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this blog is not a safe spot. triggers ahead. nori is my turk.

[horchataatthedisco]

I think i'm leaving this blog. If you want to follow me on my new blog, message me so I can send you the new link.

[lovely--music]

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Plastic Love (Night Tempo 100% Pure Remastered) - 竹内まりや

[queerlysad]

[altmode]

Breakfast at Tiffany’s, 1961.

[antiaxeus]

This.

[quotemadness]

“I am deathly afraid of almosts. Of coming so very close to where I want to be in life that I can almost taste it, almost touch it, then falling just a little short.”

— Beau Taplin

[horchataatthedisco]

I miss this. I miss hurting myself so much, I miss destroying myself as much as I destroy everything and everyone that gets close! I'm tired of faking it, I'm tired of acting like i'm gonna make it because i'm not! I'm going to fucking do it, i'm going to fucking end it because i'm tired of this, all of it! Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but you know what, I will. Nothing I do matters, nothing about me is good. The only thing that will ever be there for me is this hopelessness and this sadness that can't be made quiet with any drugs, any dream city, any amount of friendships, or any relationship. I'm fucking done, I hate myself and i'm tired of putting up with myself. There is nothing for me to look forward to. I could do everything right and i'm still gonna fucking be sad. I'm still so fucking sad. I'm still so fucking worthless.

[wouldyouliketoseemymask]

Watchmen (1986)

“Is that what happens to us? A life of conflict with no time for friends…so that when it’s done, only our enemies leave roses. Violent lives, ending violently. We never die in bed.”

[callmedemjin-deactivated2022041]

Emo Quartet in Dc movies

My Chemical Romance: wrote a song for Watchmen

Twenty One Pilots: wrote a song for Suicide Squad

Panic! At The Disco: covered a song for Suicide Squad

Fall Out Boy: wrote a song for The Lego Batman Movie

[lyrical-nerd]

with these dreams i inflate, painted skies in my brain

king of the clouds ~ panic! at the disco

[horchataatthedisco]

it's officially like 2 years since we last spoke.

I know you probably never check up on me. I wish you did. I like to check up on you when I'm sad. It makes me happy to see you doing good. Your art is getting so much better. I hope you still get bashful when people compliment your art.

I saw my favorite band live just 2 hours ago. I listened to a lot of songs that reminded me of that last concert in Corpus. Hearing Golden Days, remembering when I heard my favorite line and you held my hand tighter and even though I hadn't lost you yet, that song made me sad I would. Hearing Hallelujah, and being reminded of the messy circumstances that threw me in your arms as well as a kind note to myself that it's okay to still be sad about you, it means it was something special and I still should have hope that I could have something that good again. And even listening to newer songs we didn't get to share together but I wish we could talk about them.

Things are weird right now. Things have been hard. I fear that after the last one, well, maybe I don't believe in love anymore. It feels like... it was a lesson. A lesson in which I realized that maybe you were my only shot. You were "the one" even though I know that sounds silly because you moved on. But I drove you away. And i'm scared that i'll never be able to accept love, because even meeting someone as perfect as you, it couldn't work. I didn't fear that reality before our relationship, but after knowing something like that exists... to never have it again, I don't know, I cry about it a lot honestly.

I'm not necessarily afraid of being alone but maybe i'm just terribly afraid of settling. Trying to make things work again with someone who just wasn't you; I found myself detached and more alone with him than by myself. I just hate feeling unhelped by someone who was working so hard to help.

What do I do? Can I look forward to anything like that again? Or do I have to just face the reality of settling or ending up alone?

I just want an answer...I don't like being in the storm, I just want to get out.

[left-circle]

As a lesbian, I mean this in a good way.

[malmalforever]

She thought the sunset was pretty but I thought she was a ferret and wondered how she was having these thoughts

[haleyincarnate]

Quote by Jessica Katoff

[gigglepox]

Doki doki!!

[haleyincarnate]

Aggretsuko; Season 1, Episode 10

[amberjliu-deactivated20180517]

after the storm (2018)