A Weecest one-shot based on John's assumptions.
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Sam and Dean never went too far with boundaries as kids, never wanted to. They were close, sure. But they had to be. It wasn't romantic, it wasn't full of longing, sexual thoughts hadn't crossed their minds as they cuddle and cling to eachother.
Until hunters start to talk and gossip, as they do. About those Winchester boys and how they're always so damn close. How weird it is that they're always in their own little bubble. It was bound to eventually reach John's ears, then, he yells and throws threats at anyone who dare suggest his boys aren't innocent...
But he knows there is darkness in Sam, at least, and they do always sit so close. Hell, Sam has his big brother wrapped around his little finger. And perhaps he fears Dean is too similar to himself, with his dark, drunken thoughts of how similar Sam and Mary look, of how much they had in common...
He starts to doubt. Starts to punish them for holding hands, for cuddling, for even touching arms or bumping feet under the table.
He tells them off for spending so much time together even when they're in town long enough for them to go out and talk to people their own age. That one has Sam yelling back, "what's the difference?!" When they'd be stuck together in a a cramped car or a shitty motel again in no time.
And so John's fear grows, his son defying him, arguing to keep by his brothers side. And eventually hand holding, hugs, shoulder brushes, Sam crawling into his brothers arms at night after a nightmare.... none of it felt so innocent.
So he took action, he yelled at Sam, raised his hand at Dean. Told them it was wrong. Brothers don't do that. And if they do, it will lead them down a dark path.
He tells Dean not to think of Sam sexually, that he could tell everytime he held him close and let him sit in his lap he was thinking it. He tells Sam not to treat his brother like a boyfriend, to stop pouting and acting cute to get his affections like a whore.
And neither brother had thought like that before. It hadn't crossed their mind.
And so Dean starts to doubt, push Sam away. He's the eldest, he can't corrupt his baby brother. He doesnt let him grab his hand anymore. Let's him cry at the side of his bed after a nightmare, not allowing him under his covers. Cause if he wants that, he'll want more.
He starts to think. What more could be. Having his baby brother in his arms just feels so right, he sometimes sneaks up in the night to push Sam's hair back and just breathe in the smell of his baby, to know he's safe. And he is convinced that makes him perverted. But he wants it so bad... what else would he want?
Sam is more conflicted, acting "cute and pouty" as his Dad had accused him when John was around. He told himself it was just to piss off his dad, to prove that he didn't have Dean wrapped round his finger- and Dean would never disobey his father to his face, so he always ignored him.
But it was also an attempt to get Deans affections back. So what if they were wrong? If Dean wanted, he'd do anything their father had accused and more. To keep him by his side, for he was all he had.
Another part of him, learnt to push Dean back too. He may not have feared his Dad's opinion, but he feared for his soul. He feared he was rotted and corrupt and would one day take Dean with him. He feared lust. He knew of incest, why it was bad. He had studied it in the library the moment John had brought this whole thing up.
And whilst it had never occurred to him before, a part of him did realise. He would spend the rest of his life with Dean if he let him, and if that included all the coupley things Dean did with his girlfriends... he wouldn't mind.
And maybe they always would of come to this, from the moment they were born, or perhaps the moment Dean held Sam in his arms as their mother burned. But, as they lay together in bed, naked and clinging, finally giving in to all their repression... Sam couldn't help but wonder if this was John's fault, for planting the seed of doubt.
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