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[wasteofspacex]

Best advice my 19 year old roommate gave me

“Just give him three days. Wait three days, no texts, no calls, no nothing. Then see if he comes back” “What if I can’t wait three days tho??” “You see the thing is, you keep running back to him and he gets off on it. He knows he’s gonna have you coming back to him. Why not give him three days and make him realize, oh shit it’s serious, I’m really losing her!” “What if he doesn’t even come back?” “Then why would you wanna be with someone that doesn’t want you? Why would you wanna be with someone like that?”

[jjsinterlude]

There you go.

[clamjob-deactivated20140702]

Reasons why im a bad friend:

• i get too attached

• i will complain about all my problems to you

• i will snap at you by accident one day, causing you to hate me

• i need to be reassured periodically CONSTANTLY that you dont think im annoying

• i am annoying

• im boring

• i dont know how to keep the conversation going

• i get emotional after midnight and will probably tell you something that could make you think differently of me

[hoppedintheraryyy]

been a year with this man right here. It's been a rough year but it's grown us closer than ever. I love my baby so much I can't even explain it to him, myself or anybody. He loves to piss me off, annoy me on purpose, etc but I wouldn't want it from anybody else. . He's my best friend, soulmate, light of my life and the love of my life. ❤️

[hoppedintheraryyy]

Giving up on somebody is the complete wrong way to do it. In my opinion, giving up is immature and isn't the “easy way out.” There aren't always perfect times in a relationship and people need to understand by you giving up on somebody you love just shows that you are a child and need to grow up. 

I will continue to fight for Robert who is my everything and the love of my life. Whether we break up sometimes, or get into arguments i will always fight for him. I used to care if people thought I was the biggest idiot going back and forth, but its not about what other people think or gotta say. Robert is my life and my everything. Ive never had these strong of feelings for a guy and actually saw a future with anybody else besides Robert. Even when we are fighting and he gets on my last god damn nerves, I still smile inside because he is my pain in the ass and I wouldn't want it any other way. I cant imagine my life without him and our imperfect relationship. But nobody’s relationship is perfect in any way. 

So call me stupid I don't care.. I love him and will never stop loving him. I will fight until there is nothing left of me but even then I will still fight. He might be childish but thats because he's never been in a relationship with anybody and has never seen two people actually in love and willing to fight through it all. I want to show that he has somebody right in front of him that is willing to do whatever it takes to keep this spark alive, and that there is somebody who doesn't want to abandon him. I would rather have bad times with him than good times with somebody else. I want to go through a storm with him instead of knowing that if i am alone ill be safe. I wanna go through it all with the one man I can see my entire life with and the one who holds my heart.... call me crazy... but i call it love. 

[hoppedintheraryyy]

Tired of all the negatives in my life. I'll stop talking to the people who just put negative vibes around me. At this point I need to make myself happy cause my real happiness decided to just up and leave me so now I need to find it in myself

[fiction-vs-reality13]

This is what it should mean to be a police officer. Everyone deserves to feel safe and protected, no matter their skin tone or cultural background.  If the officers currently serving aren’t like this, then something needs to be done now to make that change. 

[senashenta]

This is nice to see. There’s so much negativity about police officers and law enforcement lately, which I completely understand given the circumstances. But these guys here, these are real officers. Officers with compassion who actually do protect and serve the community however they can. 

[thecommonchick]

Every music video in the early 2000's 😂

[blackfashion]

The dedication, the research the art.

[yourbigsisnissi]

what a time to be alive

[hoppedintheraryyy]

I fuck up everything that comes in my life. Always ends up being me. I hate caring so much. I hate when you act like an asshole and I turn to a sweetheart then it's the opposite. I hate that about myself I really do. I just want to be loved by my boyfriend and how I just need you but all the hurtful shit you say whether you are kidding or not it still hurts. So toxic

[hoppedintheraryyy]

Pretty much fucking bullshit in my life rn. Everything was close to fucking perfect with you and me and how it should be. But nope you want to fuck it up with some other friend or yours. I'm not about to get played like this it's not happening in my book. Swear to god lie to me one more time with this friend of yours and I'm not I'm walking out because I'm not about to go through this shit again

[hoppedintheraryyy]

Over the fake ass friends that say they "care" about me like fuck that all you care about is yourself and the topic about you and nobody else. You give no shots about anybody but yourself. I needed you and needed to talk about it but yet nope you ignore me. Fake as fuck

[hoppedintheraryyy]

I love you but you've been getting on my last fucking nerves all day today

[hoppedintheraryyy]

This hurts so much. for a month and a half I cried myself to sleep about you and felt like I wasn't good enough and that I was a piece of shit that deserved nothing. I was not fine at all. But yet you were fine enough to let a bitch suck u within that month and a half like dude u got to be kidding me. I know you love me but now it feels as if you love the idea of me. The idea that you have somebody who's willing to do so much for you. The idea that somebody loves you this much. The idea that no matter how much you fuck up I will be here. You love the idea of having somebody who actually truly cares about you. How am I supposed to know that "this" time it's real? As if the other times it wasn't real??? How am I supposed to know that you aren't gonna quit when you can't handle it anymore or it's too much for you? My feelings are always going to be true and real and always there for you no matter what, at this moment or when I'm married. I'm always going to be in love with you and the person you are. But I'm not down to go up and down the same way it's been. I need proof that this time it's real and that you won't give up. Like idk what to believe at this point. I knew I shouldn't have given my all cause I knew I would wind up broken-hearted in the end. And it's not fair. I just want you to be down for me and not put me through this shit anymore. Actually love and care for me and be able to be proud enough to let people know that you are dating me on social media and not be embarrassed about it. I'm just so tired of feeling like I'll never be good enough. I always say I'm not gonna give it my all cause I need to be cautious but somehow i end up always giving it my all and now it's starting to wore me down.... I love you so much but I wanna start feeling like I'm something and not nothing in this world especially from you....

[hoppedintheraryyy]

So im good enough to be friends with? Good enough to have sex with? Good enough to pretend you actually love and care for me? But not good enough to date?

[hoppedintheraryyy]

You tell me "thanks for sticking around" "I kno know I'm hard to handle " etc but yet you don't do anything to change it. Pray to God that you realize what you have right in front of you before I'm actually gone. Pray to God it's not like it how it was when it was the other way around.

[hoppedintheraryyy]

U know what I need to stop what I'm doing. Me continuing this is killing my happiness and me inside. I might be in love with you and always will foreve but I can't keep doing this to myself. I need to let go but somehow you remind me why I've stayed for so long but then it goes to shit once again I just can't do this to myself. How am I supposed to know I'm not gonna get even more hurt later on, you leave me completely and I'm just left in the dust ... I can't keep pretending anymore it's not there anymore for you and that's what hurts the most.

[flyingvirgin-deactivated2016071]

I never had a “boys are icky and gross” phase I’ve literally been chasing dick since birth

[hoppedintheraryyy]

I'm so done hurting 24/7 I really am. Just want you and only you. Why can't you just love me back like you used to?