Crooked Youth @hispongebobb-blog - Tumblr Blog

At 18 I’ve found my whole life turned upside down. I went from graduating top in my cosmetology class heading to college to pursue my career. To living in my moms house with my boyfriend. After graduation I went crazy. Smoking pot everyday. Drinking. Sex crazed. Dealing with a broken heart that I was left with after two years with that person. I found I was partying too often, Hell graduation night while it was storming so hard you could barely see Infront of you. I found myself drunk off my ass in the Walmart parking lot sitting in my car with friends I thought would be there for the rest of my life. Sadly things change. After months trying to get over my broken heart. I turned to alcohol and drugs, even a couple suicide attempts. I was completely destroyed as a person. I thought I had no hope left. My friends were there through all of it. Tavie and Jessica. They were the greatest friends I could ask for. No matter how drunk or high I would get or one night stands I’d have they were always by my side unconditionally. They loved me for me. Months later I found myself losing Jessica. Someone I would want to be by my side for the rest of my life. With losing her I gained the love of my life. Donny. I went from having been with 5 people going completely crazy. To falling in love with someone I had no intention being with starting off. It started with me being bored and wanting to smoke. I met Donny at Wendy’s through Jessica. I found out he smoked so I decided I’d hit him up. That day we sat in the Wendy’s parking lot for 7 hours doing nothing but smoking and just talking. I knew nothing about him other than where he worked and his name. Little did I know those 7 hours in the Wendy’s parking lot would turn into something so beautiful. That day I found out that Donny is possibly the most picky person out there and I didn’t know it could get more pickier than me. This boy had been through a lot in life. Yet he still has the biggest heart of anyone I’ve ever met. Fast forward 5 months later and Donny has been there for me in a way no one else has. One of my best friends passed away when I found out I was an absolute mess and nonstop crying, and he just held me wiping my tears away he made everything feel just so okay. For days I stayed up crying, I couldn’t sleep. He was by my side through every single moment. He held me until I ended up crying myself to sleep. He told me everything was going to be alright and he wasn’t going to leave my side, and he didn’t. His hugs got tighter and the kisses longer. That week I realized this boy loves me truly loves me. I see it in his eyes it’s something I’ve never seen before. I’ve never felt so safe, so love, so wanted. Unconditional love. He has completely changed my perspective on life. I’ve literally never been happier. There’s nothing greater in the world then getting to spend your time with the love of your life and your best friend. Now I live my life with a smile on my face, my best friend by my side and a blunt in my hand. With absolutely no regrets. I couldn’t ask for anything better.