Kay

she/her, 17, I write small random poems:)

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My blush would be crimson red as we held hands in the flower meadow.

I haven’t gone there ever since. The memories of you are engraved in my mind.

Now I just sit in these sheets and sob, hoping that one day you’ll remember me.

The flowers in the meadow that we picked ourselves are now filled with thorns and poison ivy.

Returning to the meadow we laid in, I rest by a tree. Though instead of the flowers and

Butterflies welcoming me, the thorns in which I wished were your soft hands, wrapped around my pale skin.

I screamed and cried, but the only words that left my mouth were your name. I didn’t give up and tried to fight the thorns away.

My lifeless body was found the next day next to the tree in which we carved out initials in. Please bury me in this meadow in which I wait for the day where you come back.

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I ignored your pleads for attention sometimes

I didn’t mean to, I promise.

I wish I could of understood you,

And I hope you understand me when I say I never want to lose you.

My mother will complain of your shedding hair.

but i’ll remember that when she starts sobbing that there’s no more fur on the wooden floors.

You’d wage your tail as you didn’t understand why

why we were all cuddling you with tears in our eyes

I hope we gave you a life of happiness and love.

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Intrapped in these four walls,

Sitting on a twin sized bed, I wipe away a tear running down my rosy cheeks.

I wondered why I was here.

Then I looked down and saw the blood under my fingernails.

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Every short glance you shot as me was like a bullet through my chest.

I wonder if I let you take control of me that night, you’d still be with me.

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

THANK U POOKIES I APPRECIATE IT!

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Unbutton my blouse, lay me down.

Don’t listen to my silent pleads.

Just do whatever you want, as long as you stay the night.

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My dear Susan.

Oh how I missed her soft smile.

Fifteen years ago today, she was taken by the monster we call murder.

Earlier, I found a doll on my front steps, it looked exactly like my sweet girl.

There was a note attached.

“I’m still alive.”

I stood there. Not an ounce of relief entering my body.

I could have sworn I killed her.

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Feeling myself disappear,

My vision was blurry with tears.

I watched all the memories fade,

one by one.

The memories left as I was fading aswell,

Holding the only hand of someone that once loved me.

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I stared in disbelief.

I didn’t crave your blood.

I only craved the feeling of your touch again.

But you insisted.

“one last memory.”

that will be the last thing you remember

Leaving the face of the Earth too soon.

(inspired by Bones and All🙁)

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I used to always show my mother how I could hold my breath underwater.

She would be so proud of me.

This time, I was unable to hold my breath.

I allowed the water to fill my lungs as sirens were heard in the background.

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shot by @silkenweinberg

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A house in Nebraska.

Pacing back and forth, the floor boards creaking.

Coming to my senses, I drop to the floor.

each and every limb has given up as I lay on the floor.

My hands tremble as I move my hair from my face.

Would you be here holding me if I didn’t die?

If you didn’t watch my lifeless body burn in that house.

That house in nebraska.

The one we dreamed of.

Now you lay in the bed that would of been ours.

With the girl that did everything I couldn’t.

(inspired by A house in Nebraska by Ethel Cain!)

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Growing up as a teenage girl, I slowly realized something.

Life is not like how it is in movies.

I’ve never received a love letter.

I’ve never watched the sunset.

I’ve never road my bike to a cafe.

I’ve never had a candlelit reading session.

I’ve never been asked out to a school dance.

I’ve never had fairylights that hang from my ceiling.

I’ve never been on a date.

I’ve never had a long car ride with a friend.

I’ve never gone to the library to study.

I’ve never had a “bad hair day” because I’ve never had a good one.

I’ve never taken the train.

I’ve never received flowers.

I’ve never taken a polaroid picture.

I’ve never felt like a teenage girl who enjoys life.

I don’t think I ever will.

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My hazel eyes watch the raindrops fall.

Your shoulder is much more comfier than the window.

You even moved your hair so I could sleep on your shoulder.

I reach down, looking at your hand. I always thought they were so pretty.

Though, you beat me to it. Your hand carefully takes mine.

My cheeks turn pink, smiling into the crook of your neck.

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POV of Casey Becker

I could barely see.

The tears were blurring my vision as I looked up at you.

Who are you?

Why are you targeting me?

I shakingly reach up and pull the mask.

Seeing your face was like a stab in the gut.

It truely was.

The person who took my life was the same person I used to love.

Please tell my parents I apologize for being so careless.

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Kneeling down, I praid.

I prayed for all of this to go away.

I prayed for the bruises and scars to vanish.

I prayed that you’d realize that deep down inside.

I am still the little girl that you held in your arms the day I was born.

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I stared into the mirror that hung above my dresser.

I tried so hard to think about what part of me was wrong.

What is it about her that pulled you to her so quickly?

The things she can do for you are the things I cry for each night.

I did what I could to hold you in my arms.

But you slipped out when I least expected.

In the dead of night

You left me in these sheets with nothing but a nightgown on.

Which is what the police found me in the night I gave up.