h o g o t s u k i ☾

            cognizant within the existence of his paramour,         a direful cerulean ember calcines betwixt his rib cages,             covetousness lambent within his cobalt optics. { Suzuya Tohzuki RP blog }

[hogotsuki-blog]

I'd like to -- more than anything, extend my apologies towards the delayed replies, the increasing followers while I never post anything here for about more than awhile. I'd like to inform everyone that I'm keeping this blog -- but there will be no guaranteed replies as of now, since I am currently focusing on my last semester. Otherwise, you will be able to find me roleplaying as Shin from AMNESIA here (yet to pick up activity as well--). However, even so, I don't guarantee much of anything, I apologize.

Still, for all the support I've received, thank you. Thank you for staying along with me and remaining patient with what I have. I ask that you all should remain a little more patient, and I'll soon be around. Thank you -- again and again, seeing that I do not know how to show my infinite gratitude as of now.

[clarasdead-deactivated20130902]

Starry☆Sky characters 3/??

[poundofsunflowers]

hogotsuki started following you

“S-S-S-S-S-Suzuya—— H-Hello—”

[hogotsuki-blog]

            "Aah, Haley... What's with the jittery greeting?"

[hogotsuki-blog]

I want to eat one of Suzuya's bento someday~ I bet it'll be delicious.

            A tauntingly amused smile adorned his features as he took her words into perception, as he raised a hand to touch against his chin. "My bento? I'll gladly make one just for you, Russ," serving sweet words as an antiphon to the damsel's comments, he chuckled at his very attempt to be suave. Placing an appendage upon the collar of his shirt, a wider, sincere smile replaced his laugh.

"--I still do mean it, though, even though I laughed."

[diediemurderbaby-deactivated201]

“Ah- you’re always so thoughtful, Suzuya! It’s great to have a friend like you around. Oh, right! Have you cooked up any delicious meals recently? Knowing you, they would all taste great anyway.”

[hogotsuki-blog]

            "Haha--a friend indeed... I have always been cooking, no less for you and Kanata, so there's no need to ask that. Jokes aside, I've been trying out Western meals, but I'm not sure how they came out. Would you like to have a try someday?"

[diediemurderbaby-deactivated201]

“To the best of my abilities! I’d rather not have you and Kanata worrying about me 24/7 and be on my case about it!”

“How about you, Suzuya? Have you been doing okay?”

[hogotsuki-blog]

            "That's nice to know, I'm glad that you have been taking care of yourself. It would kill me to see if you don't... I've been fine myself. "

[hogotsuki-blog]

how close is too close

[petitehiyorinn-deactivated20140]

D—Did he just laugh at her? Had she said something wrong? But his expression had softened and it was because she had said just the right words…? Whatever it was, he seemed to have softened toward Hiyori and the pain inside his gaze disappeared. Especially since he breathed a sigh of relief with a comment she did not seem to understand. When he knelt down a bit to use his hand to wipe away her tears, she flinched at first before she allowed him to finish.

When he had finished, was only then did he realize that perhaps he shouldn’t touch her face but she didn’t mind. Not really. His touch was gentle and kind and it was nice of him to even consider wiping away her tears. Before he could even withdraw his hand away from her face, she grabbed it, unaware of what she was doing before she leaned into his hand.

“It’s okay,” she began softly. “Tohzuki-kun… wouldn’t… hurt me intentionally… I—I trust you.” Even though he had hurt her, there was probably a reason as to why. But she felt, that he was a kind soul, and she wouldn’t want him to be hurt because of something he was doing that might perhaps help her in the long run. She’s already come this far and she wanted to assure him that she—in spite of everything—still trusted him.

[hogotsuki-blog]

            The gentle, yet wary repression she adopted upon her touch alerted him so, that perhaps it was a mistake to reach out to clean her face of the wetting taint of tears. However, upon her taking hold of his appendage to lean against his palm merely chained him to her and it took up all of his willpower to avoid himself from returning the loving gesticulation with a spasmodic antiphon with his personage.

A warm smile adorned his features at the sight of the damsel, at the words she chose despite his depreciation of her which seemed to occur just within seconds ago -- for he was the type of person who could not, for a moment allow himself to forgive his deeds so easily. There were past solecism he has yet to palliate, as it sat within his heart, rotting his core from the inside.

"Just call me Suzuya..." he chuckled, anxiousness adorned his gentle laugh upon the perception of his name playing upon her trembling lips, "--I'm glad at all that you do trust me," he spoke, taking in the texture of her facial assets from his appendage she held so defensively against her face.

[hogotsuki-blog]

how close is too close

[petitehiyorinn-deactivated20140]

She wasn’t sure what she was expecting when she had asked that question of hers. Stifling her tears to a sniffle, she waited for him to answer, watching as his gaze looked to the ground rather then toward her. The expression then, that appeared on his face made her want to go forward and to reach out and touch his arm, to perhaps soothe the pain that almost appeared in that smile of his.

Even though they briefly knew one another, even though she didn’t know him all that well, he was still someone kind and she held true to that belief. After all, he brought back the book for her—she didn’t understand why. Hiyori’s gaze softened then, at his words. Her? Who was this girl that he mentioned that he compared her to? But at his words of no longer seeing her again, she seemed to have jumped from her place on the bench and ran toward him, grabbing hold of his sleeves as she looked up to him, her expression agonized as her tears began to form once more.

“N—No! Y—You were just…—!” She swallowed her words then, trying to sort through her jumbled thoughts. What was he trying to do? Teach her a lesson? But, regardless of how he hurt her, it’d only hurt the both of them if they separated now, being left with feelings that would only end in regret and pain. Hiyori didn’t want that for either of them. She was about to release her hands from gripping his arms just as she mumbled, “Y—You’d… n—never want to hurt me… intentionally…”

[hogotsuki-blog]

            The mere recollection of Tsukiko played as flashbacks within his brainworks, and it pained him as his heart grew weary and heavy -- of all the pretence he played -- of all the pain he carried evermore. His cerulean optics remained upon the ground as he spoke, as her gaze upon his facet softened and as the anger and dysphoria within her faded away.

The gesticulation she adopted, however -- was beyond his expectations. The innocence, naivete of Hiyori remained within her heart -- the mere light she didn't require a refulgence of to exhibit. The ray of pure sinlessness within her required none a single mirror to display -- for she possessed the potential itself within her. Her hands took hold of his sleeves and his pupils dilated upon taking in the sight of her dim-lit features.

So child-like, yet so ... Exquisite.

A chuckle bubbled against his lips, indeed -- a shadowy one as he exhaled a sigh of relief upon comprehending the words she took to deliver, so sincerely. "You seem to really believe so, don't you?" the man could hardly resist the mere thought of adopting the protective kinesics upon her -- to reach out and wipe away the lucid clear tears adorning her porcelain cheeks and so he did.

He lowered himself to clean her facial assets of the wet taint of sadness. Upon the thought that he has concluded the response, his expression enunciated the astonishment upon realizing just exactly what he may have done.

"Ah--I'm sorry... I touched you without your concern again, didn't I?"

[hogotsuki-blog]

/throws self at in a hug from behind and cuddles tightly before fleeing

            A moment, yet within the split of seconds did it take for him to comprehend the gesticulation. Hesitation filled his heart as the kinesics she adopted eventuate, yet within the snap of time he let a smile accentuate the lambency of his facial features. His two appendages reached out to the hands of the damsel as he took the seconds to pass by in order to luxuriate in the embrace.

Upon her retreating of the embrace, however, the man's features soon fell into a disappointment, if not another flash of astonishment prior to the exhibition of a bringdown. "A--ah, I see. Thank you for the... Hug then," oafishness clouded his words as he raised an appendage to rub the back of his neck, a trademark -- yet faint smile splayed upon his facet.

[heshikiru]

[diediemurderbaby-deactivated201]

“You kind of seem a bit down.. What’s the matter? Did they call you mom again?”

[hogotsuki-blog]

            "A--ahah... Do I? But no, they didn't. Have you been taking care of yourself?"

[diediemurderbaby-deactivated201]

 » hogotsuki started following you “Good evening Suzuya!”

[hogotsuki-blog]

          "Tsukiko... Good evening to you as well..."

[guardianpianist-blog]

Exasperation firmly rooted with unconvincing spout of off-hand remark whilst delicate hands, skin blemish free to superlative standards as necessary, ascended to tight-curled tresses in nervous gesture. Dogged, tenacious, driven to pertinence by astronomical and notable levels of stubbornness. Refusal of admittance to the fact his statement was virtuous.

“Magazines… Photography… Modelling outfits.” Mumble beset formerly bold tone as if ashamed or else self-conscious. Accusing glare lest he mock. “I work for an agency.”

[hogotsuki-blog]

          A flatus of warmth, the expression of a sigh within comprehension bubbled against his lips upon listening to the elucidation formed by the damsel before him. Gestures played by slightly inhibited conduction, he took within perception.

"I see. That seems to explain your need to control your meals. Though you do realize that eating more aids in metabolism as well, no?"

[hogotsuki-blog]

how close is too close

[petitehiyorinn-deactivated20140]

She flinched at the touch of something resting against her and moved her knees down to take a look at the bagged item that was now placed beside her. Her small hands looked through the bag to find out that it had been the book that she had been looking at with—

She turned to face him, watching as if he was walking away, “To-Tohzuki-kun…!” she said with the softest voice. She held the book tightly in her hands, shaking slightly as she stayed sitting where she was. “Wh-Why…?” she asked, her fingers almost turning white from holding the book so tightly. They weren’t together and they were barely just strangers, someone that she barely had the time and understanding of getting to know.

Why, even after that, would he bother to get the book for her? Didn’t he want her to not trust him anymore? Didn’t he want to hurt her in that way?

[hogotsuki-blog]

            Upon his perception of her words, the man averted his cerulean gaze onto the ground, the dark, caliginous floor of the aquarium as the gentle rays of light from the aquarium penetrated the mere glasses utilized as the barriers for the fishes. How he wished to be able to be there out of his own intention instead of this laceration of having hurt someone. No less, a mere damsel he met as of late. A student... To be taught.

A weak, smile so faint it lacked the coruscation he seemed to have possessed a number of times -- which to him, or perhaps to others was the refulgence burnished from the moon's reflection of the sun. How... Humorous the thought seemed to play within his mind then, that he could not comprehend as to how his smile even possessed a single charm -- for he was... A mere moon. To simply reflect the light of another.

"Perhaps it's because you remind me of her, perhaps it's because you seem fragile... I'm sorry I hurt you. If you wish I won't be seeing you again. My apologies. I know I won't be able to make up to it all that easily."

[hogotsuki-blog]

My apologies for the delay as of late, but I've been driven up to the wall by my parents due to my failure to attain my driver's license again so I kinda have to rush things, and this Monday I've got a registration coming up and a friend's coming over to stay at my place for a week or so -- so really, don't expect much orz ;;

[hogotsuki-blog]

☾ indie blog until May 1st.

[hogotsuki-blog]

how close is too close

[petitehiyorinn-deactivated20140]

Hiyori had run off without really knowing a destination. All she knew was that she wanted to hide, wanted to disappear. This hurt. What was he trying to do in doing such a thing to her? No one’s ever done such a thing to her before and in such a forward manner. It hurt her to think that a person she trusted, a person she thought to be good would do that sort of thing to her. It was too cruel to be meant as a joke, having since she’s never even had the opportunity to experience it in an actual relationship, that she only wanted to find out what love was like.

When she spotted the aquarium, she thought that it’d be the perfect place to hide: it was dark, with lots of corners and areas that she could easily find and hide. Making a run for it, she averted her gaze from the person selling the tickets to go inside as she quickly bought one, and dashed inside. “He-Hey! Wa-wait!” the ticket master shouted before watching the small girl disappearing inside. He sighed as he pushed up his hat a little, scratching his head. What was he to do? He had seen her crying and she was such a small girl, he wondered if she perhaps had gotten into a fight or something had happened to her… With a sigh, he mulled over what he ought to do.

Hiyori ran around the aquarium until she found a secluded room, where there were no one inside to view the fishes that floated over and around them. Everywhere was tinted blue and dark, but it was warm enough that it comforted her. As she was trying to find a spot to hide in, she recalled a promise she had made with Ri-chan and resisted hiding further and decided to sit in the center of the room on the bench, curling up to hug her knees to her chest.

Was she wrong in her assumptions of Tohzuki-kun? It hadn’t seemed likely because he seemed so kind to her when they had first met. She couldn’t understand what was to be the matter now. Why? Why did he do that? Was it his intention to hurt her? Was this a cruel joke he decided to play on her? Her chest ached, her slender shoulders shaking as she cried softly… not sure what she should do.

Was it Tohzuki-kun’s idea of getting her to not trust him?

[hogotsuki-blog]

            A darkening, guilty sigh escaped his lips as he carried the book in hand, leaving the bookstore without waiting for the change, without waiting for a single plastic bag to be passed to his appendage -- no, he simply dashed, out to chase the younger girl, in fear she might be within the danger of the outside world. "--That was really too far," mutterings futile as stars within the halcyon day's atmosphere, the amaranthine venom within his heart grew merciless by each striking second, for his clear eyes sought for the girl and saw nothing.

Yet inquiring others of such individual would never be a problem, for her height was unusual, yet not a second would he complain, not a second would he judge her for her height or appearance because she was attractive within her years, amongst her peers perhaps -- for she held a certain mirror of fragility upon her facet. Therefore, with her unique height did he placed a high disquisition against his tiers, to seek for her location as the crowds before him pointed towards a direction -- the Aquarium.

It wouldn't be surprising if she sought a corner to cry there, after all. The tranquil atmosphere such places displayed were already an attraction, especially for lovers themselves.

Without a single thought, the man arrived upon the counter of the attraction, to question if a small damsel passed through -- to receive an answer, with a puzzled expression. Suzuya sighed, relief beginning to wash over his heart, yet still a trace of anxiety would not ever leave. The man paid for two tickets, "One for the girl, and one for me. You did mention that she didn't pay for it, right?"

-- The real search within the darkness was an eventual event, and Suzuya had to be patient upon walking in -- noting that there were other customers without appearing too suspicious. He did not call out for her, nor did he looked around wherever there were customers around, and upon arriving at the entrance of a room with a single girl sat upon the bench, he could not brave himself to face her.

Well, at the very least, she is safe..., what was he pursued for within his line of brainworks, and with that in mind he walked towards her, to note that her facet was obscured by her knees. The man dared to not make a single noise, placing the book beside her upon the wooden, timber bench, prior to turning back, if only to hope that she would not notice him, but the book.