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Emily. Public Health Advocate. World Traveler. Future Nurse. International Volunteer. California livin'.

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Day 1 of writing to my beloved future husband.

Day 1 of writing to my beloved future husband.

Good things take time.

Here I am, writing again, two years later. It’s a funny reason why I ended up choosing today to write because I recently just got into a frustrated state of mind with my significant other/future husband. When I first starting a few years ago, I had a clear perspective on what I saw my life to be like. I was going to be single for a while, probably until I was 28 then get…

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To the Wondering Thoughts I've Had...

To the Wondering Thoughts I’ve Had…

Timing. It’s the essence of every successful relationship. Timing is the exact thing I lost out to this past time. He was amazing, he was kind, he was genuine, he was sweet, he was caring, he was selfless, he was fun, he was shy, he was devoted to his faith, he was intelligent, and he was all that I imagined the guy I would end up with to be. I wasn’t in the wrong for seeing him for two months,…

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The Way Life Goes.

The Way Life Goes.

If it comes, let it. If it goes, let it. I think it didn’t work for a reason. I know it didn’t work for a reason. It went from nights of talking and never ending conversations to days of missing you to the deepest of my core. You disappeared, you left my life, and the excuses that were made didn’t cut it. So I did what any person would do, I blocked you off of all means of communication and it…

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My Love Letter to the Moon

My Love Letter to the Moon

You will be the moon that lights my soul in sleeping, because I am the sun and I need to know you’ll help light the way when I am tired. He was the moon and I was the sun. He lived far away on the other side of the country, and I lived in the light of the west. I found myself falling for him the first day I met him, although I wondered if he ever noticed me. He and I were never on the same page…

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Just a Reminder… unsplash.com1. “Be kind or be quiet” – Richard Speight Jr. 2. Use your judgement about thing number one.

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Day 71 of 365 Being Single

Day 71 of 365 Being Single

He was never ready to put me as a priority. The worst words you could admit to yourself after seeing it all slip away. Yesterday, the bracelet I wore to match the one I gave to you broke. It broke off my wrist and I held it wondering what I should do with it. So I threw it away, in the garbage, like it wasn’t of importance anymore. I wasn’t going to hold onto something that would remind me of…

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Day 69 of 365 Being Single

Day 69 of 365 Being Single

May I never forget. On my best day, that I still need God as desperately as I did on my worst day. This past summer I spent almost three months in Southeast Asia visiting my family. I happened to stumble upon the first page I ever wrote in the journal I bought when I set out for Thailand. The passage I wrote in July brought me more honesty than I’ve had with myself the last few months. “Right…

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For the First Time

I said everything I needed to say to you, and it hurt. It hurt us both. Me living in Spain, and you back in the states, tonight ruined it all forever. I made the best choice for the both of us and I think we’re both starting to see that. I love you and I’m sorry beyond compare. But I hope that God knows what he’s doing, because I’m going to be really lost without you with me.  Always,  Em

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Day 45 of 365 Being Single

Day 45 of 365 Being Single

Don’t be in such a rush to figure everything out. Embrace the unknown and let your life surprise you. I knew what I needed most in my life, a change. I needed a change of scenery, a change of pace, a different routine, and new people. I took the initiative and decided to move to Spain for a few months. Yes, my life may look a little uncertain right now, but wouldn’t it be boring if I lived a…

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Day 29 of 365 Being Single

Day 29 of 365 Being Single

You are precious and brighter than all light, you carry wonder in your eyes and beauty in your soul. You have freedom in your step and you don’t fear dancing in the rain. You are light and grace, you are lovely and free. – g.c. I’ve had a chance to think about what it means to be free. Being alone, but not feeling lonely was always the battle. Somedays were easier than others. Hours could fly by,…

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Day 26 of 365 Being Single

You’ll never really understand how it feels to be in my position.  That’s what I seem to tell myself anytime you come to my mind. I continuously remind myself that no matter how much I deeply care for you, we aren’t together anymore for a reason. There will always be two sides to our story and that’s okay, because I’m learning to be okay. I’m learning how to tell myself “keep moving forward, or…

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Day 21 of 365 Being Single

Day 21 of 365 Being Single

Cause I don’t wanna fall in love, if you don’t wanna try. But all that I’ve been thinking of is maybe that you might. Baby it looks as though we’re running out of words to say, and love’s floating away. – Jessie Ware Saturday night was different. It had been a few days that I had you on my mind and I somehow decided it was right to speak to you and offer to see each other again after three weeks.…

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Day 16 of 365 Being Single

Day 16 of 365 Being Single

“Stay. The words I heard from you today, are said when there’s nothing left to say. What I would give to make you stay, I would give it all away.” -Lang Leav I remember the first day that really started it all. It was sometime in the middle of October 2015 and we went out to dinner-as friends. We laughed so much, talked about the silliest things, and you made fun of how I raved of fish tacos when…

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Day 15 of 365 Being Single

Day 15 of 365 Being Single

“I confess, I loved you more than I let on but you weren’t ready for it and I wasn’t going to pour myself into hands that couldn’t hold me.”- of yesteryear I thought about you a lot today. More than the days that have gone by with the quick blink of an eye. I tried to find ways to block you out but I just couldn’t. From the moment I got up today it was like you engulfed my entire being. I kept…

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Day 13 of 365 Being Single

Day 13 of 365 Being Single

“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”-Nikita Gill Today was difficult. I don’t know why I called you two days ago, but thank you for not picking up. I wasn’t right for calling you, but you still texted me to make sure I was okay. I get it, we’re…

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Day 11 of 365 Being Single

Day 11 of 365 Being Single

“I hope you find someone who is brave enough to enter your storm, and respects you enough to love the size of your waves. I hope you find someone who will relish the calm you can have, and who is eager to set sail on the expanse of your mind. I hope you find someone that can’t escape the love they have for you, because  now they have you in their very blood, always reminding them that you are the…

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Day 10 of 365 Being Single

Day 10 of 365 Being Single

“So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide.” Reading these words today had utter some kind of reassuring whisper in my soul. I’ve been on the cusp of making drastic changes and I finally decided where I saw myself. I saw myself…

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