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m | 22 | she/her | this is a personal side blog | pls like my posts if you read them.

[hmidksry]

Today is WILD wtf it's not even really the afternoon yet and I'm amazed

[hmidksry]

Can't wait to go back to school and drink a six pack of beer for fun lets go

[hmidksry]

I'm so so so bad at managing money. I got my paycheck yesterday and then today I just....ordered tons of shit. I needed all of it but it's so stupid. I always go from Loaded (for a college student) to poor as shit w $20 dollars in the bank and I literally don't kno how to stop myself I got 1. Stage tape for the show I'm doing this semester 2. A new yoga mat bc mine is falling apart 3. Gillian's new book 4. A planner for the year And 5. earbugs that should last longer than the dirt cheap ones I've been buying that then die in a month. All of it I need except Gillian's book so. I shouldn't feel guilty but that's a shitton of Amazon on the way :/

[hmidksry]

I hope I at least make out w a nice gay this semester I'm needy and tired of so little physical contact. It's just...nice! I'm not pressed about being needed or liked, it's about the physical intimacy and missing being able to give in that way to someone Woaw

[hmidksry]

I'm just: "*looks into the camera* Woaaaww" about last night I absolutely deserved the puking I did this morning I'm awful and I'm never drinking with ppl from high school again

[hmidksry]

Being uber extremely drunk is a Joke!!!!!'nnnnn LMFAOAOOAOO UBER POLL???? Kill me!!!!!

[hmidksry]

I'm gonna talk Abt tonight in the future and b like "never do this' to my friends I'm fried af

[hmidksry]

What's a whip it

[hmidksry]

This French vanilla hookah tastes like shit and I wanna be in bed anywhere but here lmao a mess we're in what this girl calls her "trap house" and there are two chinchillas that haven't been cleaned and it smells and I drank too much Bacardi don't worry abt me but this is really bad I hate the taste in my mouth

[hmidksry]

Tfw ur spending money and time on getting fucked up w ppl u don’t care about in a random part of the city and also u hate urself (:

[hmidksry]

Tfw u wanna sit in the living room and watchh X files all day without pants and ur mom is like 'u should bake something, ur ex's mom is coming around for tea'

[hmidksry]

Finally got a spinner ring that fits. Let's hope it fucking helps bc the dermatillomania been wild and my pointer finger split.....that the anxiety m'dude

[anshelinasholie]

me for 3 years straight: “sorry i haven’t been myself lately”

[hmidksry]

When ur supposed to be doin five things at once and they're all bad and u just start yellin (: that the anxiety m'dude ((:

[hmidksry]

When ya already havin a carb hell binge day and then u get one of those spam bots on Instagram telling u to buy a diet package ((((:

[hmidksry]

My mum's in the ER again for something entirely different than what was last month...... And it's making me super anxious and stressed out which leads to a mean and rude and selfish me and I hate myself for not being there for her right now, I don't like me like this I hate it

[hmidksry]

Like I've always been so anti- being read as butch/masc bc 'I've never particularly ~felt that way' which like...what did I mean what do I mean. I'm not rly femme! I never have been, ever! I've just got a weird confusion of internalized trans and lesbophobia so workin through it tryna find my balance is nice and tryin not hate myself! Nice!