I'm scheduled to have top surgery on April 1st! I am and will remain a cis woman, I'm not even genderqueer that I know of, but I've never liked having breasts, I can't take it anymore (especially since I've reached the age of yearly mammograms, I had my first one last August and that was the final straw), and I finally have the means and the support to have this done. Any recommendations for books or fics I should read, or shows I should watch, while I'm trapped recovering in my tiny apartment are much appreciated!
T-3 days! I am at the stocking up on food and cleaning my apartment stage. I've collected my work from home project and office supplies for the next few weeks. I've got a bunch of stuff in my library queue and my parents have provided more documentaries to watch. It's going to be rainy for the first few days of recovery, it looks like, and I am really looking forward to watching it through the window and reading books.
My parents can't come to help any more because my dad injured his knee (he'll be fine long term, it turned out to be a bad sprain, no surgery necessary) but a bunch of very kind coworkers are stepping in on short notice to pick me up after the surgery and watch me overnight afterwards, and periodically come over to help with laundry during my recovery. I'm so grateful to them and glad the surgery can still happen! It does mean I've got to spend part of today hiding my extensive collection of fandom stuff in the closets, because I am extremely buttoned up at work, but hey.
Anyway, things are progressing! I'm really looking forward to getting rid of my entire drawer full of underwire bras, I must say.
Top surgery is accomplished! The medical staff and my coworkers who stepped in to help have taken extremely good care of me and so far the pain is controlled with just Tylenol. I stayed in a hotel overnight with one coworker because I needed overnight supervision but didn't want her to have to try to sleep in my shoebox apartment, and will be heading home in a few hours. I'm all bulked out with compression bandages but am still enjoying what I can see of my new contours!
72 hours post op and I have swelled up as you'd expect, but the compression bandages are helping! I was given prescription pain meds, but all I needed for pain control was Tylenol and I don't even need that anymore. I've gotten two looks at my bare chest (once when I showered and once this morning when I took pics of some bruising to send to my surgeon) and I cannot even tell you how happy I am with it even all puffed up, I feel a million times better! I'm excited to see the final results. Doing well overall!
Tomorrow I'll be two months out from surgery! I had a somewhat rocky recovery, unfortunately, but at this point almost all my restrictions are gone. I'm a bit weak in the upper body after having the lift limit for so long, but I'm getting back into more of my usual heavy lifting at work. I've been back at work in person for 4 weeks now (I worked from home during the 4+ weeks I needed 24-7 compression, and went back when I was cleared to go down to compressing only at night). It'll be a while still before I see the truly final results as everything is still settling and my right side (where I had some complications) is just a bit swollen still. (You can't tell I'm a bit lopsided still through my clothes, and being a cis woman I'm hardly going to walk around topless in public, so it's fine)!
I'm absolutely THRILLED with the results. I feel so much more comfortable and better about myself, even more than I was hoping. My parents visited last weekend and saw my results for the first time, which I was nervous about as I had had trouble getting them to understand that this wasn't just a breast reduction, but they said they were impressed with the surgeon's work and how good it looks, and glad that I'm feeling better now, so that was a huge relief. I'm way past the point of needing parental approval of course but I'm just glad they were so supportive in the end.
I was prepared for some of the post surgery weirdness, like all the nerve endings in my skin being in different places and most of my tops no longer fitting, and totally unprepared for some of it, like how when your chest stops bouncing, for a while you're very conscious of how much the rest of you bounces when you walk. It's been a fascinating time! From the other side this was definitely one of the best decisions I've ever made, I'm so glad I did it and really enjoying the results!






















