âThese bodies,â Yagen echoes. âHuman, right?â
âIsnât it because they were the easiest ones to imitate? They made us, so we borrowed their looks. Feelings donât have forms, they only act on them.â
Laughter for happiness, tears for sorrow. There was a description of every expected emotion in the textbooks. Even if he memorized them all, he couldnât predict when one would lead to the other, or where everything starts to falling apart.
âYou canât control them,â he adds after a while. âThat where it corrupts. Even if we try to change how we think, we canât forget the things weâve felt. Sometimes itâs like a knife. Who would be stupid enough to stab themselves? But I have, and I canât stop it.â
âI donât know how.â
As he was beginning to suspect, Yagen at least hints that his emotions have done him a disservice. Not surprising, really, when theyâre all novices on the matter.
For Kikkouâs part, he wonât pry, the two arenât on a level for that much. But...
â...Iâm not certain stopping it is the way to heal. Even with physical wounds, you must guide the surviving flesh together, correct?â
Itâs not the best analogy, he knows, but perhaps itâs enough to at least begin with.
âAs I understand it, when emotions run astray, choking them down only causes them to fester; similar to leaving a battle wound untreated. It may be better to simply let them wash over you... until youâre able to channel them into the drive to move on.â
Admittedly, he canât know the answer. He canât know what will help the tantou beyond being a sounding board during their brief meeting.
â...beyond that, time appears to be the best medicine of all. Even if we cannot forget, eventually, the mind no longer wishes to remind us.â
Kikkou sighs quietly to himself. Not because of Yagenâs mood or the conversation specifically, but because of his own longings. Already, those feelings have begun to almost feel distant. For him, itâs the opposite of ideal.
âI suppose, ultimately, it depends on what you truly desire at the end of it all. If you even know it yourself.â