Anyone else have embarrassing/inappropriate hyperfixations or special interests?
Like, ok, this one is embarrassing bc I feel really bad that it was something I read about so much, but maybe Iâm making too big a deal about it.
My special interests include history.
This means, for example, mummification and funeral rituals around the world. Okay, okay, a little weird but mummies are interesting, both intentional and unintentional ones offer glimpses into wider parts of history. The way they lived, the circumstances around them at the time, yk?
But that also meant, for me, that I became really interested in reading about the holocaust. Specifically Anne Frank, but the books I read were not all just about her diaries. Most included things about the rise to power and the actions done against Jewish people leading up to everything else.
I donât really remember how I got so interested in it? Itâs probably similar to how I became interested in mummies; that is, I found one book on the topic and went, âitâs time to consume every book that discusses this.â
Thank GOD that this was before I was on the internet, therefore I never ran into any deniers or anything. It was so bizarre to me to encounter someone like that for the first time because⊠Did you read anything about the holocaust? In what world could you say that everything was fake when there is image and video of it?
I feel embarrassed that itâs one of the topics I read so much about because that typically is the signifier of someone who is, you know, not on the right side of the discussion. At least in my opinion, itâs a little weird to see someone who reads and writes and talks all about the holocaust just⊠because?
Iâd like to think that my interest in it was less interest in the party and more on it being the only avenue I had to learn about Jewish things in any capacity? But Iâm not sure thatâs a reasonable conclusion, all I am sure about is that today, I have a heavy interest in learning about Judaism.
Now, itâs the only part of my special interest that Iâm ashamed about. Iâm not ashamed about being interested in mummies; there certainly is discussion to be had about how we obtain information on them, and I really hate that thereâs a museum near me that has taken a mummy from their tomb and placed them in a display. But overall, because one is more based on culture, faith and life, while the other is based on something so dark and evil, I find it really hard to admit that I ever had interest in the latter.
