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ONE DAY, I'LL DISAPPEAR... - 14: SYNOVIAL LEAK (5097 words)
Rating: Mature
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Relationships: Saiki Kusuke/Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma/Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kuniharu & Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kurumi & Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma & His Family
Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kusuke, Saiki Kuniharu, Saiki Kurumi, Akechi Touma, Takashi, Silent Cyborg
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Saiki Kusuo is Bad at Feelings, It Gets Worse, slight presence of author's mecha hyperfixation, Child Abuse, Masochism, Slow Burn, Protective Saiki Kusuke, Akechi Touma is a Good Friend, ""friend"", Pre-Canon, Self-Esteem Issues, Mute Saiki Kusuo, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Gore, Sibling Incest, Kusuo's massacre, Self-Sabotage, Mostly Canon Compliant, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Self-Harm, The Cyclical Nature of Abuse™, Whump, Non-Graphic Rape/Non-Con, Mild Sexual Content
ONE DAY, I'LL DISAPPEAR... - 13: LOOSE SCREWS (8543 words)
Rating: Mature
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Relationships: Saiki Kusuke/Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma/Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kuniharu & Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kurumi & Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma & His Family
Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kusuke, Saiki Kuniharu, Saiki Kurumi, Akechi Touma, Takashi, Silent Cyborg
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Saiki Kusuo is Bad at Feelings, It Gets Worse, slight presence of author's mecha hyperfixation, Child Abuse, Masochism, Slow Burn, Protective Saiki Kusuke, Akechi Touma is a Good Friend, ""friend"", Pre-Canon, Self-Esteem Issues, Mute Saiki Kusuo, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Gore, Sibling Incest, Kusuo's massacre, Self-Sabotage, Mostly Canon Compliant, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Self-Harm, The Cyclical Nature of Abuse™
ONE DAY, I'LL DISAPPEAR... - 12: BANDAGE ON A GUNSHOT WOUND (6167 words)
Rating: Mature
Warning: Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Saiki Kusuke/Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma/Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kuniharu & Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kurumi & Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma & His Family
Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kusuke, Saiki Kuniharu, Saiki Kurumi, Akechi Touma, Takashi
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Saiki Kusuo is Bad at Feelings, It Gets Worse, slight presence of author's mecha hyperfixation, Child Abuse, Masochism, Slow Burn, Protective Saiki Kusuke, Akechi Touma is a Good Friend, ""friend"", Pre-Canon, Self-Esteem Issues, Mute Saiki Kusuo, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Gore, Sibling Incest, Kusuo's massacre, Self-Sabotage, Mostly Canon Compliant, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Self-Harm, The Cyclical Nature of Abuse™
ONE DAY, I'LL DISAPPEAR... - 11: THE THIRD INCIDENT (5623 words)
Rating: Mature
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Relationships: Saiki Kusuke/Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma/Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kuniharu & Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kurumi & Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma & His Family
Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kusuke, Saiki Kuniharu, Saiki Kurumi, Akechi Touma, Takashi
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Saiki Kusuo is Bad at Feelings, It Gets Worse, slight presence of author's mecha hyperfixation, Child Abuse, Masochism, Slow Burn, Protective Saiki Kusuke, Akechi Touma is a Good Friend, ""friend"", Pre-Canon, Self-Esteem Issues, Mute Saiki Kusuo, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Gore, Sibling Incest, Kusuo's massacre, Self-Sabotage, Mostly Canon Compliant, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Self-Harm, The Cyclical Nature of Abuse™
ONE DAY, I'LL DISAPPEAR... - 10: NEW FACES (6590 words)
Rating: Mature
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Relationships: Saiki Kusuke/Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma/Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kuniharu & Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kurumi & Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma & His Family
Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kusuke, Saiki Kuniharu, Saiki Kurumi, Akechi Touma, Takashi
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Saiki Kusuo is Bad at Feelings, It Gets Worse, slight presence of author's mecha hyperfixation, Child Abuse, Masochism, Slow Burn, Protective Saiki Kusuke, Akechi Touma is a Good Friend, ""friend"", Pre-Canon, Self-Esteem Issues, Mute Saiki Kusuo, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Gore, Sibling Incest, Kusuo's massacre, Self-Sabotage, Mostly Canon Compliant, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Self-Harm, The Cyclical Nature of Abuse™
ONE DAY, I'LL DISAPPEAR... - 9: BREAKING POINT (5193 words)
Rating: Mature
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Relationships: Saiki Kusuke/Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma/Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kuniharu & Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kurumi & Saiki Kusuo, Akechi Touma & His Family
Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Saiki Kusuke, Saiki Kuniharu, Saiki Kurumi, Akechi Touma, Takashi
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Saiki Kusuo is Bad at Feelings, It Gets Worse, slight presence of author's mecha hyperfixation, Child Abuse, Masochism, Slow Burn, Protective Saiki Kusuke, Akechi Touma is a Good Friend, ""friend"", Pre-Canon, Self-Esteem Issues, Mute Saiki Kusuo, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Gore, Sibling Incest, Kusuo's massacre, Self-Sabotage, Mostly Canon Compliant, Self-Mutilation, C.O.C.S.A., Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
so, i decided to seek out the saiki k live action movie today.
disastrous decision.
problem #1: the most popular magnet links were nonfunctional, and the rest only had <10 seeds, which is pretty standard for really obscure stuff.
problem #2: the next best link was one with only 2 other peers. 30 minutes later, once the file has been downloaded, i find out that the only audio is in cantonese, and that there is no attached subtitle file.
problem #3: the only downloadable file of this movie with the japanese audio is MASSIVE because it used a lossless codec, and the subtitles of this one were only in french. this takes 1.5 hours to download and would have taken longer were it not for a lovely seeder in germany with 2 mb/s speed. 7 gb for a movie is insane.
problem #4: due to lack of attached english subtitles, I had to scour about 4 subtitle sites before I found a suitable one.
the solution: take these 3 sources are mash them together to make one complete file! encode to compress! voila! it only took 4 hours! i'm honestly surprised that it wasn't easier to get this movie given the popularity at the time as well as the fact that it's available to rent on youtube. why has nobody done a proper release what the heck!
i'm considering releasing a full pack of all saiki media in one folder, since i have basically all of it now. lmk guys
I think people skip over the fact Saiki canonically had a crush on Satou (explicitly stated in manga) WAY too much, and it’s heavily implied/canon he later held romantic feelings for Teruhashi (end lyrics of the DUET song, him saying offu after hearing her thoughts)
Like we have a canonically biromantic asexual main character and I have yet to see people acknowledge it and it makes me feel insane
(I do like aro saiki headcanons but I understand his discomfort towards romantic relationships came from the dehumanization abuse he endured, and his aversion to general intimacy (regarding even friends) was why he said he didn’t THINK he was capable of falling in love or getting a crush. So i think him not only falling in love with a character purely based off her thoughts (the same arrogant thoughts that initially made him avoid her) goes SOO hard. It also shows a lot of personal growth for him to admit he had feelings for Satou and wanted to be his friend, even if that didn’t go through. He was able to experience something as simple as an unrequited teenage crush which was something he thought he would never get to experience.
I love aro headcanons for him but only if they make him queer platonic-maxxing because queer platonic relationships can be just as emotionally intimate as romantic ones and that’s beautiful so that’s another really based interpretation but as someone who heavily relates to saikis story as someone who also went through a lot of the same dehumanizing experiences and struggled/struggles heavily with intimacy him also being romantic is very important to me because it marks another type of self acceptance and identity
(maybe not the "saddest" or really that sad at all, but it makes me ache every time I rewatch it)
I go on a pretty long tangent here, and I don't really have an appropriate place in the middle to put a cut, so below the cut is my little rant on Episode 189 of TDLOSK, "Love Score Showdown" and why it makes my heart hurt so much.
In episode 189 of TDLOSK, "Love Score Showdown," Kusuo's parents are having an argument over who loves the other more. To settle this, they use Kusuo's "Love meter" power to gauge who loves the other more, but they keep finding themselves in a tie.
To settle this, Kurumi (his mom) says that "If you love someone, you should love your child with them just as much", and that they should compare their love scores with how much each of them like Kusuo.
Kuniharu (his dad) IMMEDIATELY backs down and runs away. Does not even try. Which in my opinion is already sad itself.
However, Kurumi has already activated the device for her love for Kusuo. The score ends up the same as her love for Kuniharu.
Saiki sees this, and is confused. His eyebrows soften just slightly at the possibility of what it could mean. Of what it probably does mean. But he immediately dismisses it with "The device is broken."
Now I know all I basically did was create a long summary, but I need you to understand how actually gut wrenching this scene is to me.
His parents love eachother a lot. His dad IMMEDIATELY gives up when it's time to show his love for Kusuo. And you can see Kusuo's slightly negative (disappointed/sad??) expression after. And when the love score from his mom is scanned as just as high as her love score for his dad, he looks at it with confusion. His eyebrows raise and eyes soften for just a minute in realization to what it could mean, but he immediately concludes that the device must be broken.
And one could say that he says "the device must be broken" because he's a tsundere or whatever, that he doesn't like being affectionate or seeming like he enjoys the affection he gets or however you wanna describe a tsundere, but I personally disagree.
Throughout the series there are many quotes and scenes that overall just hint that Kusuo doesn't really have great self esteem. Not to mention the fact that we already know how much Kuuske alienates Kusuo and literally doesn't see him as human. In the beginning of the series, Kusuo doesn't even describe or see himself as human.
And throughout the series, there's development that he starts to believe and admit that he's human too, but that's not my point in this post.
My point is that I think he's been so alienated and has felt different and maybe even lonely, that he genuinely doesn't think that his own mother could love him that much.
I feel like there's so much more I could say but the words just won't come out, but such is the life of a neurodivergent guy... But I just need you guys to understand how actually gut wrenching this scene is. Even if you don't feel the same way about the scene I at least need you guys to understand why I feel this way. Please.
Feel free to share your own thoughts and opinions on this matter, I don't judge and I'd love to hear what you all think.
