Hey there.

Warning. Lots of depressing posts ahead.

[howamigonnafixit]

‪Just for once, I want to feel special to someone. I want to feel been wanted to someone. I want someone to actually care when I’m gone. Is it that too much to ask for? ‬

[howamigonnafixit]

damn. This hits like a m***********

[howamigonnafixit]

What’s sad is that no matter how many times I’ve thought about you, you’ve never thought about me.

and that you’ll never know the days I’ve spent crying because of you.

and that you never felt the same way I felt about you since the first time we met.

and that I need to forget about you like you’ve done it very easily.

- Jan19🥀

[howamigonnafixit]

For as long as I live,

I will never not think about you.

[howamigonnafixit]

I couldn’t make you love me

[howamigonnafixit]

Cause only you could fill this empty space

- Empty space lyrics

[howamigonnafixit]

Wait for me dad, I’ll be with you soon

[howamigonnafixit]

Will people miss me when I’m dead?

[howamigonnafixit]

Distractions

Cutting really distracted all the fucking shit that’s happening to me

[icanseethedeadpain]

[howamigonnafixit]

I just want you to kiss me and to hear you say that you fucking miss me ...

Is that so hard?

[howamigonnafixit]

Concert

I'm pushing you away but that doesn't mean you should leave cause this is my way of saying I need you.

[howamigonnafixit]

High School Graduation. 2|June|2017

Dad, I know you're always beside me but today I want to see you being proud of me although I know you're proud of me. ❤

[howamigonnafixit]

Why am I so ugly?

[hypersleepy]

[hypersleepy]

[howamigonnafixit]

Just once...please just once I want to be someone important to somebody..is that too much to ask for?

[howamigonnafixit]

It should've been me

Why him? Why not the useless me? Why not the person who always stress her family and people around her? Why not the lost soul? I should be the one who left this world 7 years ago. I don't deserve to be here. The more I stay, the less my willingness to live.