"i missed you" "I really want to text you" "I need you back"
I am not pitiful enough to be sending you these messages but as the only way I can expose my sadness for our departure to you, i have been doing something different.
that day we broke up, i accidentally caught you listening to our song at 1 am. back then I thought you were pathetic and stupid, we blocked each other on every single social except airbuds, a small platform im sure you dont use anymore, therefore it must have slipped your mind that you are exposing yourself to me.
but to me, it was reassuring, to know that what we had was real, that i have someone who will miss me. even now, even if you no longer blast breakup songs, i will still leave my music history on, play that song on repeat, hoping the signs are enough for you to pick up. that maybe you would check this dumb app on your phone and feel the urge to stalk my music history, to see my desperate plea to crawl back to you.
I didn't want this, my heart will always miss you, I will always let you back into my life. so please, since I cant voice my love to you anymore, let my trailing songs carry forth my apology to you. im sorry for ending it, i cherished what we had far more than what i originally amounted for.
regardless if you still love me or not, i will continue to leave this song in my spotify history for you to one day recognise. please miss me again: the same way I miss you now.