prompt: jealousy is a heart wrenching feeling, the feeling worsens when you know you have no right to feel jealous
genre: fluff, abit angsty, friends to lovers, angst to fluff
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This lil ball of sunshine was your everything. Since the day he held your hand when you were first introduced to a class filled with unfamiliar faces of kids the same age as you.
You were on the shy side and couldn’t muster up the courage to talk to others, so you kept to yourself. Your eyes would be filled with envy as you gaze at the children playing in the playground or at the sand pit, wanting to do the same. Tearing, you played with the hem of your skirt until you heard a voice.
“Hi, i’m Hinata, what’s your name?”
and since then two of you have been inseparable. You were there throughout all the milestones of his life. Cycling together, playing together, failing at tests together. You were there when he first fell in love with Volleyball, and you wished it was you he fell for.
Butterflies, would be how you would describe the way he makes you feel. Even after all the years of spending time with him, your heart races whenever he hugs you, and love would fill your eyes whenever you gaze at him.
It is a bittersweet feeling, on one hand, your feelings blossomed over the years and now as you’re older, you understand the depth of your feelings. On the other, it was knowing that Hinata would probably not see you in any other way except as his bestfriend.
This continues till the very last year of high school. Two years have flew past and soon the two of you might be going on very different paths, and deep in your heart, you knew that if you were to miss confessing to Hinata within the year, it would be something you will always regret.
But then she came. She was everything you weren’t, she was outgoing and bubbly, she was smart, talented and more importantly she was everything you knew Hinata loved in a girl.
As a new transfer student, she raised the attention of many but only Hinata reached out to introduce himself. More often than not, lunches that were spent with you were instead with her. Movie nights became lonely nights and everyday, you could only envy how she would be the first person he would greet in the morning.
You slowly retreated into your shell again. All you could think about, is how you missed your chance.
Not that you had one anyway.
Meanwhile, without you knowing, Hinata had already known the transfer student, especially when his mother had already told him to take good care of his distant relative.
With how Hinata would discreetly stare at you across the classroom and how he seems to always smile whenever talking about you, it didn’t take long for his cousin to tease him about his crush on you. He would blush whenever she mentions how pretty you were that day, but at the same time she was also helping Hinata plan his confession.
Hinata had loved you ever since you fell asleep on his shoulder during movie night in his first year of high school. Only then, he really paid attention to how beautiful of a woman you have become and without knowing, his pulse picked up.
You sigh, the bell rang about 5 minutes ago, signalling the end of school. You see Hinata rushing towards her, and your heart clenched painfully.
“shoyo-kun are you coming for movie night?” you ask hopefully. Hinata shakes his head and gives you a smile which makes your heart twist and beat harder at the same time.
“Sorry f/n-chan, i’m kinda busy today” You knew the answer, it was the third time in 3 weeks. You plastered on a fake smile and bowed to the both of them before leaving with a, “that’s fine, have fun!”
And as you leave, Hinata turns towards his cousin. “Ok time to begin operation confess to f/n-“ before he feels a hand smack the back of his head.
He grips at the back of his hand it’s both hands before whining, “hey, what was that for?”
“When’s the last time you and y/n-chan hangout? Have you been unintentionally ignoring her? oh my god” and Hinata bites his bottom lip, deep in thought.
The last time? when was the last time i hung out with with y/n. Beautiful, gorgeous f/n-chan...
and he remembered, it has probably been a month since he last went to movie night. Oh god, he messed up bad
Guilt filled his heart and he stilled. Shit
He immediately took off, taking the familiar road leading to your house. He rushes to your room, greeting your mom and excusing himself along the way. He just couldn’t wait
There you were, adorning his jersey that he had given to you to wear whenever you attend his game, and he couldn’t help but swoon mentally, just like all the times he has seen you in it.
“f/n-chan?” he asks softly
“shoyo-kun? what are doing here” you turn around eyes wide, “weren’t you going to go out with er her?”
he shakes his head, kneeling down on the floor and taking your hands in his. “f/n-chan i’m so sorry i just realised how long i’ve been neglecting you”
“wait, she’s my cousin, and she’s been helping me with something” your eyes widened even further but you keep your mouth shut to let him talk.
“i...i love you. Like really really love you, and i’ve been trying to find a way to confess to you and my cousin has been trying to help me” he says, head down.
At that moment, you threw your arms around his neck. Snuggling into the crook, trying to hide the tears of pain that you’ve been holding up.
“you silly orange, i love you too” his eyes twinkled with happiness as his toned arms wrap around your waist securely. he holds you as you cry in relief and happiness.
As you raise your head, he gently run his thumb over your cheek, like you were the only thing that mattered in the world. He kisses you softly, his hands on your waist while yours around his neck.
he’s oblivious. You couldn’t blame the man, he’s the most outgoing not so little ball of pure angelic sunshine you’ve ever met.
The two of you became close friends after you agreed to help tutor him with some of his weaker subjects. It was one hell of a rollercoaster, getting to know him, talk to him, procrastinating with him- but all in all, it was the way he could smile even in the toughest of situation that made your heart race a little faster
It was also the way he would help you pack your things when you fell asleep in the library, the way he would always call out your name in the corridors and the way he lit up whenever he saw you.
And as you gaze at the new girl talking animatedly with Bokuto, your heart wrenches in an envious way.
you’d wished you were more pretty, more outgoing and more talkative. Maybe have the qualities Bokuto would find more attractive.
You let out a sigh, packed up your things and left.
It’s been weeks since you last heard from bokuto. Gone were the moments of admiring his adorable pout as he attempts to solve the trigonometry question in front of him, gone were the laughs the two of you shared in the library only to be scolded by the librarian.
You felt, alone. Jealous. jealous that you couldn’t be his.
However as you flipped through your books. You realised that someone had left a note
‘School rooftop, 5pm <3’ — salt and pepper
salt and pepper reminded you of him.
You glanced at the clock noticing it was almost five and it wouldn’t hurt to check out who gave you this note. So you packed up your things and lefts
The cooling air made you smile gently, the school rooftop always had a nice ambience to it. Instinctively you were able to recognise the person whose back was towards you.
his hair was a distinct white and black shade and he looked visibly tense, turning around to face you when you entered.
He was holding a bouquet of roses. And it hit you, the note must have been for the other girl, he probably slipped it into your book by mistake.
you bit your lip, heart swirling with pain but before you could say anything else, he started to talk.
With slow steps towards you, “y/n-chan, i’ve known you for almost two years now and i’ve been trying to convey my feelings towards you. I really really like you y/n-chan, because of so many reasons. Your kindness, your beauty, your intelligence, adorableness-“ and before he can finish, you’re running into his arms and hugging him tightly.
Bokuto’s eyes widens, but a large smile forms in his face as he hugs you back. A few drops of tears dropped as you leaned back. He sweeps them away with a gentle touch and smiles, “hey hey hey, don’t cry on me now” he said jokingly
you shake your head, “happy tears cuz i like you too kou-chan”
he giggles and presses his forehead against yours , “so you’re my baby from now on then?” he whispers
“please take care of me kou-chan”
Bokuto explains that during the time he didn’t soend with you, the new girl, his cousin was actually helping him confess to you while he helped her confess to Akaashi. Double score
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