I just started crying for NO reason. I can’t stop crying. I’m not really a cryer tbh. I don’t wanna be around anymore. I feel so isolated, and like I’m missing out on life. I never do anything, I’m just stuck in the woods in fucking Kentucky. I have even been on a real Vacation since I was like 19. I never had real friends growing up. Only ever had two girlfriends. First one cheated on me all the time and the second was my only adult relationship where we drifted apart. I’ve been alone for like...4 years? So now I’m almost 26, a closeted bi, possibly trans but I can’t even explore who I am so I don’t know, person. Who has no real friends I can talk to, don’t know how to make friends let alone meet someone in a relationship type way. I just, I just, I just....god I’m going to Die alone friendless and in the closet. I’ll never see any of the world expect this wooded hell where I have to hide who I am. Even just been a nerdy otaku is a bit too strange for some folks around here.
I don’t want to do this anymore. I do t see a future Worth living for.
End of want, and don’t worry for like that one person who sees this and freaks, I’m not ACTUALLY going to kill myself. To much of a coward, and I wouldn’t wanna put my family through that.