mabel

she/her ☆ twenty ☆ scorpio nsfw content (18+)

[hollandcrush]

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[hollandcrush]

hello,

i was wondering if someone could give me some suggestions or share their experience… (tw depression talk below cut)

i have been struggling with depression since i was very young. a constant battle, never ending cycle. but the past two years, especially the past nine months, i have been fighting constantly. and i don’t know why i am like this, like i don’t believe there is a single reason.

i have completely isolated myself. moved away from friends, stopped talking to people etc because i wanted to protect them from me and what i am going through. i don’t seem to find joy in life anymore and if i have learned anything, i know it hurts people to see me like this. because i know these people in my life do love and appreciate me or did at least.

don’t get me wrong, i want to live and i want to become a better person - but it’s like i can’t…. i have no motivation, and if i do get a burst of energy, it lasts like four weeks before i am falling apart again. the worst part is, i don’t think anyone sees how much i am struggling which scares me, like have i become accustomed to this way of life? is this the only way i know how to live? i have faith that this will end. i just want to save myself i guess.

if anyone has been in a similar boat, could you please share how you helped yourself? and i probably have heard every suggestion under the rainbow, but ig i just wanna know i am not alone and that others have been in my position and there is hope for me still. sorry about this sudden intrusion on your timeline. lol.

[hollandcrush]

don’t listen to that message. take all the time you need for yourself. if you don’t ever want to come back? that’s okay. it’s your choice and nobody can stop you except yourself. take care of yourself and don’t worry about anyone who follows you on tumblr, we’ll survive <3 do what’s best for you, love. i hope everything is going okay and if not, i’m hoping it gets better 🤍

thank you <3 i appreciate it sm

i love writing, but i feel lost atm. i have been feeling like this for over a year now. i am just stuck and idk… just shit to come back on for a hot sec and see that message. like i needed to be there for me, pls don’t guilt trip me into thinking i shouldn’t have left.

[hollandcrush]

when the world needed u the most u vanished

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don’t hold back

college!peter parker x reader

summary: two hormonal students wander into a room during a frat party, what could possibly happen? maybe you discover that under his heart made of pure gold lurks a hidden powerful, dominant side.

word count: 4,685

warnings: alcohol mention, drug mention, but pure pwp smut minors dni (18+) extended warnings below bc i am not trying ruin the innocent :)

a/n: i would like to state that this is much longer than i anticipated.. but anyways, i am just gonna be honest, i have a major size/power kink. so this fic is my ~fucked~ up mind laying it all out for my fellow lil nasties ;) fair warning, this is pure filth. sorry for any mistakes and bad writing. but i hope you enjoy it x and let me know what you think ?!!

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okay but. i love don't hold back so much.

it's literally one of the BEST piece of smuts ever like hot damn!

hope you're having a good day tho <3

okay i just saw this in my inbox, thank you so much. i honestly didn’t think it was that good when i put it out. it took me literally two hours to write, which in comparison to my other fics is short. BUT OMG I JUST CHECKED IT AND IT HAD 6k+ NOTES?????? HUH??? the last time i looked it was at 3k… that is just- wow. so thank you for all the love <3

[hollandcrush]

Hi, I don’t know when you’re going to see this but I want you to hear this. I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been going through, and honestly I can relate. This year has been one of the worsts so far, but by the end of next week, it’ll be a new year. A fresh start. I hope that you’ll have an amazing new year because you deserve it. Stay safe, happy holidays, and you’re loved! 💗

this just put a smile on my face thank you so much ❤️ last year was just terrible, but i am thankful we both made it to 2022. i decided i am just gonna have to try and focus on myself this year, which is hard to do when you hate yourself lmao :)) anyways, we take one step at a time. thank you for this btw, it really did make me a little happy. hope your holidays were wonderful and ily <33

[hollandcrush]

i kinda wanna write a ‘normal people’ series with tom…. idk tho.

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and if i talk to you before christmas, happy holidays !! i know it isn’t the best of times for some of us, but i hope you find some joy over the well deserved break. and i will wish you all the best for the new year. you got this <33

[hollandcrush]

let’s talk??

so um first of all.. hi.

i just wanted to get on here real quick and let everyone know that i am alive and well. and i hope you all are keeping healthy <33

i am gonna keep this short and sweet-ish :/// i have not lost my passion for writing nor my passion for tom holland. if i am being honest, i have gone through a really shit eight months. depression has been something that i have suffered with since i was thirteen. i thankfully have learned to live with it and keep battling on, but i burn out so easily. i couldn’t find the energy to get out of bed to brush my teeth nevermind write or read anything on here therefore i needed to prioritise things in my life (college and such) i really wanna get better soon, and return to happy old mabel, and i am trying. taking one day at a time. so please bare with me. thank you.

btw, i simply am so shit at holding convos atm as i don’t have that kind of energy, plus, i am so embarrassed to even say hello to anyone i used to talk to. so if any of my mutuals see this… i am so so sorry and ily still !!

[hollandcrush]

Ok, ok, but you and Peter, still new in your relationship, go for Ice Cream and it’s sweet and silly and totally innocent…until….the two of you watch the other lick their ice cream and start thinking ✨thots✨ so when you get back to your place your guys try those tongue techniques elsewhere. 🤤👅💦

i love this idea !! but @hazofmyheart has a fic that basically is this and it’s called ice cream tease and it’s amazing :0 thank me later <3

[hollandcrush]

your “don’t hold back” fic got me thinking…you know how when ppl get a house/apt with their s/o and they “christen” the place by having sex everywhere and on every surface? i feel like peter is like the perfect contender for that with his stamina and everything and i just—😩

omG STOP. the way i have this as a fic idea already for pete :0 it’s so true. his stamina… it’s too much. i can just imagine him picking you up after round three to carry you to the next part of the house bc your body would be too weak. he would not stop until every room, piece of furniture is christened 🤤🥵

[hollandcrush]

hey! you haven’t posted in awhile just want to make sure everything’s alright!! stay safe <33

i really appreciate you checking in x sorry i have just been so busy with life and work. my life was on pause for so long bc of covid and my country is finally starting to reopen… it’s overwhelming! anyways i hope you are keeping healthy and staying safe <3

[hollandcrush]

i need some inspo to write :/// pls send me in your thirst thoughts about peter or tom.

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the tomdaya thing happened last week!! also they’ve been spotted together a few times since then :’) they truly look so happy

last week? omg i am so behind. but i am delighted for them. i am so glad all the pressure from the tomdaya stans didn’t make it awkward for them.

[hollandcrush]

don’t hold back

college!peter parker x reader

summary: two hormonal students wander into a room during a frat party, what could possibly happen? maybe you discover that under his heart made of pure gold lurks a hidden powerful, dominant side.

word count: 4,685

warnings: alcohol mention, drug mention, but pure pwp smut minors dni (18+) extended warnings below bc i am not trying ruin the innocent :)

a/n: i would like to state that this is much longer than i anticipated.. but anyways, i am just gonna be honest, i have a major size/power kink. so this fic is my ~fucked~ up mind laying it all out for my fellow lil nasties ;) fair warning, this is pure filth. sorry for any mistakes and bad writing. but i hope you enjoy it x and let me know what you think ?!!

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[hollandcrush]

LOOK

when diD THIS HAPPEN?!?)))? omg i am so behind. THEY LOOK SO HAPPY WTF.