom, #stardew, #bg3 #♡ games [vns, dating sims & co.] (inc. #love and deepspace, #tot, #trouble comes twice, #ol series, #bewitching sinners, #tds, #adwd, #cupid's chatroom #countdown to countdown media ships/dynamics #zelink, #shiguang, #hyuluka, #astralyn, #angelduo, #twiyor, #jinmao, #amphoyaoi, amphoyuri, polyamphoreus, bronseele, renheng, kavetham, arlfrbn self-ships don't look at me. #applepeach (caleb - l&ds), #2ri (furina - gi), #wanderstars (kazuscara - gi), #eclipse (columbina - gi), #sunshadow (jinwoo - solo leveling), #adri (adrian - tct), #2fae (arshem - bewitching sinners), #holylight (sunday - hsr) characters who are That Serious To Me #scara, #furina, #kazuha, #columbina, #xyz, #jinwoo, #sunday, #robin, #miyabi, #lycaon, #link (debating fierce deity/dark link as separate tags. i'll get back to you all), #zelda friends #🍈🧸🎍 summer, #🦦🥖🐱 nia, #💫🐣🫧 rae, #🐈🐶🍂 ky misc. tags #ocs, #art, #wips note re:selfships "nonsharing" for the green highlighted ones but in a very niche/circumstantial way... will probably still like fanart of some ships from their respective media [specifically w/ caleb and sunday] but i won't interact w/ your selfship posts! i won't mind following/being around other (self)ship content but i'm not gonna interact w it! not counting xreader fics those are very welcome and i will write my own once i muster up the courage to post \o/ also i def consume a lot more xreader & selfship-y content than w/ the characters i alr listed like i have a looong list but these are the people i actually actively think about in that way. heh. my truth...

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hanging onto the Everything Will Figure Itself Out thread rn

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for my own brand and because i am consistent and nobody can ever say i'm not loyal i will obviously be picking my beautiful angelboy sunday for the hsr anni letter but putting phainon and cyrene as options was so so cruel to me specifically

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boyfriend likes the knights. nobody understands me but this is grounds for divorce

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the internet is becoming more and more bioessentialist and nobody is saying anything about it

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bf's little sister texting me "thank you for taking care of him 💗"

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i know my inner child is still intact because i react the exact same way listening to jon bellion's hand of god - outro now than i did back when i just turned 14

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cw fatphobia & insecurities etc. yeow

sometimes i think about the fact that i kind of do have a style that's half there and clothes/accessories/jewelry/general styles i like wearing/imagining myself wear and in my head it's pretty cohesive and has been since high school but the people around me (generally) (to no fault of their own) don't really attribute it to Me or My Style and i've never once walked around a thrift store or gone shopping w people where they've been like "oh it's so you!" or "oh this fits you so well!" or "oh you'd look really nice in this!" and i've always ended up being like. the friend who says this to others. or the friend who says "i think you should try this you would look really good in this". and i sometimes wonder if it's Because of like. my fatness. that people do not Notice a style. generally. or are too afraid to say i should try something on or that i would look good in something. and it's like. i don't really fault people for thinking that way nor do i expect someone to go out of their way to think about that or me and part of me is really hoping i'm thinking too deeply about this but it's been something i've been pondering for a While.

and i haven't really given it too much thought other than a passive "oh i'm too fat to be acknowledged in that way" every now and then but ever since like. my partner came into the picture. he is so lovely and attentive and has expressed how much he Loves how i look and how i dress and when we go out to thrift stores/etc he always points out like hey you would look so good in this. or hey this is very much your style. and it wasn't until then that i realized how objectively little i've heard that from people relative to how much they would say that to everyone else. and again i've always pondered this but never in a pointed sense until i recognized how unfamiliar it felt to hear someone say I Would Look Good In Something. which sounds really sad but like i don't even think it's on purpose. at that point though it just becomes a question of like. how little am i considered in certain Contexts and how much of that is attributed to my fatness and how unfamiliar some people are with navigating life having a fat friend. and it sucks so so bad because i don't want to resent anybody for that nor do i blame anyone at all because it's not like society has ever trained people to be respectful to fat people but it's also even harder to ask your friends like "hey has my fatness ever been in the way of you considering me as someone with a consistent image" because 1) that's crazy 2) i feel like i just haven't been around as much.

i know what i like and what i feel good in. so does my partner. and it's something that comes so naturally to him and it makes me wonder if he's just a unique case. i looove cottagecore meets vintage meets office-dress-code-after-dark meets The Beach. i've been a cottagecore girl since early high school even if i have a bit of a more nuanced moral/politicaltake on that "-core" as an aesthetic. i love ruffles and long skirts and flannel and sweetheart/a-line necklines. i love tight fitting tops and loose pants with contrasting colours. i love lace and making lingerie look work-appropriate. i love loose outerwear over cropped shirts. i love light blue wash jeans and flats i could wear while walking around in the sand. i love hair accessories (despite my previous rant about that) and anything embroidered and i've always preferred to layer but i used to hate doing so because i worried all the time about how chunky my body looks. my childhood movies that shaped my style was mamma mia meets the devil wears prada. i lovr sundresses. i love yellow/blue/pale purple/pink/white in the day and black/red/burgundy all paired with light brown/beige at night. i've always loved pearls since i was a baby because i grew up near the ocean. i love seaglass. i love jewelry i could buy in the philippines. i wish i wasn't always sidelined when talking about fashion but i never spoke anyways since i would always feel like a fraud because in my head everyone just thinks i look like a fat girl who doesn't know how to dress herself so it would be nice to have someone See me more. i hate hate hate acting like getting a partner changed everything about me but i never realized how Unseen i was about certain things until then. nobody tells the fat girl she'd look good in lace. nobody really tells the fat girl she should buy something because they wanna see her in it like omfg omfgggg fuckkkkk i hate sounding like i'm throwing a pity party but it's always "wow you look good" and never "you would look good in x" and i need to let go of seeking approval in people who would never think of this as a problem because i'm too sensitive and i assume people think nothing of me but holy shit man. fuckkkk 😭

and it's always like. you're woke until you have to see a fat person. and then it becomes "oh don't call yourself that 🥺" or "you're so confident" or whatever. everybody's so fucking scared of the word fat and you feel like such an awful person everyday because sometimes you think i wonder how many of my friends would be devastated thinking about becoming the same weight as me one day and whether they think i'm healthy or if they think it's annoying how slow i can be even if i know i'm fucking healthy and i go to the gym/work out and i play sports and i'm objectively not someone whose body is shutting down and you know (and hope) in your heart that that's not the people you've surrounded yourself with but you. because of society. genuinely cannot help but wonder what you are to some of the most treasured people in your life. and it feels so fucking selfish sometimes to feel literally anything and to want to be reassured. just in general. HELP MEEEEEE. OOOHHHH MY GOD 😭

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yeah that birthday party is not happening bro

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announcers talking about mcdavid fatigue Do you all know you have 30 minutes

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i can handle the hockey fanbase getting an influx of terminally online fans that are hr-adjacent. i can handle kpop hockey fans. i can handle 2025-2026 newgen sharks fans (i love you rach). but what the lord did not warn me of was the increase of the most annoying people you know becoming penguins fans woobifying stuart skinner

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does nobody remember how connor would double down against any mean question from the media against skinner and would always say "this isn't on stu". does nobody remember the look of irritation on every player's (but mcdrai's especially) faces whenever the media would try to get them to say smth bad abt skinner. do not rewrite my oil country history oh my fucking god 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 they loved him SO MUCH. that was their BROTHER OHHH MY GODDDDD I DON'T CARE I HATE EVERYONE SO FUCKING BAD

[hersunsettia]

i can handle the hockey fanbase getting an influx of terminally online fans that are hr-adjacent. i can handle kpop hockey fans. i can handle 2025-2026 newgen sharks fans (i love you rach). but what the lord did not warn me of was the increase of the most annoying people you know becoming penguins fans woobifying stuart skinner

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they just cut to draisaitl walking back to his seat hunched over his bag of popcorn with a hand shovelling popcorn down his throat and the announcers were like "i hope we get this guy on the ice soon 🥺" im actually cracking up so badheehjGEBSBAWHEHEJEBRNDHEEHHEEHEHEHEJEEJEJEBEHEJEJ

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nurse making me think he's finally going to do something and he just shoots right at the bar of the net. thanks nurse

[nameismizuki]

Dark link enjoying off time on the beach with a good book!

OMG YESSS

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its also summer here right now at where i live, and i actually went to the beach like weeks ago. it was fun, but my nose got sunburnt 😭

thank you for the request! have a great day/night 🫶

[hersunsettia]

WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. HELLO. WHAT. OH MY GOD

[sviteer]

Halo of Thorns

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