looks like a buncha fellas!

journal art and mental comics. names mentioned are aliases for safety Content Warning: mentions of nsfw/sa/self-harm/trauma, 16+ pls have age in intro/bio

[hive-in-a-mind]

somewhere to dump our ideas and diaries.

some sorta anxious mess of a system, trauma-based, not sure who's in here entirely. use he/they pronouns. 24 in body age. ice or shadow is usually front and we prefer as a whole to be called rascal or 'hive'.

below has intros/other info. read b4 engaging!

it's important to mention that this blog is our way of documenting ourselves FOR ourselves. we tend to deny that there's more than one of us and this is supposedly proof otherwise. questions/asks are more than welcome, but because we are still new to this, learning about the disorders we face as we go, we must emphasize that i don't know much in terms of DID management/system aids and shouldn't be a primary source of info for anyone. this blog is more a spot to safely show work that i know others may understand and connect with. if you know my main blog, do not mention this here, and vice versa for this blog.

ice 🧊, host

they/he, Just Some Fella. very much the voice of our anxiety >_>" idk what to put here i'm so little guy but i'm cool i swear

shadow 👁️‍🗨️, co-host/self-help

he/they! reflection of ice. internal self-help/voice of reason here! i'm supposedly what ice wants to be; the confident, stress free creator! i'm usually around to help cope and understand our thoughts. i don't like our real life job but i do what i can to enjoy my passion in animation in the free time!

flame 🔥, persecutor/protector

he/him. here to make sure no one is aggressive towards the blog/us. an early high school character, but i existed before that to deal with trauma and day to day abuse. still a hothead and will not shut up or take a seat for anyone but ice. (maybe shadow if he's not being an ass)

peepers 🧪, self-love/self-care

he/him, just a loony mad scientist with a need to cause chaos! usually i act recklessly and selfishly, no one here does what i do!

fluff 🦝, trauma holder

he/they, therian vent figure. can change in shape, species, size, etc. typically fronts in rough mental states, but has been more active fronting normally these days.

comet ☄️, oc fictive

they/he, a fallen comet. trying to adapt to the human world, but burns inside trying to survive. typically a plaything/experiment for peepers.

pony 🐴, oc fictive

he/him, my little pony; friendship is magic OC fictive. here as a reminder of what once was, my first passion (weather/meteorology) and to keep eyes on blue skies while everything gets rough!

cyclops 🔆, oc fictive/little

they/them ('he' by accident in the 'lil guy' sense). maybe little? middle school character, a cyclops surveillance robot. doesn't speak and doesn't post. just a quiet observer that often comes to front to go nonverbal and watch the world around us. sometimes a stress scroller, seeks to learn as much as possible. made my (ice) college sophomore film about him (DM to see)

starlight ✴️, inactive god fictive

they/them, god/deity figure. first to appear, ice remembers them from childhood when they had no one to trust. they are a manifestation of the stars from our childhood night sky. has the most detached comments of our group.

[hive-in-a-mind]

argued with a terf all day yesterday. this system never knows peace

by the way if you think trans women aren't women you can leave. thanks

[the-critter-collective]

The axe forgets but the tree remembers. Unless you have did. Then the tree remembers but only in the form of blurry snapshots of the axe and a distant trauma holder who won't explain why they fucking hate the axe.

[leathersys]

eventually you learn to live with it

[14ratss]

mitosis

[hive-in-a-mind]

hi sorry for lack of posting we are in the artfight grind now but prior to that we were baaad with screen time. deleted instagram and other evil apps off our phone to hopefully help

[the0peratingsystem]

Responses to 'I love you'

you thought it was one disorganized attachment but it's actually four or five disorganized attachments in a trenchcoat

None of us were made to survive in normal, healthy relationships.

[pickin-up-pieces]

Comic #6: the pride and joy of being plural. Happy Disability Pride Month, from our disabled system to you!

[audax-vallhund-deactivated20250]

Happy werewolf Wednesday 🌕

[hello-heteronyms]

usually our amnesia feels like the memories are there but they are written down in a language we can't speak.

[rad-rascal]

who's up arting their fight

[hive-in-a-mind]

*points at this post* that's us fr!!!

[pkmnearthbraingang]

the host complex gives every outing a certain je ne sais quoi

[inside-fishs-mouth]

J-Sides

[konoko]

[sparks-theastronaut]

Please, God, let me be anyone else

Closeups vvv

[dspud]

[x4sunburst]

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elaboration because i feel i can be a little unclear: this is about how my autism affects my ability to understand myself at all without looking through the lense of something else, in this case, a fictional character. despite seeing so, so many other autistic systems out there, it feels like nobody else experiences, or at least talks about, their symptoms overlapping in this way, which means i have no lense through which to look to know what I'm meant to call myself. everyone seems to just... know exactly what they are and how to describe it, and nobody seems to be in this weird middle ground i am with identity in relation to source.

this is also my excuse to reintroduce myself.