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Danger on the Horizon

Several things are converging here in my state to make mine and my children’s lives much harder than they should be. First, what affects me personally. January 2027, they intend to take people off AR Home Medicaid unless they are working a W-2 job, in school, or volunteering for 80 hours a month. There are exceptions for those who care for the disabled of any age, but I received notice I am due…

No

This past week, I have found the word “No” very valuable. As I have said before, the word “No” is my favorite word. It used to be fuck…not since having kids. No sets a hard limit without the need for explanation. No came in handy. Let me explain the ways. My daughter Danilla called after a very long day for Ian and me. I was out working all over Arkansas and just got into my house, into my…

Skills

“Your savings and your skills are the only things that can support you.” I never heard this as a child. The idea of having enough savings to support yourself was laughable. Even the old people managed with what little bits they could garner from their Social Security check, pension, or earnings. Even my old father earned a living as a flax farmer. The only savings he had were whatever he bought…

Not Warranted

Hope is a terrible thing to have when it’s not warranted. Thankfully, my hope died ages ago. I do miss my best friend, though.

Removed

I had a post for today, but I removed it. I feel it is best for another time. The window repair man never showed up. This ruined my plans for the evening and upset Ian. It’s fine. I can make it up tomorrow. This week is busy. Plenty of travel and work. A lot of doctor’s appointments for Ian.

The First

Errand Day… payday…Ian’s money came in for the month. His back pay hasn’t yet, but his regular monthly income has. Today I paid all the debts, the credit cards, and the bills. The electric bill still needs to be paid. I am waiting to pay that until mid-August. Then we went shopping. I thought I did well. Almost everything we got was a necessity. We stopped at a Dollar General and found food on…

This Week

I have successfully moved Illyan’s PT and OT over. The OT was on hold due to a paperwork issue that really only needed a second set of eyes. Today, the therapist checked him and his papers over. He’s all set. He gets his evaluation by mid-August. They are booked right now because they have a lot of staff leaving for moves, marriages, and maternity leave. My paperwork also needs to be brought in…

War-Mart

My kids always called “Wal-Mart” by a much different name, “War-Mart.” It fits. They’re American. We have guns in our grocery store. I went to Wal-Mart after one of my jobs this past week. Normally I avoid this place if I can. They have a penchant for stopping me at the door, receipt in hand, freshly checked out by another associate. I do not take kindly to that crap. I always return everything…

Life is Not Too Bad

I know my poem today may ruffle some feathers. We all have intrusive thoughts at times; mine are just self-critical. I have learned that is not my voice. I am not sure if it’s my mom’s voice berating me from beyond the grave or some sort of psychological thing, but to me…it’s not my voice. It is an unwanted thought. My religion helps with those. Outside of the mental things I have to deal…

Spiritual War

In the dark of night, looking at my ceiling, I get a feeling, A voice in the back of my mind, “You aren’t worth the air you’re breathing.” I know that is not my voice, I know that is not my choice, I call out to my redeemer, the shepherd, the seeker, “Oh Lord, save me from this demon, release me from their scheming, I stand in you and in your truth, and that alone is healing.” “Lord,…

A Whole New World of Nightmares

So Paul and I divorced on July 14th. He had Illyan the Saturday before. Which means he got Illyan this past weekend. The order says noon to 8 pm. According to the law, if he doesn’t show up in a reasonable amount of time, he doesn’t have a right to get Illyan. A reasonable amount of time is about 15 minutes. At 12:15 p.m., Illyan wanted to know where Paul was…I didn’t know. I wasn’t about to text…

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Sick Again and Plans

I don’t know why, but when the temps get high for a week, I feel sick. Today was bad. Yesterday was bad. I didn’t eat yesterday until dinner (not bad, actually) and felt okay enough to make it home, but once home I was so sick. Today I had a cup of cauliflower dipped in ranch dressing for breakfast and yogurt with chocolate whey protein powder for dinner. It’s like a protein-rich dessert for…

Deceptive language

This is what I mean by deceptive language when I speak to Paul. Oh, it appears the child support magically was not removed from my check automatically…that’s what the first line says. He could have just said, “I took off the automatic deduction and will pay you after I get paid manually until you contact child support and set up an account there.” It makes it look like it was somehow NOT his…

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#co-parenting #divorce #receipts #spill the tea #tea #texting #trying hard to not be upset #visitation #why

You Said

You said, “Oh, I pay!” When we argued. You said it many, many times. I never understood what it meant. You look ahead with sorrow, anger, and determination, maybe. What did you see? I know you saw. I know you went there. I know you are trying to avoid whatever “that” is…But I never was told what it was…you didn’t tell me then, so I don’t expect you to tell me now. I saw many things, but none…

Heat

So now we are in summer, folks….everyone in the U.K just shit themselves over 90 F

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