じゃあね、スペースカウボーイ

I don't need to explain myself, not to you, not to them, not to anyone, not even myself.

[hitokirri]

Aw man my last post on this blog did not age well

[hitokirri]

So it’s been a while since I’ve been on this site. I don’t expect many people to see this but I thought I’d give an update: I’m 26 in a few months. After being around bands and live music since I was 12, I’m now a recognised live sound engineer in my city and I book bands for the bar I work at. I have recorded some bands EPs and am in the process of recording an album and 2 other EPs for some local acts. I’m in the process of starting a label for friends acts so we can work together as a collective and help each other with getting gigs.

When I was younger, this was a dream I never thought I’d reach as I never thought it was a viable option for me personally, that I had to get what was considered a ‘real job’ and committed myself to that. While part of me wanted this to be my life (which it has now become), another part of me wished to not exist, to not be alive. I can safely say I’m glad I stuck it out and persevered through it all.

I can’t say it ‘gets better’, that my life is now perfect and happy, that my depression and anxieties are no longer there - I still get scared, still wish at times I didn’t exist, and just recently got out of a depressive funk despite the joy in where I am in life - but it becomes manageable. While I definitely made myself recognised in this field through my own efforts, it was through luck and opportunity that I was given the platform to push myself further. A lot of privileges were granted to me that others may not have, and I recognise that and try to help those around me that are either underprivileged or underskilled so that they too can be where they want to be.

This is going on a much larger tangent than I expected, but I just wanted to say: I’m happy.

[mono-caps]

[blodskam]

[mobpsycho100]

[manga-chi]

[jariten]

海獣の子供 (Children of the sea), Igarashi Daisuke

[ryousa]

[liefelijk]

from present by prinz/yori

[mirayama]

[kurrusu]

[thatisrad]

You don’t have to fake orgasm to help your partner’s ego. The guy I lost my virginity to wrote a play about the experience, and the character based on me gave a monologue about how she regretted sleeping with him because no one else would ever be that good. So, yeah. Just tell him you didn’t cum. 

[girlsfrommars]

Im sorry he wrote a fucking what

[mahoumanga]

Dead • Dead • Demon’s • Dededededestruction

デッドデッドデーモンズデデデデデストラクション

[y-ureii]

[finyei]

[mangocaps]

[esoniko]