Hope the Silly

Silly goober who also draws and is 20 years old. Current obsession: Postal series. I'm also on Twitter @HopeKreymin. ❌PROSHIP/DARK SHIP/RUS DNI❌

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actually started just blocking the most popular postal artist because i can't look at their art without feeling like shit in comparison and i also have a bone cracking art block

fucking hate my envious ass

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Honestly starting to slowly hate postal fandom. I don't know why, but it's just suddenly annoys me. Now when I see some postal fanarts or even my own art I just think "shit I can't look at it it's so boring and I don't think if I like it anymore".

Plus, I’ve recently had some unpleasant changes in my real life that have heightened my anxiety and paranoia, making it impossible for me to draw anything, especially postal related. And generally, I’m starting to feel like I’m gradually losing interest in it. I might still draw and post things, I have a ton of unfinished sketches and artwork

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I'm drawing Dude with a fat ass rn. Life is finally good again.

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come backkk I love your art so much!!! The way you draw all of the dudes is so amazing, hope you've gotten some people to talk to!!!🍭🐛

(sorry if thats rude)

I didn't really think that maybe someone would miss my art😧 I haven't drawn anything for a while because I've had problems with my computer and studies. I'm currently finishing up assignments and I'm also sick. But I hope I'll soon have the inspiration and energy to draw, I miss it :(

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I don't feel like I'm part of a fandom at all and I still feel lonely. No one talks to me, and I'm scared to start talking to anyone either. If I start talking to someone, it's literally one or two days and then we stop because we don't know what else to talk about. I'd love to join a community where other artists draw each other's characters and themselves, but I hardly know ANY of them, just as they don't know me. I WANT TO BE SOCIAL BUT I CAN'T my anxiety is a prison which doesn't allow me to experience life as a normal person and enjoy this world

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OLD MAN!!

I AM AN OLD MAN LOVER

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haiii :33 r u okay with fanart of Yarik? i rlly like him and i wanna draw him in his edgy punk rebel outfit that u drew him in a while ago cuz it looks rlly fun to draw.... i could show u the fanart when im done if u wanna

Yes, if you want! I think it would be pretty cool and cute, I would love to see someone else draw my character🥺💖

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Who are you trying to lie to, Dude?

this is gay like very very gay

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I made a small edit of P4 Dude to make him look more like the Postal 2 model because it always confuses me how different they are😭

also a little headcanon for his eye!

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It really sucks when you feel alone in a fandom because you don't like any of the ships that 85% of fans like😭 like yeah I don't really like any of the Dude x any other Dude from other games, not really a fan of dynamics that other people do for them. Especially not a fan of Dude x Not Important (because I think the game and him as a character too corny and edgy for no reason). I kinda sorta like Dude x Other Dude relationship in Brain Damaged, because I like the concept.

I also know that this is such a nothingburger problem, but I also think that some fans will still be disappointed or angry because my opinion doesn't match theirs😭😭

For those people who say, "If you don't like it, then don't interact with it." I don't interact with it because I know I'm not interested. But I just needed to vent😔 I always think fans will throw rotten tomatoes at me or strangle me if I say I don't like their favorite ships or characters

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Yarik and his idol

you're not HIM Yarik dont be delusional!!

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Starting to write a fanfic about P4 Dude's erectile dysfunction... Kinda nervous... Kinda still want his old ass... rubbing my belly

I hope I'll finish writing at least something in this life, at least a little freaky fanfic

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I dunno why but when I look at Franco, I remember my two kitties, because one also has a deformed face and bulging eyes, and the other has an overbite and also few teeth and I adore them they're my little babies😭😭

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What the hell is this baby doing here

someone take him away please my head hurts

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Currently working on some art... Oooff this is probably gonna be so fire when I finish this in 100 years🔥🔥🔥

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what the hell is little bro talking about

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I always thought this image was a little intimate and sexual if you think about it...

or maybe it's just me☹️