hello everyone (who is everyone, anymore?)
i've been putting off making this post because this isn't an airport and i don't need to announce my departure (how self important can you BE, y'know???)
but i figured i owed at least a little bit of an explanation. even though i don't really have one.
i've been gone, i am sure y'all saw. i am gonna be honest with you. my life is in fucking pieces. my mental health is probably the worst it's ever been. i haven't had time for fandom or literally anything except barely scraping by in months. i am just. scraping.
my sister had a baby in feb (yayyy) and through a series of very unfortunate events that i literally do not have the energy to outline, i am somehow caring for my niece. my family life is imploding. my job is a fucking nightmare (thank you, us economy 🥲)
i am hanging on by the skin of my teeth while devoting most of my time to caring for a three month old. i am in. a lot of debt. my car is barely hanging on. join the club buddy
idk why i'm saying all this.
smosh was such a bright spot in my life and i made so many incredible friends in this fandom. i don't have the words to say how much i enjoyed discussing and shitposting and yakking with y'all. or how awful i feel for just ghosting literally everyone and everything. i meant to come back but at this point, irl has to take a front seat. i am tired all the time. i am sad a lot. i work and i sleep and i take care of my niece and i don't do much else, right now.
i love smosh, i loved the time i spent in this fandom, the friends i made. i am sorry i can't be more present, or even present at all, right now. i guess this is an insanely long manifesto about why i may not resume smosh posting or be around. please know that i am working on my shit, and hopefully this is just a bad season. i am so sorry to everyone who's reached out to me who i haven't been able to get back to. i am so sorry. i love y'all and maybe someday i'll be back.
all my love (for real) - hey-sacramento








