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[honestynae]

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She/any • Bi • minor • infp • agnostic

Hii!! I'm nae and i'm new here.

I love movies and books so i'm gonna make mini blogs here for some movies or books that have impressed me :D

– my favorite is classic books

– i'm a slow reader so no much books i read in a year

– mostly coming-of-age and queers are my favorite type of movies

– i always fb!

– i also love history, floriography, any literature, and music

– i very into politics in any field

– english is not my first language

– homophobic, transphobic, Zionist, and pedophiles please DO NOT INTERACT.

– i write as a coping mechanism and to train my talents

– multifandom (I've been in many fandoms before)

– feel free to interact or anything! I really enjoy being here :3

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[honestynae]

Pearl (2022) -Directed by Ti West

Women full of ambition, anger, and sensuality are often considered inappropriate or "indecent" by society. In a room thick with patriarchy, things considered "improper for women" would seem perfectly natural if men were the perpetrators.

In the film Pearl, we are shown a young woman—named Pearl herself—whose husband has gone off to war and she has to live on her family's farm, with a mother who believes in conservative values and a father who needs her care at all times. Pearl realizes that she cannot continue to live in this cycle.

Throughout the film, it is clearly shown that Pearl is not emotionally stable. Scene after scene, they try to build Pearl's image as someone with a mental disorder. However, the specifics of this disorder are not discussed much. How Pearl gets pressure from within herself and her surroundings.

Within Pearl, she knew that she was worth more than just marriage and a farm, she was more than people could imagine of her. She knew she could and would be the brightest star to shine. Pearl's failure in her audition was not without reason, it was a representation of the social class standards of women competing for a slightly more decent life. She lost not only because she wasn't blonde, nor because fate was not on her side. But a world that was not on women's side.

Pearl was so devastated and hysterical when she lost, although it seemed dramatic, her reaction was only natural. Pearl understood very well that winning or losing the audition was also winning or losing in her life. This aspect shows that a woman's life thread is determined by one uncertain, small opportunity.

When she performed sensual scenes with the scarecrow, she wasn't just playing, but rather searching for traces of love she never fully received. That's why Pearl was so easily attached to the projectionist. The minimal affection she felt made it easy for Pearl to lose empathy for herself and her own being. At the moment she finally decided to kill everyone, it was when she realized her life was no longer meaningful. One failure ruined all her hopes.

Pearl is a picture of many talented and potential young women out there, who are restrained by their surroundings. Subdued and not allowed to fly as high as possible. All of that is gathered, buried deep in a woman's heart, and comes out as unbearable anger.

In conclusion, Mia Goth's execution of her role was truly amazing, with iconic lighting and costumes, as well as timeless dialogue. I absolutely love every single thing on this movie!!!

[lunamonchtuna]

to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.

[honestynae]

The Virgin Suicides (1999) -Directed by Sofia Coppola

Five sisters, five personalities, five ages, one pain.

That is what should be interpreted by the children who try to explore the feelings of the sisters. Their identical faces seem to deceive us into thinking that when they leave, the world will come to an end. Their parents, who guard them closely, are forgiven by the God they believe in, as if they were witnesses to the creation of the universe.

In summary, this movie not only tells the story of girls who end their lives, but also how they survive behind the curtain and the gloomy silence of their own hearts. Sofia Coppola tries to explain how this group of girls experiences ups and downs but still becomes the object of fantasy for boys.

They are restrained and caged, and the scene (which never materializes) where they escape and feel the wind blowing through their hair represents how the hope of death brings freedom.

So sad, they are so young and brilliant, but the light in their souls is forced to dim by shallow parents who have a capacity for thought smaller than a worm. Thinking that girls who sit quietly at home are the best little girls.

The concepts of girlhood and marginalization are so prominent for those who have eyes to see this. It is so clear how unequal the lives of these young girls are. Especially with the idea of telling their story from a male perspective.

I am so fascinated.

[the-words-forever-unwritten]

My brain can't accept the edits thats supposed to be "Todd but older" that use clips from Before sunset for the very silly reason of I just don't think Todd would be a beard guy

[honestynae]

Finally someone gets me......

[way-too-indecisive]

"Not all men" you're right, John Keating would never

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But I'm a cheerleader (1999) -Directed by Jamie Babbit

What if we present a story to satirize society's stigma towards marginalization and heteronormativity through cinema comedy? But I'm a cheerleader is the answer.

It's hard to believe that someone like me has ever committed and uttered homophobic acts, I really want to curse my old self. But it's real, why? Because of the society that builds hatred towards our own identity.

Behavior that is considered different and not “in line” will be considered deviant and needs to be destroyed, or worse, cured.

Most of the people who are alive now or in the past always declare the “role” of what we will do as adults only when they see our sex when we were just born into the earth. When we manage to find our true identity and soul, they will criticize with a series of baseless and inhumane insults.

We are forced to stand on the same line as the majority as if we are puppets who only work according to roles and orders. Society, unknowingly, builds a system that harms everyone, but somehow some parts of our civilization are still too stupid to understand that they are being harmed.

This movie is basically a satire and a harsh criticism of real situation. I was mesmerized by how funny this movie was. Directly, it also shows that internalized homophobia is real, built up by our surroundings that don't help us realize who we are inside this body.

[bloodbruise]

the bitches traumatized by saltburn would never survive the fics in my ao3 history

[diaryyun]

I wish I didn't care, But then it wouldn't be me. I care about everything too much, Find meaning in every little thing I see. I feel too deeply about things, Things most people dont seem to care, Tell me-Is it a blessing or a curse? This heavy feeling of despair.

[honestynae]

Novitiate (2017) -directed by Margaret Betts

this movie is so calm, quiet, and peaceful but i can feel how chaotic and messy it is.

a movie that combines religion and queer, guess what happens? yep, that's right. there will be a little drama about trauma and sin and conservatism.

i don't know anything about church except that it's a house of worship, but i know what it's like to fight with yourself over religion.

i'm not even sure i ever believed in god, or if everyone forced me to believe in it.

i'm probably the opposite of cathleen, my mom can't live without saying god's name ten times a day. she made me do the same thing too. but the concept of cathleen who came from a non-religious mother ending up falling in love with god feels so beautiful to me.

there was a point in my life where i stopped believing in god, or i stopped fooling myself.

it was torture. no, not because i didn't pray anymore, but because i couldn't say it out loud to society about my agnosticism. living in this environment means being ready to be gossiped about and cursed at for having different beliefs.

in novitiate, we are told the journey of Cathleen and the other sisters in the church in the 1960s. as i said at the beginning, although very about this movie also feels very restless. in the last minutes, during the confession scene, i felt like i was represented but also oppressed.

for me this movie is very enjoyable, the emotion and intensity are very felt. there is probably nothing i like more than a movie that concerns religion and self-identity.

[inahallucination]

chameron ver

[victorfreakenste1n]

Someone I know recently discovered these ships share a name.

[averywavery]

newlyweds vs. old married couple

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Potrait Of A Lady On Fire (2019) -Directed by Celine sciamma

date idea: how about i secretly paint your face to give to your future fiancé!!!

okay that's not funny, but seriously, i'm devastated after watching this. i can't bring myself to paint someone's face and accidentally fall in love with them. knowing full well the painting is meant to tear us apart later.

"page 28" might be the end of my life. my tears flowed as the movie continued.

the scene where marianne ruins her painting after one criticism from heloise, and she starts repainting it with heloise directly as her model. this part i can interpret as meaning they know each other. in the first painting marianne paints secretly and studies each of heloise's facial features as if she blindly knows the woman. trying to blend in with each other's breath. in the second painting, when they have started to know each other, and finally heloise can be more detailed and close to print the woman's face on the canvas, it means she can get to know heloise more intimately. she doesn't need to be stunned and wait for her every little movement.

In the scene where marianne sees heloise's shadow in a white dress, i can't interpret anything from it, but i can assume it's like a sign of their calling and need for each other, how heloise wants to wear the white dress for marianne and marianne wants to see heloise only for her. whatever the real meaning is, they still need each other.

my breath ran out in the last scene, when marianne saw a painting of heloise with her little daughter, and a book with page 28. i was out of breath. When they were in the orchestra performance, and heloise didn't look at marianne, i died on the spot.

[grungelvrr222]

please dont let this flop i was cackling as i wrote these lolol

[honestynae]

This is my new daily prayer AMEN

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Mysterious skin (2004) -Directed by Gregg Araki

once is enough, and I will never watch this again.

An incredibly beautiful, sad, bitter, cruel, traumatic, aching, sad, confusing, and depressing movie. If usually a movie will take me on a rollercoaster of emotions, this movie presents a story that makes me consistently depressed.

at the beginning there was a scene that made me predict the rest of the story, and hope my prediction was wrong. hope it was all really just aliens.

during the scene in the bathroom, I really wanted to close my laptop and throw it out the window. it was too painful for me.

The last scene where neil and brian sat together on the couch, telling "the real incident" I felt nauseous and could feel their trauma, I could feel my heart breaking.

this movie has many intimate scenes but none of them are intimate. everything feels empty and painful.

After watching, I don't even know what to write in my letterboxd. I was too shocked by everything. it may sound dramatic, but that's me. feeling all the emotions depicted in a cinema is my expertise, feeling the art in films. And here I am, sitting in my room writing about how this movie left me empty, alone and scared. It's beautiful and mentally draining.

[honestynae]

GUESST WHO JUST POSTED THEIR FIRST BLOG (it's so fun writing shit like that I'll make more)