clueless and clumsy

ASHLEY 28 - actress - producer - singer crazy, fun, dorky, annoying, obnoxious, pretty, self confident, loving, caring, motherly

[fckindevine]

I bet her mom is proud of her too. Tell her I said great job!

[hideawaytisdale]

Thank you! Her mom is very proud of her

[agron-plz]

She should be. She did a great job, I bet. She’s such a cutie, too.

[hideawaytisdale]

She did do a great job. She placed 2nd out of 10 girls that got placed. That's just as good as first place to her. Thank you! I think she's pretty adorable myself, but I'm biased

[darkcaps]

LA looks so beautiful. I always love it when visiting here.

Never been to Jersey before. Is it nice?

[hideawaytisdale]

I like it, but I do miss home. Oh yeah. I love Jersey. I mean, I was born and raised there until I was 14, so I'll always have a special place for it in my heart. I think it's amazing, other people think differently.

[darkcaps]

Yes, Paris. And you?

[hideawaytisdale]

Oh, nice! I'm originally from Jersey, but I've lived in LA most of my life.

[darkcaps]

I guess I just like the heat because I spend most of my life somewhere cold.

[hideawaytisdale]

Are you from somewhere cold?

[itsmesiphoningyourgas]

That’s one of the most important things I learned in rehab. To take responsibility. I hit a low last night, but that wasn’t an excuse to relapse like that… having a moment of weakness isn’t an excuse. Yeah it still stings a bit. I’ve been on a steady diet of ibuprofen.

[hideawaytisdale]

Everyone has those days, so don't put yourself down because of it. It's something you can look back on one day and remember that's exactly why you don't want to go back to that place again. It's not an excuse, but shit happens. It's part of life. We have to make our own future better for us, even if that means making mistakes in the process. Ooh, Ibuprofen will be your best friend until it's healed. 

[darkcaps]

That’s true. Though…I’d rather walk around my house naked when it’s scalding hot, rather than colder weather.

[hideawaytisdale]

I prefer being cold than hot. You can put on as much as you want when it's cold, but when it's hot you can only take off so much.

[kcofrph]

Yeah no, I hear you. I’m the same—except for the fact that I finish dinner, and then snack too. It’s crazy. It’s sucked lately because I’ve had to be better about what I eat for work, and I’ve been having to work out a shit ton more, but, I can still pretty much get away with eating almost everything I want.

[hideawaytisdale]

I'm the same way! I can pretty much eat anything without gaining weight, but there's times where I do gain weight and I have no clue where it comes from because I work out at least for an hour every day. And i mean, my snacking is usually fruits and vegetables and stuff like that but I guess it catches up to me

[darkcaps]

The heat is a bit annoying, isn’t it?

[hideawaytisdale]

Yeah, especially when I can't walk around my room naked.

[kcofrph]

Ahh, I see. Yeah—there is a pretty big difference between the two. My sister is the same way. Seriously, I can’t go like an hour with out eating, it’s nuts.

[hideawaytisdale]

I snack a lot, so I don't really eat actual meals hardly ever. I mean, I eat dinner, but I never finish everything because I was snacking all day. Then I get snacky like 30 minutes later. I should be over a thousand pounds by now

[itsmesiphoningyourgas]

Ah well… I was not in a good place when I was really into the drinking and the drugs…. I don’t want to be him anymore ya know? And it was more tha a few drinks. I got wasted and then got in a bar fight, if a friend hadn’t come and gotten me when he did… I’d probably be in the hospital. And I set it last night…. it hurt like a bitch.

[hideawaytisdale]

Well, at least you're responsible enough to take responsibility for your actions, you know? Most other people would've said something like "I was drunk, it wasn't really my fault" when in reality, it was because they drank so much. But I wouldn't beat yourself up over it. It was one mistake in a whole decade. That's not bad. Oh god, that hurts MY nose just thinking about setting my own broken nose. I broke mine twice when I was younger due to car accidents, and then I had a nose job due to breathing conditions and the surgeons fixed it completely. At least you don't need surgery for it, because that is no joke.

[kcofrph]

Really? I love baking and cooking. But—I think it’s mostly just because I love eating…

[hideawaytisdale]

I can cook. I just can't bake. I ruin everything. I love to eat too though. I'm a fatty at heart

[itsmesiphoningyourgas]

Well last night I got wasted, I was ten years sober. I don’t remember much but I have a broken nose now. I learned my lesson that’s for damn sure.

[hideawaytisdale]

To be honest, I think it's perfectly fine for someone to have a drink or two now and then, even after they've been to rehab for it. I mean, I know a lot of people say it's dangerous, but no one can judge another person for their actions when they don't know the reasoning behind it. Ten years sober is a huge accomplishment, though so kudos to you for going that long. I know how the broken nose feels like though and it sucks ass. Do you need surgery to fix it or are they letting it heal on its own?

[momoletswrite-deactivated201506]

Did you ever look at someone and think, man I fuckin’ hate you… But you just couldn’t say it to their face because you’re too damn nice? It’s a real problem.

[hideawaytisdale]

Yes. Every day. 

[notchuck-westwick]

It’s a lovely night for a nice, long walk out on the beach.

[hideawaytisdale]

It would be if it wasn't so hot

[kcofrph]

Didn’t have much to do today so I spent most of the day baking. Now that I’ve announced it, lets see how long it takes for people to just randomly start showing up….

[hideawaytisdale]

I can't bake to save my life

[itsmesiphoningyourgas]

I feel like I need to apologize for last night… my behavior was inexcusable, and I did something I regret. I relapsed, hard, but I promise nothing like that will happen again. I don’t want to be that person again, and I don’t want anyone to see that person again. Forgive me?

[hideawaytisdale]

I don't know what you're talking about, but everyone deserves second chances