positively bedeviled

RQ | she/her, queer | gemini came here for schitt's creek but turned into a multifandom mess that includes 911, lone star, superstore, the entire schurverse, and a smattering of other random things occasionally, i make things.

[noahreids]

SNL Host Connor Storrie and James Austin Johnson Face Off in an Accent Duel "Tell them Rozanov sent you."

[snap-crackle-cunt]

what shane says: im gay

what shane means: i can never love a woman in any way resembling the way i love you and when i tried she called my shit IMMEDIATELY so what im trying to say is i can't sidestep whatever we are the way you can, i will never ever love anyone but u

what ilya hears: somewhere along the line of our multi-year situationship that began with me immediately sucking ur dick, i have determined that i like men.

what ilya says: ya no fucking shit bro what

[imgladyourehereholdme]

thinking about middle aged gay love is like. we have a future and we have time

[lycaonswolves]

my mother divorced my father when i was 7. it wasn’t because she was gay, though she did discover this later (another reminder that it’s okay to find out who you are at 40, at 50, etc, and also for who you are to change) but because she had thought he was the great love of her life and he turned out to be a shitty person.

my mother married my ma when i was 11. i think they do have a great love. i think they love each other the way you can when you’re middle aged – having seen the world, being able to see each other’s flaws, knowing themselves. they see each other in full, and they love each other and the world for it. 

they dance on the street to buskers (very embarrassing when you’re twelve; very cute when you look back on it as an adult). i shit you not – they pass me their purses and dance on the sidewalk, laughing. i thought was something that only happened in movies.

my ma makes my mother eggs every morning because my mother can’t cook for shit. my mother presses my ma’s work blazers for her because my ma still can’t figure out how to work the new iron. 

when it was warm, high-school me would wake up on the weekends and wander downstairs to find them sitting in the backyard in the sun, drinking coffee together and splitting the newspaper in a surgical, exact process since they’d worked out who wanted which sections years ago. 

my mother is happier than she’s ever been. my ma, too. there is a future out there for every gay person who’s always known they’re gay, like my ma, and for everyone who figures it out later, like my mother. there’s time. 

they’re growing old together. i cannot express to you how much they are leading happy lives, loving each other, with a huge family surrounding them. i cannot express to you how much they have this beautiful future that they are living and will live. 

i want you to know, if you don’t have any older gays in your life: they’re out there. and they’re living these full, happy lives.

sometimes i look to my moms and i think, i want a life like yours. and looking at them makes me believe i will get it. 

[rhetoricalk]

Oh this made me sob. I feel lucky I stumbled upon this post today. 😭

[handsywoman]

HOLLANOV weekly schedule

[rhetoricalk]

😏😏😏

[hrgifs]

ilya + (affectionately) smacking and grabbing shane

[hrgifs]

I like you. I like you, too.

[bloodonthedrums]

this kiss isn't talked about enough

[rhetoricalk]

Very underrated lil ear kiss. Shane looks clearly panicked because he thinks things are leading somewhere he's not entirely ready to go yet. You can see and FEEL the hesitation in the first and third gif. YET!! By the second encounter with Ilya, he already feels soothed enough, by Ilya holding him, kissing him, and grounding him. The way he leans into the kiss in the second gif just... Ughhhh 😭😭😭

The micro-expressions just have me completely floored. It's a blink-and-you-miss-it moment but you can just tell how brilliantly performed this scene/show is, when there's so many miniscule acting choices that make the rewatch experience richer. ❤️

[thisfeebleheart]

Shane loves his personal space. Ilya also loves Shane's personal space.

[flodaya]

everything coming full circle (2/2)

[flodaya]

it's about being rewarded by the narrative (1/2)

[magnusedom]

“I forgive you, Mom.”

HEATED RIVALRY | THE COTTAGE (1.06)

[rhetoricalk]

This show is really the corrective experience at every turn.

[thisfeebleheart]

Ilya slinging his left arm around Shane during kisses ↪ requested by anonymous

[evanzbuck]

The Long Game — Chapter Nineteen | insp.

[tylrgalpins]

I'm drawn to playing characters who are terribly flawed and have no idea about it.

Catherine Anne O'Hara (March 4, 1954 – January 30, 2026)

[rhetoricalk]

Still in denial. 💔💔💔

[sloanegabe]

SHANE & ILYA + parallels

[existential-queeer]

They are everything to me, I fear.

[luminarai]

the most drift compatible duo on television, you can’t change my mind

[fruityfinnegan]

tom baby you’re onasprin

[rhetoricalk]

Why do I love this dork so much 🤣