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Valkyrie Nyx | Substack

This is me and what goes on inside my mind. This is my therapy. This is my story.

[honestlyghostlyfestival]

Valkyrie Nyx | Substack

This is me and what goes on inside my mind. This is my therapy. This is my story.

Please check this out and tell me what you think.

[honestlyghostlyfestival]

This Christmas

4 Days until Christmas. Once again, kids have to wait until after christmas to get a gift. Of course that is after the bills are paid of course. Unfortunately, I don't get paid until the end of the month. So, they get their gifts after I bills get paid. Whatever is left, has to be budgeted between food, gas for work and their gifts. I wish I can say they always get what they want for christmas. But they don't. I could barely keep us afloat with the one income we have. At least we have a home. We are together. I do hope someday, things will change. Until then, it is just trying to make it through each day.

[soneybun]

God please clear my mind

[scorpionlafemme]

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This time of year

This time of year. When those I once worked with knew the struggles we faced. The love, help and support they showed. Understanding and providing. This year, we have to go without it. This year, we are left to wonder how we will make it through until the next check arrive at the end of the month. No christmas for the kids. Just a tree without presents. No special dinner. Just eggs, rice and pancakes. Even though this is all we will have until I get paid, we know we are good. Our bills are paid. We will be in our home. Safe and warm with the comfort of having eachother. We are blessed. We miss the extra blessings we receive from a community we once had. We will be okay. We will make it through each day, together. Thankful that we have the gift of life. That we have eachother.

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It's not always about you

There's nothing more irritating than when people seem to think that your life revolves around them. Like no boo. You will not live rent free in my head or my life. I have my own life. I have things to do. Places to go. I have dreams and values. I have decisions to make. Important ones for that matter. Guess what? It does not involve you. It has nothing to do with you. So stop getting butthurt when my life and plans do not align with yours. It was never about you. Everything I do is about me. What matters to me. What impacts me. What is going on with me. Not you. Please, try and understand and don't take it personal. Stop reading into it to deep. It is always about me.

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Doing something right

That moment in your life when you find yourself proud. When you see something or someone positive came from you. The moment for me, is watching you today. Realizing how mature you have become. You are no longer that little boy who always needed me by your side. You know your future. Your plans, the path you want to take. The life you want to live. You know your goals and dreams. All I can do, is step aside. Watch you spread your wings and fly. Fly as high as your dreams and will can take you. I am proud of you. So proud I wanted to shed tears. Tears of joy. Tears of happiness. You are proof that I have done something right. I raised you. To be the amazing son and person that you are. I am so proud of you. I am honored to be your parent. To be the lucky one God chose to have you and raise you into the young man you have become. You had all the options of making the wrong choices in life. Instead, you took the opportunity in making the right ones. Making sure that you will fight for what you believe in. You will stand up for what is right.

I am so proud of you. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being the young man you have become. Thank you for bringing joy to my heart and being a blessing in my life. I love you.

[aidashakur]

The richest place to be is in someone’s prayers.

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You destroyed me

I love you, BUT I can't trust you. Want to grow old with you. But I can't trust you. I want to be with you because of the life we've built. I want to leave you because of the life we once lived. I will remain will you till I die, because these were the vows I made to you. You destroyed me and broke me. Changed me to who I am today. What you did then, Is why I am who I am today. I lack trust. Even though I still love hard. I lack faith, even though I commit to our vows. I don't believe in happily ever after, even though we will be together till the end. You destroyed me. You made me who I am today.

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Love Life

You need to love yourself. Love life. Be willing to live. Be willing to put yourself first. Sometimes, self care is the only care you need to make it through to the next step in your life. Love yourself and your life. Live Free

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Free Speech

Where do we draw the line? Honestly. I understand having the right to say what you want. What happens if all that is being spewed out of someone's mouth is nothing but foolishness? What happens if it is inhumane? What happens if it is nothing but hatred? Free speech is supposed to help us say what we have to say without having any fear of saying it. Yet, people are being assassinated, killed, beaten and even committing suicide thanks to free speech. It is hurting the nation just as much as weapons do. After all, the tongue is a powerful weapon. Words can damage the soul. Take away the beauty in someone and replace it with hatred and malice. Used with disrespect. Being disregarded.

[free-my-mindd]

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Just a thought

I feel our education system is so screwed up at times. This is a perspective of someone who sees it from both sides. Honestly, parents, please, make sure you have their behavior in check. What is not fair is for you to say, "They're your problem now." It's not fair to the staff and to other children. If you need someone to watch them so you can have some me time, take them to day care. If you truly want them to learn, make sure they at least are ready to behave, listen and respect others. The school staff and other children shouldn't have to suffer because you failed to do your job as a parent. It is your responsibility to make sure they know how to behave appropriately. They know that they won't always get what they want. Most of all, to show respect. Respect other's space and boundaries. Respect the staff members. Kids shouldn't have to come to school worried about how your child will behave. Worried about whether or not they will get hurt. When lets say 3 or more staff has to address your child's behavior, they are taking away resources that would be appropriately used somewhere else. They are taking resources away period. Please, do your part and start teaching your child in their early years. It does not hurt them if you are firm with your rules and boundaries. What hurts them is the fact that you didn't take the time to teach them right from wrong, You didn't hold them accountable because they are too young to understand. You didn't want to discipline because they don't know any better. Yes they do. Obviously they are doing a good job training you to change your ways and your mentality to better serve their wants. Please, do your job. Be a parent. You are forgetting that you are raising the future of this country. I'm sorry, if the future does not know what it means to be held accountable. Where does that leave the future?

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Racism

It's sad that in this time and age we are still struggling with racism. We are struggling to see that we are all humans. We are all struggling to see that you need to treat someone the way you want to be treated. Treat others like the human being that they are. No one is better than the other. No one is above the other. We are all the same.

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Please Save Our Kids

As a parent, it hurts me every time I hear a teen has been stabbed, a teen has been shot. Why? They are so young. With a life to live. So much to experience. So much to explore. Yet, their lives are cut short because of stupid reasons. In their young minds it makes sense. Does it really though? In a blink of an eye, 2 lives have ended. 2 families have been changed. And for what? For things that won't matter 5 years later. Then there are the accidents. Is it really considered an accident? Why are any of you even touching deadly weapons in the first place? Why are any of you doing things that can potentially end your life or the life of another? Why are you making choices that brings pain to both of your families. While our government is fighting in a war overseas. As parents, we are constantly fighting in a war to make sure our chile(ren) makes it to see another day. No parent wants to send their child to school for it to be their last day. No child wants to say yes to their child being with their friends just for it to be the last time they see them. It should not be that way. We should be able to live our lives knowing someday, our children will grow old. Have a future. Get to live their lives and have families of their own. We need to save our children. We need to do better one way or another. These kids need to do better.

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Freedom

Freedom Isn't Free

The price paid wasn't cheap

Soldiers sacrificed their lives

Shed their blood

Sacrificed their time with their families

Sacrificed their future

Sacrificed the future of their loved ones

Sacrificed memories that have yet to come

Sacrificed any chances of living normal lives

For what,

So that we don't have to make those sacrifices

So that we don't have to fight to bloody war

So that we may live our lives

So that we can be with our families

So that we can build our future

So that we can be there to witness our kids living their future

So that we can make our memories

So that we can Be Free

So before you disrespect the flag, and exercise your rights

REMEMBER the MEN AND WOMEN who represent that flag and made the sacrifices so that you have those rights

To all the men and women of the military, past and present. Thank You All So Much. My Gratitude Goes Beyond Words. Without you all, my family and I would not be able to sleep peacefully. Living our lives freely. Thank you to your families as well. They have gone without you all so that we can be with our family. Thank you all and your families.