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TW ED🌸👄🌸l just block me if you don't like or triggered x

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Good news: Im alive

Bad news: im fat (like fatfat)

I am going to sign up to gym today and go on a low calorie diet,like 600 kcal a day

Guys I fucking hate winter,my anxiety during this months IS CRAZY,and I can’t fit in my jeans anymore I feel like a pig (:

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

HELLO

Decided to make a quick post while I’m on my way to vacation home lol

The main news:on 10th of may I will be in something like psych ward,but the rules there are lot better,I’m allowed to have my phone,laptop and basically all the things except sharp objects (you can literally order food there wtf)(: doctor told me that I’ll be there for 2 weeks,the main point is to get me on the right medication,since it seems like I have SNRI intolerance

Thinking positively,I lost quite a bit of weight because I felt like dying lol

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Okay I’m alive

Honestly,the past 4 days felt like the worst days of my life😍 therapist prescribed me sertraline AND HOLY SHIT.NEVER.AGAIN.

I wanna throw up,acid in my throat is the worst,muscles spasm,tics,dizziness etc. I literally have ALL side effects

Yesterday I thought that I had serotonin syndrome even tho I was only on 25mg, I called my therapist and she said that (thank god) it is not,but still she told me to stop taking these:)

And omg,I’m only 1 day off then and I feel so much better😭😭I was on lowest dose so I don’t need to get off them slowly. And yeah,I have a really bad headache,still some dizziness and my heartbeat is still there,BUT IM SO MUCH BETTER

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

me:not binging, proud of myself, not having any foods that I can binge on.

my mom: LET'S ORDER MCDONALDS TOMORROW GREAT IDEA😍

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

It’s 4 am and I’m watching my 600 lb life,idk why but I find something comforting in this lol🤡

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

watching show about obesity rn and crying lol,I can't stop thinking that I will become like them no matter what I do, and looking at these people, they all really nice, softhearted people, can't imagine how humiliating is to be on a shows like this, especially for teenagers.

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Hi!!

First of all,omg I gain followers?? And as always I just want to say thanks to everyone who subscribed or just see this post,tbh if you read my stuff here then you might feel the same as I do,and if you do im sosososorry,but we can get through this together,even though I haven’t posted anything for some time now,I’m still here to talk if you need someone to support💕

And now just a little update in my life,lately I’ve been in a dark place in my life,I don’t know what to do (and why),Ed thoughts are still very intense,but I’m starving not to be pretty,I’d say that I do this just because I want to disappear,but now I’m in the place where I don’t even feel proud of myself when I starve,I hope that I will get better soon,and I will post here (if I’m not you can just throw me into the river sweethearts)

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Omggg you guys😍😍😍just bought gum, I feel ✨relapse✨

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Hi,here again💀

Today I ate 3 tomatoes and 3 cucumbers,also a little bit of caesar souse,didn’t count the calories cuz I know there’s not much of them and I’m too sad to give a shit<3

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

I gained so much and I blame myself to death 🤡

Anyway I get over my crush and FINALLY feel like I can breathe again. Honestly I just feel drained right now,idk what to do or not to do,it’s like life just punching my face all over again and I be like “well it’s fine it’ll be okay soon” Bitch it was never fine whwhhwkak

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Good morning at 4pm time to eat my SaLAd ✨✨✨

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

ate 543 cals today im back on track please I can't binge anymore

fuck my life

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Omg look who is here haha…

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

Happy hot girl summer besties!!!

I hope that this summer will be better than the last one,honestly hated it lolo

[honestlytenaciouseagle]

we have 4 days until summer

fuck.

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I lost 6 pounds,neehhh.It’s not bad but idk