Buy the Wine and Don't Wait for the Grapes to Ripe

"I thought I was broken and needed fixing. Not True! I was hurt and needed healing. A completely different concept."

[histru-ly]

Dear Jesus,

Help me

To

Be more

Comfortable being in love than being in pain

-Tru;...

[histru-ly]

Be careful when you’re heart is pure

It’s like being a lamb in a den of lions

The world is cold and it’s the devil’s intention to rip you apart

He has all desire for you to drop your gentleness and become a ferocious lion

Cold and bitter-just like him

God protect my gentleness

Keep us safe and away from the evil one & all those who align with him

[histru-ly]

UTILITIES

I am used to running around on E and not realizing until I’m completely burned out and watching you with envy as my energy flourishes in you and I’m wondering why you didn’t stop me.

But were you using me if I offered myself as a sacrifice?

I’m resenting you because I put so much of my power in you that you were able to have yours on reserve.

I’m in flames & you would watch me burn because I’ve trained you to treat me like this.

I taught you that I could give 100 in exchange for 20.

With that 80 you’ve built an empire.

You’ve gained love for you and I’ve lost love for me.

Or so it seems.

You may be a fool but I’m the one that’s dumb.

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

If one does compromise It should be preferences not identity.

Tru;...

[ink-and-oceans]

“I fell in love again, but this time he caught me.”

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Let’s not forget that there are government officials saying that black and brown kids should go back to school first in all this

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does anyone else have a family that would shun and disown a member that’s lgbtq+ in a heartbeat, but take decades to expose a pedophile uncle or ????

[histru-ly]

Mhm

[histru-ly]

He makes me feel like I could fly

Like I’m about 4 ounces thick with wings

Like a bird.

Up up HIGH In the love of us

But then I’m reminded that I’m just human

I get gut feelings and you didn’t put that food in my mouth

Doesn’t stop me from regurgitating on you though

I’m hurting

& you’re not painful

I’m moody

I’m jealous

I can’t trust you

I have to heal me to love you properly

So you prepare your bandages and peroxide

You’re determined to make me well

I’ll receive your medicine but allow me to dress the sores myself

Let me see me

Let me love you

Slowly

Surely

Eternally

Passionately

Oh the love we make

The love we are

The love we take

The love we behave

Your love is my sanctuary

And I pray at it’s stained windows

Forgive me

I’m only human

-Tru;...

[histru-ly]

6.26.20

I started to record you bc I knew we’d get here & slowly but surely my heart has began to rest in you.

“”

Put you through more? Trudy, haven’t you been through enough?

I miss you so much I feel like I'm lost

Girl I'm in love with you girl deeper in Love

Deeper than the ocean like the moon green grass

How is my sweetie pie morning so far

Good morning angel open have a wonderful day today all right

Good morning beautiful girl

Good morning angel try to have a good day all right

What's up chocolate nipple

Baby girl your love is So Divine the love I got for you that's for you girl

Good morning sugar dumpling

Like one I want to be with you two you like a dream come true you are the only one I want to be with you just have to believe okay

You like an art piece girl paint your love in my heart

Because you are so natural girl perfect soulmate

I got Endless Love For You no matter what I always love you girl

Trudy, mi nah leave you

Girl, you’re in my blood girl

[histru-ly]

Post marriage I picked up a lot of bad habits.

You were one of them.

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

Welcome to adulthood

Here, things are easier said than done

Yet simultaneously are easier texted than said

Whatever the case,

A catch phrase will never be an excuse not to love yourself

Whatever you’re putting off,

GET IT DONE ✅

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

I don’t believe I or the women in my family was blessed with the opportunity of romantic love.

Although my mother appears to have found it now in her old age, I am no longer hopeful.

Men hurt and lie especially when they are hurt and then blame all the pain on you. Take all their pain in you. Then you’re left depleted. I don’t want them anymore.

Sex may be useful and the companionship may have fulfillment but there’s no use in them.

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

Sorry is not enough

You deserve better than me

Better than motherhood is Jesus.

I’m going to give you back to Him.

And I pray that By God’s Grace, all 7 of us will reunite in Heaven.

Until then.

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

Love is Hard to find

Harder to keep

Hardest to maintain

...

If you can’t love me, leave. me. alone.

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

Everybody is God’s creation but not everyone is a Child of God.

There are people among us who do nothing more but inflict pain simply because they themselves are in pain.

They’re wolves in sheep’s clothing. Appearing to love you but are truly incapable of giving what they themselves don’t have.

If I teach you the difference then I would be the most amazing mother.

Tru;...

[histru-ly]

The moment you realize that it’s your childhood trauma keeping this relationship and NOT love, you.

Will.

Let.

Go.

I believe in you!

Tru:...

[histru-ly]

Dear Men,

Women don’t have to agree with your truth.

Dear Women,

Men don’t have to agree with your emotions.

Dear people,

Waiting to be validated by someone else is a form of mental slavery.

Are you comfortable with you? Ok then, so middle finger to anyone else. 👑

Tru;...