Honestly Amy

On a mission to be completely honest with myself for the first time in my life.

[honestlyamy]

Name my Dog

I’m crowdsourcing names for a future dog. I need some name ideas.

Parameters:

1-2 syllables

Female/unisex

Not super popular

[honestlyamy]

For the record...it takes the entire Hamilton soundtrack for me to paint one coat in my bedroom. Second coat happened today and cleanup and furniture moving will happen tomorrow.

From sunny to drama. Cozy? I don’t know but I love it.

[kitchenism]

I want mental health to be so normalised that little children can tell their parents if they’re feeling mentally ill just like they would if they had a stomach ache or a fever.

I want mental health to be so normalised that school lets you go home after a panic attack episode like they do if you sustain an injury.

I want mental health to be so normalised that when someone’s in recovery the people around them ask for progress reports and send get well soon cards just like they would for any other sort of recovery.

I want mental health to be normalised because every mental health disorder is just as frightening, just as damaging as a life threatening injury and we pass people by every day who are so unwell in this sense but who don’t receive a fraction of the care they deserve just because mental health is unseen.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“You are worth finding. Worth knowing. Worth loving. You and all your one million layers. Always hold that close.”

— Danielle Doby

[honestlyamy]

If there was ever a day to see this.

[tians-heart]

[dorsetrunning-deactivated202012]

😆😆😆 i love this

[justalittlebitofmetime-deactiva]

I absolutely love this.

[honestlyamy]

This made my whole day.

[honestlyamy]

Dear Financially Literate Persons,

Why do I have 3 credit scores? Is one more important than the other? Why are 2 very similar and the third is higher? Which one do I consider as “my credit score”?

[honestlyamy]

Lol accidentally stayed up until 5 am.

[honestlyamy]

Today I was so freakin productive.

I mean I ate cookies for breakfast but still.

I taught my middle school transition program.

Called the water company to yell at them for billing me twice.

Adjusted my online payment to get rid of the monthly fee.

Called about info to refinance my house.

Filled out application to refinance my house. One year after I bought it but omg the rates.

Watched 4 episodes of Shameless.

Downloaded, saved, and labeled all my PD certificates.

Submitted coursework for my +45 column change.

Found out I’m going to have work work until I’m 75 to retire with my full pension lol.

Finished and submitted the first module of my second grad class of the summer.

Attended a 2.5 hr virtual school board meeting.

[honestlyamy]

Another metaphor for life. Apparently it’s been almost 2 months. Is it still March? Is it summer? What is even happening anymore?

I’ve been splitting time between Maine and home. I’ve read 7 more books. Watched Hamilton. Signed up for 3 grad classes.

My house is still a mess and half put together. Slowly working on it. I started my online summer transition to middle school program this week. I filed my taxes today. They are due tomorrow. I tore my house apart trying to find my W-2. I called the bank twice. I fixed my escrow. Updated my mortgage payment. Got my missing tax info. Cleaned out my car. Scheduled a chimney inspection.

It’s been a productive day which is more than I can say for the last 100 days or so.

I’m trying not to think about school in the fall because it seems like everyone is all “let’s go back. This seems great” and I’m all “I don’t want to die.”

So for now I read and paint my house and attempt to get rid of the clutter. I go to Maine and spend time in the lake and convince myself to work on my grad classes.

Welcome to my brain dump apparently.

[bakwaaas]

being tired all the time is such a mystery.... is it anaemia? vitamin d deficiency? chronic fatigue syndrome? depression? insomnia?? is it just the crushing weight of being alive in a capitalist society??? someone cure me

[honestlyamy]

The plant looked pretty okay.

A few leaves were beginning to yellow but overall things looked fine.

Turns out, below the surface, nothing was fine.

My plant has no roots.

I suppose I didn’t water it enough.

The plant is totally a metaphor for me. Looks okay. But wasn’t cared for. Lacking firm roots. Unhealthy at its core.

We’re about to find out whether it’s too late.

I hope not.

[bearingwater]

Daily Horoscope for Aquarius: May 4, 2020

Have you been getting enough exercise? If you’ve been feeling a bit down in the dumps, the answer is probably no. Getting yourself moving is one of the best ways to cheer up. To get yourself feeling better about whatever is going on in your life, go for a walk or run. Exercise is also a great way to remind yourself how much power you have in your life. You can change your body and your attitude!

[honestlyamy]

How did you know???

[honestlyamy]

BUT WHICH ONE IS IT?!?!

[honestlyamy]

First window open day of 2020!

I feel like in should be outside enjoying the sun and the warmth. But I can’t bring myself to get out of bed.

I missing out on life even in quarantine. I need a dog so bad so I’m forced to go outside and join the world.

[honestlyamy]

Day 50

Time isn’t real anymore.

How is it day 50 of quarantine? How is it May?

What have I done other than school work, sleep, and eat for the last 50 days?

I sure didn’t clean or organize my house. I sure didn’t work out.

I did read 13 books and do 5 puzzles and spend a week in Maine.

I just cannot wrap my brain around the fact that it has been 50 days. That’s wild.

[honestlyamy]

I haven’t been grocery shopping in 3 weeks

My fridge is empty except for liquids. I won’t go today because I want to respect workers strike day. I won’t go over the weekend because #morepeople.

So I guess I’m eating out of the freezer for the next three days. Frozen sodium get in me.

[honestlyamy]

I went to Maine for a week. It was such a nice break from the real word. I brought all my food with me and stayed at the family cabin. I put my feet in the lake (brrrr) and delivered a cake to my dad. It was nice to see my parents (outside and from 6+ feet away) for the first time since January.

Life is bananas right now. Other states are opening yet we are getting directives to keep quarantining and it’s now mandatory to wear a mask outside.