[heyhaytch]

Munchie

By: heyhaytch

You drive away, you drive far while telling stories about your life, your thoughts, and your favorite munchie. You made me laugh and forget time.

You held my hand on the steering wheel and put it on your lap while you shift gears. I was a little uncomfortable but you beg not to let go.

Suddenly your eyes went blue, you said your favorite munchie doubled its price. I was hurt when you kissed my hand.

And as 1979 plays, you continued talking, with occasional laughs and frowns I thought, I wish the road will never end. But it will.

And when I held and opened the door in front of my house, you reached out and hugged me. Our eyes met then, so as our lips.

Should I pull the door and put my hands on you or let go of this madness and step out from your world? I was so confused.

But I saw myself closing the door, and you drive again with no place to go. I love driving without a destination, only fine music.. and you.

[heyhaytch]

Heya heya heya heya..

[heyhaytch]

My only wish

Is my dreams to be fulfilled

And enjoy that life

Make my family see and be proud

Years of living it

Healthy and safe

After that

It's all up to God

I don't mind how long

It was written that those

Who truly lived

Will never be bothered by death

And those who lived

Genuinely and enough

Even death will be scared

To take that life.

From: heyhaytch

[heyhaytch]

I don't know why

If feeling something or feeling nothing at all

Is okay or dangerous

I've been empty recently

Work fills the gap in me

My relationship is just a diversion

When I lay my head at night

I wonder if I'm satisfied

I've been reading all those philosophical shit

Shit is good

I've been listening to all those affirmations

They're good

But I don't know why

Though laughing, smiling

And still feeling nothing

Is okay

And maybe uninspired

And still feeling another thing

Is just an emotional fling.

Maybe I just lost some sense here

Maybe I just need a new life

I really want a new job

I really wanted to answer that call

Inside my dying soul

Before it's too late.

[heyhaytch]

How do you maintain love? It's so easy to fall in love. When you found someone who connects with your soul, who shares the same dreams, thoughts, and highs and lows. Who sings the same songs, who says the perfect words, and craves for some more. It's so overwhelming and you're willing to chase the excitement, the bliss, the lust, because they are all new. But when everything's already known, felt, and experienced, how are you going to sustain the feeling? They say love is a commitment, like a warm embrace under the iciest and sultriest weather and a passionate kiss in the most elevated and miserable sentiments. But how do you commit to a fleeting feeling, an unknown future, and a life full of pleasant and awful surprises? When everything you came to know suddenly fades and each day became mediocre. I don't know. Still, how do you maintain love? That love shared? How do you persist despite?

[heyhaytch]

Do the angels know my story?

Do they suggest to God what they think is better for me?

Do angels wish? Do angels cry?

Do angels know I should've died?

Do angels realize what could've happened if they didn't save me every time?

[heyhaytch]

Plain and simple

From: heyhaytch

How

could

I

ever

let

you

go?

When

all

I

ever

wanted

is

you?

I'm

totally

sick

of

you.

Still

I'll

always

run

back

to

you.

[heyhaytch]

Since I can't play the guitar or piano very well, I feel damn frustrated to write a song. Sometimes I have the tune in mind. Other times I hum an unknown melody, and then forget everything. So I just write, write the lyrics, and turn them into a poem or something. Anyway, hope you like this.

H

When the tide is high

and your mouth is dry

I'm here to quench your thirst

Give me your hand

I'll carry you to a place

where flesh and sweat meets

I longed for you all night

You are the brightest light

While you sleep I touched your face

My heart was in a race

You were gone far away too long

I wrote you a song

And every song I've heard reminds me of you

I will never fucking forget you

When the tide is low

and my mouth overflow

Please be here and stop me from my own madness

This is sadness

Carry me in your arms

where I used to be

I was so lonely day and night

You're still the brightest color

When will you come over

My soul's in complete hunger

You were gone far away too long

I wrote another song

And there's always a song to remind me of you

I'll never get away from you

Do you understand

Come back to this land

You're so far away

Is there any other way?

You're still far away too long

I wrote you a song

And every song I've heard reminds me of you

Shit I'll never fucking forget you.

[heyhaytch]

Hi, I'm H! I like reading books and writing my thoughts about anything. Some of my well-known favorites include Annabel Lee, Eleven Minutes, Adultery, and The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. I cook, I bake, do yoga, and watch crime, horror, psychological, and thriller movies and docus. I love black coffee and tea. I like Alex Turner (a lot!) and Martin Johnson. I listen to alternative rock music at most and some indie or dark music, to metal, depends on my mood. I read song lyrics and get to understand their meaning. I'm a frustrated theater artist. I wish I could play at least one musical instrument very well (if only I tried harder in high school lol!) I have tattoos. I always wear black eyeliner. My ultimate goal is to become an inspiration thru my writings and convos or talks, to fulfill my purpose in life, to travel the world, and to live in the city with the view of the beach. I'm not scared to be alone, as long as I'm healthy and safe. I believe I'm going to be someone great.

[heyhaytch]

I no longer have interest

In anything else

Anyone else

Not even my relationship

It bores me now

Netflix bores me too

I look forward to going home

On my way to work

I tried to write

I slept less

I bought things I don't need

And still wanting more

Last night I read the word

And thought about it

More I feel empty

More I feel lonely

Again I try to convince myself

Everything's gonna be fine

And still nothing interests me

Anymore

Not even the things I like

My coffee has gone cold

My yoga mat got dirt

I eat unhealthy

There is no clarity

What am I doing

Where am I going

I want a new life

I'm tired of my strife.

[heyhaytch]

At 3 AM

I wondered

if I am going to make it.

The next

I asked myself

Why not?

I stared at this

for a few and

I knew.

[heyhaytch]

Lost love (I know)

From: heyhaytch

I know when we see each other again, we will talk again, laugh again, maybe love that momentary moment but

I know when we part, everything will be forgotten, as if nothing happened, and maybe pretend it never happened but

It happened, and I could still feel the warmth, the natural, unpretending flow of our chat but

I know it's no longer something as important as what we thought it was; when we hoped everyday to see each other again and do it all over again because I admit to myself it was always, always one of the best times between us.

But,

I know.

[heyhaytch]

Oh. So I'm back in Tumblr. I remember I knew this since 2009, had a few posts, reblogged a lot, chatted with some in different countries, and after all that, I left and forgotten everything. Now I plan to post my poems and stories and maybe find new mates again who share the same vibe or anything. I hope I'll keep this, for real, this time.