Lust For Life

I ramble on here, don’t mind me-Pao ✨ ♋️

[hollywoodacid]

Failure is apart of life. As much as you tell yourself that it’s going to hurt. You have to allow yourself to feel it but not be consumed by it. I have to change a lot of future plans to accommodate this year of 2023 and just push them to 2025.And I have to remind myself that things happen for a reason. I need to grow more and that’s okay. But for now it’s okay to cry and feel messed up. I have always been someone who wants things now and a certain way. It’s something I take pride in that I’m very organized but things like this are just out of my control and it’s in gods hands now. I just have to be thankful for all the good I have and no matter what keep going in the path Im already in. This year just started and I wont write it down as a bad one just yet. It’s what I make of it.

[elizabug]

[remanence-of-love]

[superkursunaskr]

[ur-daily-inspiration]

[rosenfey]

⊱ THE ELDER SCROLLS V: SKYRIM + scenery — 7/?

[lizmitches]

you can be peeling a boiled egg and think to yourself wow. that was so simple. and then you peel another one and it’s like being in the throes of war. shell everywhere. egg mangled. tears in your eyes. that’s how god keeps you humble

[hollywoodacid]

nostalgia is hitting me hard with this tumblr phase i got going on again.

[theman]

Sweet Nothing | Taylor Swift

[hollywoodacid]

Just because

Its valentines day and i’m home alone while my fiance works, and for once in my life, i dont feel weird that we didnt do anything. Maybe its because of the job process im going through right now that has me busy or just the fact that im just happy to have had the quality time these last couples of weeks with him. I can smile knowing that I am loved today.

We made five years this month and that now counts as the longest relationship I have ever had. We went to hotpot after the five hours of background check and drug test I had to endure and I’m always jut so full with the support I feel from him and his willingness to be there for me. 

Even if this career path doesnt work out, I know as long as I have the support system I have now I will be okay with whatever life throws at me. 

[netch-rancher]

Skyrim scenery: Dawn in the Reach

[fatimajpeg]

past valentines

[hollywoodacid]

New Chapter.

I’m  tracking down all my roots. My socials will be looked over(whats left of them) and its crazy to think this is the one place I always thought I would stick to. In a week I will be giving a piece of paper that shows every part of me and my history. Ive been training hard for this moment mentally and physically and its finally here. 

I think back to how fragile and sad I was and how I would write down every thought that would come out of my mind and into this blog. Journaling has become more of my thing but even so writing my thoughts here, just feels right. 

I’m unsure if I stopped using the app because it was already dying ever slowly back in 2018 for me or because I was scared of my ex having some way to get back into my life, but nothing will ever feel quite liberating as this. 

I’m 80 percent sure my future employer wont find this, I didnt have the heart deleting this blog because of how important it was to me back than.

Nostalgic me is saying I'll come back and follow active blogs and start anew but I know i’m only living in the moment. who knows. If anyone reads this, wish me luck on this new step. 

[understands]

[coqillage]

[blowjob-horseguy]

Idk who needs to hear this but your natural voice is good actually.

I don't care how monotone it is, I don't care if it's deep or high, I don't care if you lisp, or stutter, or have an accent, or a vocal stim, or a tic

Your voice is good and nice and polite and you deserve to speak and be listened to

[mienar]