Im A Bit Of A Crybaby☔︎︎

25 || 𝐍𝐉 || ♊︎ 𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝗼𝐯𝐞

[hauntingfaerie]

[ai-dream]

[ai-dream]

[ai-dream]

[heyitscasandrax3]

I am afraid.

I am afraid of change.

I am afraid of progress.

I am afraid that I’ll never have the courage or the tools to make progress.

I am afraid that one day that hug at the end of the night won’t be there for me,

Or the warm bed,

Or a hot meal.

I am afraid of being given up on.

I am afraid of being alone in crowded rooms of people trying to figure out what they can get out of me.

If life needs progress why is it so scary.

Why can’t time stay still now that things are just the way I want.

Progress means change and if that’s what progress is maybe I don’t want it

[heyitscasandrax3]

She sat on a rock on the highest peek of a mountain with the love of a thousand burning bright lights floating in the cold brittle air. She took a deep breath and inhaled the love, it went to her lungs, then fell to her stomach.

It was almost as if the love had been planted in the pit of her belly.

It hurt, but it was a good hurt, the kind of hurt that you learn from

The kind of hurt that you grow from

The kind of hurt that you’ll remember for the rest of your life

Somehow,

She saw his face in the bright lights of the city in the distance

And she said “that’s where I want to be, that’s where I’d like to live, in his heart”

She stood up slowly, and suddenly started to fly.

She flew over all the people who’s hearts were shattered

She flew over all the cries, all the screams, all the arguing

Straight to him

Straight to the light of her life

And they hugged

And they held eachother

In the sky

In peace

And that was it

There was no pain Anymore

She felt alone before

But he would never let that happen again

His heart exposed from his chest

It was a radiant red

So bright that it burned her eyes

She cried

He wiped her tears away

He put his heart in the palm of her hands

And she held it so tight

It was hers to keep

Forever

He smiled

And kissed her

A kiss that made the city go dark

And the only thing that illuminated

Was them

[ai-dream]

[heyitscasandrax3]

I am afraid.

I am afraid of change.

I am afraid of progress.

I am afraid that I’ll never have the courage or the tools to make progress.

I am afraid that one day that hug at the end of the night won’t be there for me,

Or the warm bed,

Or a hot meal.

I am afraid of being given up on.

I am afraid of being alone in crowded rooms of people trying to figure out what they can get out of me.

If life needs progress why is it so scary.

Why can’t time stay still now that things are just the way I want.

Progress means change and if that’s what progress is maybe I don’t want it

[genkais-arcade]

[heyitscasandrax3]

[heyitscasandrax3]

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[heyitscasandrax3]

[heyitscasandrax3]

[heyitscasandrax3]

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