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I loved her but she didnât feel the same way. I donât even think she knew I loved her.
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In life, things changed. The boys you'd once grown up with were men now, and famous ones at that. The type that toured the world and had millions of adoring fans.
The five of you shared a shit ton of history. But you also shared a lot of mixed emotions for one of them in particular, a certain drummer.
In truth, I was just looking through my drafts and found this sat there from agesss ago, remember it taking me a while to make when Iâd been sick one week, itâs cringe but I figured Iâd just post it anyway seeing as Iâm never really on here anymore đĽ˛
Hi btw, hope youâre all good x
Summary: Theyâve always claimed that theyâre just friends, but to the rest of the world it has always seemed like so much more..
That was so good. I'm a sucker for Matty and Teddy. They're literally the most adorable pair.
THE PROPOSAL? Matty must've really wanted that house. Forcing a memory right then and there.
I can't tell you how much I've missed them (please keep writing about them, I can't live without them)
(Also, how are you doing? Everything alright?)
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Hey lovely I always love seeing your anonssss!!
But Iâm really glad you enjoyed it, it was an in the moment sort of thing so I didnât know how it would go down! Even so, I HAD to include Teds in this one seeing as he didnât make the final chap and because I love their relationship sm too. The kidâs growing up quick so maybe Iâll write some more featuring him through the years, no idea where Iâll start though!
He wanted that house. Hahahah it did feel like something that would eventually happen though and Mouse is the type to need a shove in the right direction ngl. So thatâs how it went down!
And I'm petrified of being alone, now | The Aftermath
House or Home?
Itâs been about a year or so and they're finally looking at moving in together, properly this time, but Mouse is stubborn and Mattyâs⌠Matty.Â
âI hate it.â
Matty all but deflated at the three words, eyes sweeping over to where the estate agent was still stood in the kitchen doorway to the pretty four bedroom house theyâd found in South Hampstead.Â
In her defence, she still had that godawful smile plastered across her face, as though the entire statement bothered her none, but her eyes told a different story. They were screaming.
Matty couldnât blame her, not when this was the eighth house Mouse had turned down this week alone. And it was only fucking Tuesday.
âSqueaks, babe.â Matty quietly attempted, mouth opening once more in an effort to get the woman to see sense. The house had everything they were looking for, it was more than perfect and how could it not be with an actual garden that Teddy could run rampant in and a sodding wine cellar to boot.Â
But she cut him off, spinning around on her heel to shake her head at the agent in a silent apology. âSorry. Itâs just not gonna work.â It was all that was said before she took off, leaving Matty standing there awkwardly with the estate agent, hands tucked in his back pockets like a kid meeting their mumâs new boyfriend for the first time.
The woman, lovely girl named Mila, slumped slightly but kept up the act, pretending like all was fine and dandy, probably more than used to dealing with shit like this.Â
âSorry love, itâs just a big decision. You know?â Matty tried to soothe, lips pulling into a thin smile made mostly of regret. And it was exactly thatâ a big decision.Â
It had been just over a year since that whole fallout had happened with the media and the sudden silence between them. And shit had cropped up every now and again after it; his management team had been a fucking nightmare to coerce and convincing themselves that this thing that they had was worth trying for had been daunting. But theyâd put it all behind them in the end, theyâd moved on.
And now here they were, buying a house. A home. Because Teds was getting bigger and bigger by the day, enough so that he now had a proper big boy bed and could ride a bike that took up a chunk of his bedroom. But also because Matty suddenly had a shit ton of crap to relocate since heâd moved out of and sold his London gaff, having slowly slunk his way into the flat heâd come to think of as home.Â
All in all, Mouseâs was simply running out of room to hold them all.
Mila waved his apology off though with a single hand gesture, tucking the ipad she constantly held under her right arm. âItâs fine, I get it. Every clientâs different.â She told him easily enough, but her smile was still so weary when she looked back at him, âIâll get to looking for a couple more properties for you.â
Matty nodded, but let his eyes flit back over to the antique cabinets he could so easily picture Teds hiding in whilst they played a round of hide-and-seek, as well as the large kitchen island that they could all use for big get-togethers or family dinners. He gave a halfhearted sigh before allowing himself to take a small step back and follow Mila when she started to turn. ââSpose this happens all the time then?â He asked her, hoping to fill the quiet walk from the kitchen to the front door.
There was a small pause, and then, âSure.â
Wincing at that, Matty was more than a little thankful to be walking a step behind the woman, especially when they stepped out the front door onto a porch that screamed American Dream and spotted Mouse propped up against the Jeepâs passenger door.Â
He tried to give Mila another polite smile when she told him that this had been the last viewing she would have for them for a little while and that sheâd soon be in touch. Matty just shook her hand, thanking her again for her time, before they parted ways and he was walking back on over to the car.
He slid into his seat, hearing Squeaks follow, and didnât say a word as he backed out of the paved driveway, admiring the stonework that lined the verdant grass and the fenced gate as they drove out of it. With one final glance at the house in the rearview mirror, he reached out to switch the radio on, the AC quickly following.
It was just as he made a left turn at the end of the quaint street that Matty heard a small intake of breath, he waited for the eventualâŚ
âIt just didnât feel right.â
Even with the slight frustration he felt, Matty licked at his lower lip and looked right to hide the slight smile he wore. He hummed softly over the low buzz of the speakers, âYouâve said that about the last sixteen, baby.â
Mouse let go of a harsh breath and Matty felt his grin grow. âWell, then I guess the last sixteen didnât feel right!â She retorted and threw her hands up in exasperation before crossing them over her chest, fingers moving to toy with the elbow of her sleeve. âIâll know it when I see it, okay?â
Matty flicked an amused brow in the direction of the passenger seat and received a scornful glare for it in return, so he merely resorted to surrendering, glancing back out at the empty road ahead. âOkay.â
They stayed in a quiet little bubble the whole drive back to the flat. Mattyâs mind stuck on the house theyâd just viewed, on the long winding staircase, the extra bedrooms it offered, that waterfall shower. By his standards, it wouldâve been perfect. It should have been.
It took a little wrangling but he did eventually manage to find a space to park on the overflowing sidestreet that their flat resided on when they finally got home, but it was at that point that Squeakâs phone rang. She moved on autopilot after answering it, unbuckling her seatbelt swiftly whilst Matty turned the car off and locked up.
She had a slight crease between her brow as they made their way up the few short steps which led to the front door and tugged a hand through her hair just as he worked the key into the worn gold lock.Â
âYeah, I can do that. Ah, justââ Matty listened to her pause in the entryway and glanced back, waiting by the radiator for her to shoot a quick glance his way so that he could ask a silent question with just a single look. She mouthed Teddyâs name before she was speaking into the phone again, only proving to puzzle Matty further. âAlright, can you hang on just a sec? Alright, thanks.â
Matty watched closely as she pressed the phone to her chest to muffle any sound the speaker might pick up and chewed on her lower lip. âWhatâs happened?â
Mouse raked her hand through her hair again and blew out a breath, âTeds has hit his head at school, they say heâs fine but the bumps come up quick. Need him to be picked up.â
It was immediate the way Mattyâs pulse quickened at the implication of Teddy having been hurt and so he was pretty hasty as he moved to grab the keys heâd just set down on the hallwayâs side, already gravitating towards the door before Mouse could even utter another word. âI can be there in ten minutes, just let them know itâll be me coming, yeah?â
A year ago, Squeaks wouldâve reeled a bit at the entire situation, what with Matty taking charge on matters where her son was concerned and on her not being the one to drop everything just to go and pick him up, but now she barely batted an eye. Instead, Matty watched on as she nodded, face full of relief as she stepped forward to press a chaste kiss to his cheek before she was speaking into the phone again, demanding to know what had gone down.
Matty slipped back out the front door with a slight rattle, his typical gait quickening as he hurried on over to the car, jumping in and starting it up once more before he could even think to worry about finding a better parking space than this when they eventually got back. Mind focused solely on getting to Teddy.
In the time Matty had known the kid, Teddy had only gotten sick twice. The first time had been this little bug, it had given him a bad belly and a bit of a cough but hadnât affected him all that much. Still, Matty had fretted all the same, nursed him back to health and had barely left his side, even if that had meant listening to the same episode of Blueâs Clues on repeat for three days straight. The second though, that had been a lot more frightening.
Winter had rolled its way back around as it tended to do and the usual flu had taken its hold. Matty himself had picked something up off of one of their roadies during the promotional tour theyâd been doing for the latest album in Europe. The tour had only lasted a couple of weeks, but heâd still been jumping back and forth between this city and that just so that he could see Teds and Squeaks as often as possible. But that in itself had also meant that Teddy had ended up catching the same bout of flu, too.
Matty had been beside himself when heâd first heard, guilty for the fact that heâd had the precious little gremlin sniffling down the phone on their next call. But Mouse had just laughed and shook her head at him, promising that Teds would be as right as rain soon enough. But not even she could have prepared for the way the kid had taken a sharp turn overnight.
Jamie had shaken Matty awake at four am, not long after theyâd managed to make it to Sheffield and hunker down for the night in some swanky hotel. Heâd been bleary eyed and still recovering from the relentless cough that had been wreaking havoc on his lungs for the past week when heâd rolled over to find his manager's nervous face staring down at him.Â
Teddyâs fever has spiked, heâd said.
It had been a freight train of emotions after that. Jamie had somehow managed to score him a flight down from Manchester to London in less than a half an hour. But by that point Matty had already been in the back of a cab, trembling hands texting with Adi whilst the woman had updated him on every single thing that had occurred back home.Â
Seemed that Teddyâs temperature had risen so quickly, having jumped from a steady 38 to 42 in less than an hour, which had prompted the most agonising hospital trip of Mattyâs entire life. And that was including each time heâd fucked up and been wheeled there himself.Â
It had taken him just over two hours to get down to them, so by that point Teddy had only just been properly seen and Mouse was in silent hysterics. Adi had ordered Finn to come pick him up from the airport, but back then the two of them had still been in this awkward sort of stalemate and so neither had spoken a word apart from when the other man had finally attempted to calm Mattyâs anxious tapping.Â
âHeâll be okay.â It was all that he had said, but Matty had found himself nodding along in quiet agreement all the same whilst heâd rattled his phone against his knee, ready to jump out of the car at a second's notice.
Driving over to collect the kid from school now, Matty felt that same agitation. The need to just be there, to see for himself that Teddy was okay. It was all that he could do to not hightail it over and fuck every traffic law he could somewhat remember just to ebb the sinking feeling that had wormed its way into his gut.
He did eventually manage to get there, making it in just under ten minutes after heâd accidentally ran a red and parked in a teacher's bay outside.Â
The receptionist startled a tad at his sudden appearance, eyes probably as big as saucers and darting about the room in hopes to find Teds stood waiting there for him. But the kid was nowhere to be seen, and so Matty crossed the room to speak to her.
âHi, here to collect Teddy? You rang, said something about him hitting his head?â
Matty had dropped Teddy to and from school more times than he could count, but collecting him from the office? That was something heâd never done before. Never even thought about, actually. And so he was fucking unsure on what the fuck kind of etiquette these people were supposed to use here. Did she need his ID, his passport? A picture of him and Teddy ice skating?
âOh! Okay then, Iâll just fetch him for you. If you could sign him out here for me?â She pointed towards a clipboard and pen sat just off to the side and then smiled one last time before she wandered away.
Matty blinked and watched her slip out a side door. Was that it?
All he had to do was just sign the kid out?Â
Matty released a heavy breath and shook his head at the thought, figuring it best to just do as was expected and have a word about it with Squeaks later on, maybe it was just something he was missing.
As it happened, heâd just finished scrawling down the last of his name when the door inside the office squeaked open causing him to jolt the y in Healy as his head snapped up.
It was as though all the tension heâd ever felt seeped out of him in that very moment. Years of stress from fucking performing, of trying to get through his own stupid exams back at school, and maybe even the trouble of having dealt with his parents and their shitty divorce. All of it just vanished when he looked over to find Teddy already grinning at him with his little book bag slung over his shoulder and a Spidey plaster stuck to the side of his eyebrow.
âMatty!â Teddy all but squealed as the kid darted away from the receptionist to barrel headfirst into his legs. Matty felt his heart give out a little at the sight of the tyke, obviously not as traumatised as heâd been expecting him to be.
âAlright, monster?â He replied softly, bending down a tad to scoop Teddy up into his arms, eyes flickering over every inch of his face just to be certain he wasn't hiding any other injuries. âHeard you had a bit of a tumble.â
Teddy nodded, almost excitedly, and Matty fought not to shake his head, utterly bewildered by the fact that the kid wasn't more phased. He almost wanted to scream, in truth. This amount of worrying wasnât typical, alright? And he was fucking getting up there in age! All the stupid shit heâd managed to achieve during his livelier years and the life choices heâd made added up in the end, didnât they? So it was an honest to God miracle that he hadnât suffered a sodding aneurysm on the way over here, or something of the sort.Â
âJust a little fall apparently.â Matty heard someone say and he looked up only to be reminded of the fact that the receptionist was still standing there, watching. She gifted him a sweet smile, eyes caught on the way Teddy clung to his neck and the way he appeared to cling back. âThereâs an accident report in his bag for you to look at, they go home with all the little ones. The nurse said it wasnât anything too big and that he should be fine, but itâs best to keep an eye on these things so if anything out of the ordinary does happen itâs best to take him to the local A&E.â
Matty felt his mouth go dry at the very implication and so he wet his lower lip just before he exhaled a little shakily. âRight,â He swallowed thickly, hand smoothing over a riot of curls and pausing on the small bump he felt at the top of Teddyâs head. âAnd the plaster?â
The woman blinked and weirdly Matty felt a little caught out, as though he was suddenly this afternoon's entertainment. He wondered briefly if she knew just who he was.Â
âThatâll have been jotted down on the report too, but from what I heard it was just a little cut above the brow.â The receptionist answered him, extending an arm out to pat Teddyâs back before she stepped away again, âYou really were brave today, Teddy.â
The kid puffed up at that, smiling proudly, but his eyes remained glued on Matty and so he returned the bright grin, kissing the side of Teddyâs head before he hitched him up further on his hip. âNo stitches then?â
âTiniest of scratches.â The woman assured him around a wide smile as she shook her head and waved his worries off.
Matty dipped his head in a slight nod, looking down at Teddy once more. âAnything else I need to do then, or?â He asked, letting that or drag out as he inched closer towards the door heâd previously barreled through.
âYou should be good to go.â She told him, eyes still lingering. âIt was nice to meet you though!â
âYeah,â Matty replied as he struggled with the door, âyou too.â
By the time the pair of them made it back outside and into the car Teddy was keeping up a constant babble, explaining (but not actually) just how heâd fallen and hit his head. From what Matty could make out it was when he was running to escape the fishmen? And so he could only guess that him and his mates had been playing a weird round of a tag at breaktime and Teddy had taken a plunge into the wrong kind of waters.Â
âYouâre sure youâre okay though, mate?â Matty asked him once they were about a minute or two away from the flat and Teddyâs ramblings had died out a tad. He glanced in the rear mirror to find Teds picking at the plaster above his brow.
âUhuh.â Was the answer he received in turn and it was enough to dislodge the last of that worry that had been eating away at his chest.Â
Matty figured then was as good a time as any to try and talk with him a little. The whole drive back from viewing that house, before theyâd gotten the scare from the school, heâd been thinking and thinking. Enough to have concocted the beginnings of a small plan.Â
âRemember how we was talking about looking for a new house, Teds?â
Mattyâs thumbs tapped at the top of the steering wheel as he waited for a reply, oddly grateful for the small queue of traffic that sat up ahead. It would give them a bit more time.
âYeah, you said a garden!â Teddy answered him and Matty figured he seemed excited enough about it all when the toe of the kidâs school shoe kicked the back of his chair. âThat could mean a dog, right? Taylor has a dog!â
Matty fought back a laugh, the ladâs only just performed a stunt thatâs gone tits up and landed him with a wound to the head but heâs more worried over when or if theyâll be getting a dog. Though, to be fair to him, a dog did sound nice. He could picture one now, out there on that grassy patch of land behind that particular house rolling about with Teddy.Â
âThatâs cool, mate. But I was just wondering what you thought about it all. A new house could mean a bigger bedroom for you, you know? Could have a couple sleepovers maybe, with a few of your friends from school.â
Matty didnât have to glance back to know that Teddyâs eyes had shot open wide, he heard it all in that delighted little gasp he made. He chuckled.
âAnd remember my old house? How we used to make pancakes in the kitchen whenever you and mum would stay over?â Matty reminded him, eyes flicking up into the mirror to watch Teds nod at him, âReckon we could do that again in the new house âcause itâd be a lot bigger, means we could all fit in there. Could even do your homework whilst we cooked in the evenings. Howâs that sound?â
âDonât like homework though.â
Matty laughed as the traffic started to pick up again, he moved to shift into gear. âMe neither, little man. But youâre a whole lot smarter than me so I reckon if we roped mum into helping too itâd all be done a lot quicker. And we could do that in the new house, donât you reckon?â
âYeah, and then I could get my Spidey walls!â Teddy exclaimed, bouncing in his carseat now, enough so that Matty was honestly a little fretful that heâd fall out of the thing.Â
âYou remembered that one, hey?âÂ
âYou promised, âmember!â Teddy shot back at him just as Matty turned onto their street, shoulders slumping in relief when he found that there was a space free a little further down.
âYeah, I do, mate. Swear I havenât forgotten.â He reassured and smiled to himself as he parked up and continued to listen to the dreams Teddy had for his future bedroom. And fuck anyone who thought he wouldnât make them happen.
The two of them walked down the street hand in hand once Matty had pulled the monster free from his homemade rocking chairâ and made sure that the thing was as secure as it should be. Teddy was happy to talk away, squealing when he caught sight of next doorâs tabby cat and then bouncing in Matty arms when he had just about managed to scoop the kid up before Teds had gone bounding into the road to follow the skittish thing.Â
By the time theyâd made it in through the front door, Matty was sure he couldnât take much more after the emotional rollercoaster heâd been on most of the day.Â
âSqueaks?â He called out whilst he coaxed Teddy into kicking off his shoes and jacket, only just managing to peel the bookbag off the kid when Mouse came into view.
âMama! Look at my Spidey sticker!â Teds called out as he tumbled on over to the woman, pointing to his head. In truth, it was a mystery how he didnât take another tumble then and there, what with the way he was skidding about all over the floors.Â
Matty let go of a weighted sigh and took to shucking off his own shit, dropping his boots onto the shoe stand before he hung up his jacket beside Teddyâs. When he stood back on his feet Teds had already hurried off into the living room, happy to be home from school again it seemed and not caring about the grape sized lump protruding from the side of his head.
Mouse quirked a brow at him when he stepped nearer, hiding her amused smile at his wary appearance, but still willing to let him wrap his arms around her waist and his head fall against her neck. âOkay, lovely?â She murmured into his hair and Matty felt himself nod slightly.
âShattered.â
âLife of having kids, babe.â Squeaks chuckled, running a hand through his curls before resting it on the nape of his neck, âThank you for going to get him.â
Matty pulled away to frown down at her, brow pinched. âDonât thank me, you muppet. Itâs weird.â
She simply resorted to snorting at the reply heâd given and then smiled, âI just appreciate it, is all. That alright with you?â
Rolling his eyes, Matty pinched her side before he slipped away. âNope. But you can make it up to me by making dinner?â
He received a halfhearted scowl at the attempt but her smile was warm and soft and everything he loved, so he didnât worry too much as he went to join Teddy on the settee.
Apparently, he hadnât really needed to ask about dinner because it seemed as though Mouse had already had the foresight to have gotten a start on it when heâd been gone. So after heâd made sure that Teds was sweet and honed into his show, heâd peeled himself off the comfy cushions and headed into the kitchen to help out.Â
Cooking together was something Matty had always loved. In the early days, heâd just been content to sit there and watch her work. But now he enjoyed helping out, even if it meant being bossed about or bumping into one another in the too small space.
It was just when they brushed against one another again, as she bent down to open the oven door that he only just narrowly missed toppling over the side of, that Matty could no longer hold his tongue on the subject.
âThis place feels like itâs getting smaller and smaller by the day.âÂ
His words were merely met by a low hum whilst Squeaks continued to check on the food. Matty spared another halfhearted glance around the cramped kitchen, at the small wooden table and the tiny fridge tucked up under the counter. Then at the washing machine that was on its last legs and the pile of pots and pans they had no space for.Â
âThat house we saw was massive, kitchen was sort of like one of those youâd find in a catalogue, donât you think?â He pressed a little further, tongue toying with the back of his front teeth as he struggled not to peer back over at her to witness her reaction. âWouldnât be bumping into one another all the time if we chose something like that.â He chuckled, but the sound of it was quickly cut short by the slam of the oven door.
âWhat, so you donât like bumping into me anymore?â Mouse asked and Matty shifted to find her standing there by the hob, tea towel fisted in the hand she held at her hip. ââCause I do. I like coming home to you, to us spending time with each other, even if itâs in silence. I enjoy brushing past you in the kitchen and in the hallway, and even in the bathroom when you claim you have to brush your teeth the very second I do!â
Matty blinked.
âI love this flat, Matty. I love the fact that the rentâs cheap! That weâre chummy with the landlord and the neighbours arenât half bad. That I can count on them to watch Teddy if something ever did happen!â Mouse exclaimed, staring back at him with those big eyes of hers, chest almost heaving.
âTeddyâs first steps were taken here!â She continued on, as though it had just slowly been building up inside her and had suddenly found its chance to blow. She paused, only to point up at the ceiling to where a splodgy patch of something hung above them, âSee that stain? Thatâs from when Teds had his first bowl of bolognese. And that chip in the tile right there? Thatâs from when you dropped that planter you got me after youâd come home from tour!âÂ
Matty stared down at the chip now, noting that it wasnât the only imperfection in the mosaic of tiles, but one that he could remember making as clear as day.
His silence must have lingered on too long though because Mouse then took his wrist and led him out of the kitchen, she stopped short to point at the plethora of guitars that crowded a corner of the living room. âAnd how about that mark on the wall? The one made when Ross and George came over for Halloween and all those guitars went toppling over as they chased after Teds.â
Teddy was watching them now, eyes having wandered away from the tele set and over to where Squeaks gripped his hand a little tighter to tug him along behind her and into the hallway.Â
She paused by the door to Teddyâs room and Matty already knew what was coming.
âYou told me you loved me here.â She murmured, stealing the breath right out of his lungs, before she then turned to spare a glance at the front door. âAnd we canât forget that door.â
Matty breathed out a faint chuckle, his startled gaze moving to find hers in the dimly lit hall, only her eyes were glassy and darting back and forth between his own, almost pleadingly.Â
âI know itâs too small. And I know we canât stay here forever. But itâs home. Itâs a place made up of all my best memories, Matty.â
He couldnât think of anything to say to that. Because suddenly he realised that this was why she had claimed that she had hated every house that they had gone to look at. Why she had been so adamant on getting it right, on finding the right one. Why she had made up excuse after excuse to get out of viewings, to turn each one of them down.
Matty reached over to cradle her face before he pulled her in close, hands falling to hold her. He smiled softly when he caught a flash of movement just out of the corner of his eye. It was barely a gesture, let alone a nod of his head, but Teddy knew what it meant all the same and bolted over from where heâd been standing in the doorway of the living room to join them.
Matty understood then. That the flat was a part of them. But moving didnât have to mean giving all their memories up. It could simply mean creating new ones, better ones. He only hoped that he could somehow convince Mouse of that. Because he knew that she wanted this too, deep down, she wanted a place that could be all of theirs, that they could mould and shift and shape into their own. But she was just so afraid to let go of the past, to take that next step, to leave the memories theyâd made here together behind.
But he would show her it would all be fine. Somehow.
So with that thought, Matty went and did the one thing he knew would have to work.
A week passed after that emotional afternoon and things mostly settled. Matty hadnât brought up another thing about house hunting or viewing talks with Mila, and so he could only guess that Mouse had been somewhat lulled into the sense of thinking that that had been the end of it all.
But then they were on their way back from Hann and Carlyâs the next Wednesday, theyâd had lunch and talked music, and Squeaks had been none the wiser when Matty had taken the Jeep down a wrong turn.
It was only when theyâd pulled onto the street and the gravel beneath the tyres had levelled and softened out that Mouse had perked up a little in her seat. Her brow was pinched when she finally turned to face him, eyes darting around, âThink you missed an exit back there.â
Matty didnât give her reply as he scanned the street for that familiar number, the weight of an unknown pair of keys sitting heavily in his right trouser pocket.
âMatty, do you even know where we are?â Mouse wondered again before she started messing about with the navigation system on the console. But Matty didnât pay it much mind, continued to roll the car further and further down the street until they reached that fenced gate heâd exited through the last time they were here. âMatty?â
He came to a slow halt and switched the engine off, shooting her a sly smirk before he slipped out the side door.
âMatty!â Mouse called after him in a hiss, but Matty was already jogging up the few short steps to that painted white porch, a tiny set of keys already warming his palm. âMatty, what the fuck are you doing? You wanna get done for breaking and entering?â
Matty snorted softly to himself whilst he slotted the key into the lock and silently thanked the lovely Mila, reminding himself to get the girl a proper thank you gift if this all worked out the way he was hoping.
Squeaks called out to him one more time as he stepped over the threshold, a smile dawning on his face as he paused to wait for her to join him.
âMattyââ She was a tad bit out of breath but mostly exasperated by the time her fingers caught on the hem of his sleeve, but then she jolted beside him not a second later. He waited, peered over at her to watch her take in the familiar surroundings and smiled when the skin between her brows ultimately furrowed. âWhy are we here, Matty? Isnât this the last house we saw?â
Grinning, Matty linked his fingers through hers and gently lured her nearer. âDoesnât hurt to take a second look around, does it?â
Mouse must have been more than a little perplexed by the whole ordeal because she didnât fight him on the matter when he started to move them further insideâ and in truth, he was really fucking thankful for that fact because he figured getting her inside would be the hardest task. And yet here they were.
The hallway back at the flat was about the same size as a twin bed and morphed into a narrow corridor which led onto the two bedrooms and the singular bathroom it had to offer. Here though, the entryway was wide and spacious. The current owners had a bench lined up on one wall where a pair of tall windows perched either side of the front door and the wooden floorboards that ran throughout the whole house homed a large vintage rug, which sat beneath a table in the centre of the room and held a rather bright bouquet.
Mattyâs eyes stilled on the wide set of stairs though sat just behind the many flowerheads. âCouldnât you picture Teds running about in here? Like, him storming in after school with all his mates behind him.â He wondered aloud, smiling as he took another step further inside. âAnd those stairs, I could see us taking Christmas photos thereâ like mum used to force me into doing back when I was a kid.â
He hadn't actually expected a reply and so he had to dampen his grin when she chuckled sweetly in return, âWhat, the three of us all decked out in matching jumpers?â
âOr pjs.â Matty countered before he led her a little further away, pointing out the large fireplace which they could use in the colder months and the downstairs loo that he could see becoming a lifesaver as Teddy grew older. âAnd look at this dining room, baby! We could have all the guys over at once in here, Adi and your mum too! Sunday roasts round ours, hey? Especially once the rest of the boys have littluns of their own.âÂ
She didnât say much to that but her eyes were scanning, surveying even, and so Matty took that as a win and together they moved further forward into the famous kitchen. The very room she had claimed she hated the entire house in.
They paused by the entrance and Matty let himself lean against the doorâs wooden beam, Squeakâs hand still holding his. Those antique cabinets looked the same as they had done a week prior, but the wash of colour seemed to illuminate under the setting sun that peered in through the old french doors.
âCould move about in here so freely.â Matty heard himself tease, voice soft though in hopes to not to break up the gentle moment. âPicture it. Making you pancakes on Motherâs day and helping Teds with his school work on the countertop there whilst we cook.â
Matty was surprised when Mouse was the one to shuffle on over towards the kitchenâs island, eyes mapping the vibrant fruit bowl and the cast-iron sink.Â
He watched on as her gaze was drawn towards the back doors, to where another patio stretched far out on the other side. Slowly, he guided her closer to them, letting her get a feel for it all before he took the handle and opened them up, letting the light spring breeze flutter through.Â
âCan you see it? A couple kids filling up the garden. Us standing here, or looking out that window there, to see Teddy laugh and smile while he darts about back and forth with a football or a kite.â Matty chuckled, already picturing it coming to life before his eyes, replacing the firepit in the back with a tyre swing and adding in a grill for him to man come summertime. âCould even get him a dog.â
Mouse shook her head even as they shared a smile.
âI know what youâre doing.â
Matty dragged his tongue across his teeth in hopes that it would dim the strength of his already too big grin. âAnd whatâs that?â
âThis, I get it.â Mouse replied, then she shrugged a single shoulder, âBut it doesnât change anything. The flats perfect for now, maybe soon we can look again and I might change my mind.âÂ
âYouâre right stubborn you know that?â Matty acknowledged, because heâd hoped that by doing this, just them wandering through the empty property, that she might have been able to see what he saw. But still, he smiled down at her.
She widened her eyes mockingly in retort to that statement, forever used to hearing it. âThought youâdâve figured it out by now, rockstar.â
Matty simply hummed, feeling the slight breeze settle around them, rattling the metal wind chime which hung from one of the outside beams. He casted his sights out across the long patch of grass laid out before them and took a deep breath, mouth twitching ever so slightly.Â
âYou know, someday weâll have to start making new memories.â He mentioned, tucking a hand into his jacket pocket.
âI know.â
It was hard not to fall apart then, especially when her eyes trailed over to meet his nervous smile. She tilted her head at him, confused. And Matty figured he just had to get it over with before his legs soon gave out.Â
âSo why not some place like this?â He wondered, fingers tightening around the hand he still held in his as he rocked back and settled down on one knee.
She didnât dare move. Staring down at him and the pretty red box he now held, so still Matty wasnât even sure that she was breathing.Â
âAre you serious?â
A chuckle escaped him at the ask and it was surprising because it sounded so genuine, even with the way his hand currently shook. âI reckon we could make a couple nice memories in a place like this. So, you just gonna let me kneel here or will you marry me?â
Mouse tried to keep the smile from off her face, eyes sparkling as she stared back at him, but in the end the battle was lost and Matty ended up mimicking the strength of it.
âIs that a yes then?â
She laughed, bright and loud, then tugged him up to wrap her arms around him. When she finally pulled away her eyes were wet but he didnât think heâd ever witnessed her happier.
âOf course it is, you idiot.â She sniffed, capturing his jaw between her palms, and she stared at him so earnestly that it made Matty feel so utterly seen. âBut it really does need a new lick of paint.â
Squeaks mustâve seen the evident confusion that crossed his face right then because she chuckled and gestured her head over towards the back door. âThe house. If weâre planning on living here then I want it to feel like ours.â
At the realisation Matty laughed in disbelief and dipped down to rest his forehead against her own.
âI think I can manage that.â
âYou better.â She quipped, pulling him in for a slow kiss before she was giggling to herself. Her eyes were bright and alive even as she narrowed them menacingly at him and prodded at his chest with a finger, âBut donât pull anything like this ever again, you hear?â
âWhat, propose?âÂ
She rolled her eyes at the question but that smile of hers was relentless.
flordia man. they just fucking suck. and thats coming from a floridian. they cant park. they cant drive. they are fuckin dumb like. cant get off your ass in traffic when theres nowhere to go dumb.
đđđ avoid florida then, got it!
but I am actually dying at this, traffic here is fucking hellllll sometimes so I cannot imagine hahahaha
El I have no idea how to explain how AMAZING this story was. How they started, how they grew as characters, especially Matty, and the way they resolve things is so them. They make me feel so lonely in the best way possible.
I do need to see Matty and Teddy's reunion, tho... so please, give me that or I'll cry
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AHHHH THANK YOU
It means a whole lot, truly. You really are too sweet!! I also appreciated all the anons as I updated hahaha, they were my favs and honestly spurred me into writing at timesđĽ˛
But Iâd be so up for writing a Teddy Matty reunion?! Itâs something Iâve been thinking about, so hopefully soon! Because I also feel like itâs needed at this point, for my own peace of mind!