HOLUBCHIK.

Green tea and cigarettes and triggers.

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i wish we didn’t hate ourselves so much. i wish society didn’t make us believe that this is the only thing about us that is worthwhile. the circumference of our arms, the projection of our hips, the hollowness of our bones. exhaustion. our bodies are giving up on us. we betray them and celebrate it. i am not well and neither are you. this is not right, but we do it anyway. 

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I wish I felt beautiful without her.

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The bitch is back.

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such glamour. counting calories and mistakes and thunder thighs (one - check, two - check) and feeling less and less when I am more and more. I thought it was over. but she’s back. 

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thanks overweight male security guard for me telling me I look great since I lost weight, after dropping from a healthy size 8 (uk) to a skeletal 4. I tried to recover from it, I am heavier now but every time I see him I see judgement, real or imagined, in his eyes. Vicious circle.

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mfw it’s been 5 months since my last post and I haven’t lost anything except pennies and my marbles and I thought I was better yet here I am again.

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I want to feel good.

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For vanity.

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Elegance with no effort.

[holubchik]

I am desperate. I burn in my blood and fail in my stomach.

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I may be able to get the body, but never the face.

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I have 1 month to achieve this.

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No matter my weight, there is always turmoil underneath.

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For the definition.

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I love this.

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Obsession.

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To be arresting.