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ECHOES OF NIGHT - Chapter 19

Pairing: dad! Noah Sebastian x ex!hookup reader

Series summary: Noah didn’t expect that his one night stand from 2020 would keep a secret from him for years. But now, in 2024, as Bad Omens is back in Oregon, he wasn’t expecting to run into you while trying to buy some energy drink so he could endure the tour.

You looked even prettier, yes, but what caught his attention wasn’t your beauty, or the fact that you looked like you’d just seen a ghost just by looking at him.

It was, in fact, the little girl holding your hand, telling you she liked his hoodie. He really wasn’t prepared for was seeing himself reflected in that little girl who loved bees and cookies, not expecting to change his entire life for good.

author's note: I’m really sorry for disappearing once again. I keep falling in and out from a really bad place mentally but everything is going to be okay. Thank you for supporting EON. 💛 (I'm not from Oregon and not from German, so I had a few problems trying to understand the timezones there)

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The weeks didn't just blur together.

They smeared, slow and sticky like syrup left too long on the counter, the kind you have to scrape off with a knife because it's given up trying to be liquid anymore.

That's what time felt like without him.

Thick.

Clinging.

Impossible to wipe clean.

Every morning began the same fragile way, the apartment holding its breath right along with you. Kara's voice, still thick with sleep and the last remnants of whatever dream had been visiting her, would slip out before her eyes even opened: "Is Daddy awake yet?" She'd ask it like a prayer, like the question itself might conjure him out of thin air, her small fingers already reaching for the iPad on the nightstand as if the screen itself might hold the shape of him, the warmth of him, the sound of his laugh that she'd been storing up like seashells in her memory. You'd prop it against the cereal box on the kitchen counter, the one with the cartoon bear she'd insisted on buying even though the generic brand was cheaper, pour milk into her new favorite unicorn bowl, the one with the chipped rim from when she'd tried to carry it to the table by herself, and wait.

The apartment felt smaller every day, the walls pressing in with the quiet absence of his low laugh, the way he used to hum absentmindedly while flipping pancakes, off-key and completely unbothered by it. Even the silence had a shape now, and it was shaped exactly like him.

Some mornings he answered on the first ring, and for those few minutes, the world clicked back into its rightful place. Hair still damp from whatever hotel shower he'd just stumbled out of, hoodie hood up even though he was inside, voice gravel-rough and warm like he'd been saving the softness just for her, just for this exact moment. "Hey, bug. Tell me everything. Did you dream about bees again?" And she would, in exhaustive three-year-old detail, circled back on itself three times before landing anywhere close to a point, and he'd listen like every syllable was oxygen, like she was the only person on earth worth hearing.

Other mornings the call rang out, three, four, five times, until it clicked to voicemail and your stomach dropped like it always did, that familiar plunge into the dark, the one you couldn't seem to get used to no matter how many times it happened. Ten minutes later the apology text would land, always the same rhythm, always that particular ache woven between the words:

Noah [6:19 AM] Soundcheck ran over. Tell her I'm sorry. Tell her the bee king says good morning and he's thinking about her sparkly shoes. I love you both.

You always told her. You always smiled like the words didn't carve another tiny, bleeding piece out of your chest, like you weren't silently cataloging each missed connection like stones in a wall you were building without meaning to. You smiled like you weren't counting the hours since his last real voice, like you weren't terrified the next missed call would be the one that finally cracked something irreparable, something you'd spent three years painstakingly gluing back together after you'd been the one to shatter it in the first place.

Tonight was supposed to be one of the good ones.

Kara had been coughing since the day before yesterday, nothing dramatic at first, just the dry little hack she'd carried home from L.A. like an unwelcome souvenir, the kind that sits in your luggage and reminds you of where you've been whether you want to remember or not. You'd kept her home from daycare, dosed her with the cherry medicine she made dramatic gagging faces at, complete with theatrical tongue-waggling and declarations that you were trying to poison her (actually poison her) and let her nest in your bed with every pillow in the apartment, Bluey looping on the iPad while you tried (and failed) to focus on work emails from the couch. Her forehead felt warm but not alarming. 99.1.

You told yourself it was fine.

You told yourself you could handle one more night alone.

You'd handled so many already. What was one more?

At 9:03 a.m. your FaceTime ringtone sliced through the apartment like a lifeline thrown into dark water, and you realized you'd been holding your breath without knowing it.

Kara scrambled upright so fast the blankets slid off her shoulders in a tidal wave of fleece, curls exploding around her flushed face like she'd been caught in a windstorm. "Daddy!"

You answered before the second ring finished, heart already lifting at the sight of him. Backstage somewhere; concrete walls painted that particular shade of institutional gray, cables snaking across the floor like sleeping snakes, the faint metallic echo of a guitar being tuned in the background. Black hoodie half-zipped, hair still wet and sticking to his forehead in dark strands, the tired lines around his eyes softening the second he saw her, the way they always did, the way they'd done since the first moment he saw her in the grocery store.

"Hey, my girls," he said, and God, the way his voice cracked just a little on the last word made your throat close up like a fist.

Kara launched into her daily report like she was filing an official debrief with a superior officer: the new sticker chart at daycare (three bees already, which was a personal best, thank you very much), how Bee "helped" her eat every single pea at lunch by making airplane noises (Bee was very good at airplane noises, better than Mommy, actually), the picture she drew of his tour bus with "a million wheels and a swimming pool on top" because if Daddy couldn't come home, the bus should at least have a swimming pool, that was just obvious.

Noah listened like every syllable was oxygen, leaning close to the camera, asking gentle, perfect questions in that voice he only ever used with her: "Did Bee get a sticker too?" "A million wheels? That's gotta be the fastest bus ever, bug, like, record-breaking fast." "A swimming pool on top? What if the fish fall out when you go around corners?" Laughing in all the right places, promising he'd frame the bus drawing the second it arrived in his hands, that he'd hang it right next to his bunk so he could see it every night before he fell asleep.

Then Kara coughed.

It started small, almost polite, like she was clearing her throat before making an important announcement. But it kept going full on wet, rattling, deeper than it had any right to be in such a tiny chest, the kind of cough that comes from somewhere too far down, somewhere fragile. She pressed her face into your shoulder, little body shaking with the force of it, fingers twisting in your shirt so tight you could feel each individual knuckle pressing into your collarbone.

Noah's smile vanished like someone flipped a switch. His whole face changed in an instant, the softness hardening into something sharp and watchful. "Bug? That doesn't sound good, baby. That doesn't sound good at all."

"She's been doing it since yesterday," you said, trying to keep your voice light for her sake, even as dread coiled cold and tight in your stomach, that familiar snake of fear waking up and beginning to uncurl. "Just leftover from the cold. You know how she gets. I gave her medicine, the cherry stuff she hates. She made me promise to buy grape next time."

He leaned closer to the screen like distance was something he could physically push through, like if he tried hard enough he could squeeze himself through the fiber optic cables and land right next to you on the bed. "You sure? She sounds… she sounds like she did in L.A., babe. That's not just leftovers."

Another cough ripped out of her, harder, wetter, the kind that made your own chest ache in sympathy. Her small hand fisted your shirt so tight you felt the fabric pull across your back. "Daddy," she gasped, voice thin and reedy, "Daddy, my chest hurts. It hurts right here." She pressed her palm against her sternum, little fingers splayed, and looked at the screen with eyes gone glassy and scared.

The line went quiet for half a heartbeat. You watched panic bloom across his face, the same helpless, gut-punched look he'd worn the night she spiked a fever in L.A., the night he'd held her like she might disappear if he let go.

"I'm calling the pediatrician right after our call," you said quickly. "It's probably nothing. Kids get coughs. The time difference is brutal, you've got a show in-"

The call dropped.

Just... ended.

Screen black.

Silence.

His signal went dead again.

You stared at it, heart slamming against your ribs so hard you could feel it in your throat, your temples, your fingertips. Kara whimpered into your neck, hot breath damp against your skin. "Daddy? Where'd Daddy go? I want Daddy."

"He'll call back," you promised, the words automatic, hollow, already redialing with shaking fingers that kept missing the right spots on the screen. "He'll call back, baby, he just lost signal, it happens, you know how Daddy's calls are sometimes, it's not his fault-" Straight to voicemail. Again. Same thing. Thirty seconds later the text landed like a stone through a window:

Noah [9:51 AM] Stage in 10. Can't talk. Text me updates. I love you both.

Your thumbs trembled so badly the first message came out garbled, a string of half-words and autocorrect disasters. You deleted it, tried again, forced yourself to breathe.

You [9:51 AM] She's okay. Just coughing. Call when you can.

No reply.

The pediatrician's nurse was calm, clinical, the way they always are when it's your child and you're falling apart and they've said these same words a thousand times to a thousand other parents. “Monitor her temp, keep her hydrated, come in if it climbs above 100.5 or the cough gets worse or she starts having trouble breathing, you know the signs, Mom, you've done this before.” You hung up feeling like you'd swallowed glass, each word a shard settling in your stomach. Kara's forehead was 99.8 now. Not emergency-room territory.

Yet.

Not quite yet.

You gave her another dose of the hated pink medicine, held her nose until she swallowed because that was the only way, and tucked her in with every stuffed animal she owned; her best friends Bee and Bun-Bun and sat on the edge of her bed rubbing slow circles on her back until her breathing finally evened out, still punctuated by small, wet sniffles that made your heart clench every time.

Your phone stayed cruelly silent.

A few hours later and you were pacing the living room in the dark, still wearing Noah's hoodie because taking it off felt like betraying the last piece of him you could touch, the only piece within reach. The faint scent of his cologne clung to the collar cedar, smoke, something warm and indefinably him, the thing you'd tried to find in a bottle once and failed because it wasn't just a smell, it was him. It was his skin and his hair and the way he smelled after a shower, or first thing in the morning, or when he'd been out in the sun and you kept pressing your face into it like breathing him in could close the ocean between you, like if you tried hard enough you could absorb him through osmosis.

Three missed calls from him earlier in the week.

Two more today.

The tour schedule was a meat grinder: back-to-back shows, overnight drives, press junkets in cities whose names you couldn't even pronounce, whose time zones you'd stopped trying to keep straight.

You understood.

You'd promised you could handle it.

You'd promised him, and you'd promised yourself, and you'd promised Kara that Daddy would be home soon and everything would go back to the way it was supposed to be.

But Kara's cough kept replaying in your ears like a broken record, that wet rattling sound that didn't belong in a four-year-old's chest. And the silence on the other end of the line felt like abandonment all over again, even though you knew rationally and painfully and completely that it wasn't, that he was on a stage in front of thousands of people giving everything he had, that he was thinking of you between every song, that he'd call the second he could. You knew all of that. You still felt like you were drowning.

At 3:17 p.m. your time the FaceTime finally rang, and you practically dove across the couch to answer it.

Noah looked like he'd been dragged through hell and left on the side of the road: eyes bloodshot and hollow, jaw clenched so tight a muscle jumped under the skin like something alive was trying to get out, still in the same hoodie from earlier, the sleeves pushed up to his elbows revealing forearms corded with tension. Behind him the dim interior of the moving tour bus flickered past; blackout curtains drawn tight against the German night, empty water bottles rolling on the floor with each bump in the road, the low rumble of tires on asphalt, the distant sound of someone snoring in one of the bunks.

"Sorry," he rasped before you could speak, the word scraping out like it hurt to produce. "We got stuck in traffic after load-out, then the Wi-Fi died I don't know, something with the router, Matt tried to fix it then the driver had to pull over because someone blew a tire, and I've been losing my mind for hours, I can't- Is she okay?" The question cracked in half, split right down the middle. "The cough. Tell me she's okay. Tell me she's okay, Y/N, I need you to tell me she's okay."

You swallowed around the stone in your throat, the one that had taken up permanent residence somewhere behind your tonsils. "She's napping. Temp's up to 100.2 now. Pediatrician said watch it, but-"

"100.2?" His eyes went wide, panic flashing bright and raw across his face, erasing the exhaustion for just a moment. "Y/N, that's not nothing. That's a fever. That's I told you before we left, if she gets sick again you need to you need to call me immediately, not wait, not-"

"I did call," you snapped, the words sharper than you meant them to be, barbed wire wrapped around every syllable. Exhaustion and fear and the terrible loneliness of the past hours twisted together into something ugly and jagged, something you couldn't control anymore. "I called the doctor. I texted you. I've been sitting here for hours waiting for you to pick up the goddamn phone, Noah. Hours. You missed three calls this week already. Three. I stopped counting after that because what's the point? And now she's coughing like she did in L.A., that same sound, that same scary sound, and you're on a bus somewhere in Europe and I'm here doing this alone this time. I'm always doing this alone since she was born."

He flinched like you'd slapped him across the face. The hurt that flashed across his features was so immediate, so unguarded, so completely devastating that it made your stomach lurch with instant, gut-wrenching regret. You watched him try to school his expression, try to hide it, fail completely.

"I'm trying," he said quietly, voice trembling on the edge of something raw. "God, I'm trying so fucking hard. The schedule is insane, the label's got us doing double soundchecks, press at 6 a.m., interviews, I'm running on three hours of sleep and Red Bull and I still feel like I'm failing both of you every single day "

"And I'm running on none!" Your voice broke, raw and ragged, tears finally spilling over despite every effort to hold them back. Kara stirred in the next room, you heard the sheets rustle, a small coughing fit starting up and you lowered your voice to a furious, shaking whisper that was somehow worse than shouting. "She asked for you fourteen times today. Fourteen. I counted. Every time she coughed she looked at the door like you were going to walk through it and fix it with one of your stupid magic hugs, the ones that make everything better just because they're yours. And I can't fix it. I'm not the one who makes the ceiling pancakes or sings the bee song exactly right, with all the hand motions. I'm just... Mom. The one who kept her from you for three years, remember? The one who's apparently always going to be doing this part alone because it's what I deserve."

The words tasted like battery acid the second they left your mouth, caustic and burning. You watched regret and pain carve themselves deeper into his expression, watched the way his shoulders curled inward like he was trying to protect something already broken beyond repair, watched his eyes go from hurt to devastated to something else entirely.

"Don't," he said, so quiet it almost didn't carry through the speaker. "Don't do that. Don't throw the past at me like it's a weapon when I'm already bleeding out here trying to be everything you both need. Don't use the worst thing that ever happened to us as ammunition in a fight about something else. That's not fair. That's not… you know that's not fair."

"You're not here," you whispered, the meltdown you'd been holding back for weeks finally cracking wide open, all the carefully constructed walls crumbling at once. "You're not here when she's sick. You're not here when she cries for you at bedtime. You're not here when I'm terrified we're going to lose this before we even get to start it, before we even get to have it for real. I-I don’t know what our label is… And… What if the distance breaks us? What if the fans never stop digging into our lives, into her life? What if your label decides a kid is bad press and tells you to choose? What if-"

"What if you stop believing in me?" he finished, voice low and trembling, eyes wet and bright even in the dim light of the bus. "Is that what this is? You're already writing the ending because it's easier than trusting I'll come back? Because it's safer to assume the worst than to hope for the best and get hurt again? You’re my girl, Y/N, you’re not just the mother of my child, you’re the woman that I want to build a future with, just… Just believe me."

The silence that followed was worse than any fight you'd ever had, worse than the screaming matches in those early days after everything fell apart, worse than the cold, quiet distance when you couldn't look at each other without seeing all the ways you'd failed. This silence was filled with everything unsaid, everything too painful to speak aloud, everything you were both too scared to admit even to yourselves.

Kara coughed again from her room wet, painful, dragging, the kind of cough that rattles in the chest and won't let go and the sound sliced through the line like glass, cutting both of you open.

Noah's face crumpled completely. The tears he'd been holding back spilled over, tracking down his cheeks, and he didn't even bother to wipe them away. "Put me on with her. Please. Just... let me hear her. Let me talk to her. I don't care if she's asleep, just let me see her."

You walked into her bedroom on shaking legs, past the nightlight shaped like a star that cast gentle shadows on the walls, past the tower of books beside her bed, past the little pair of sparkly shoes she'd kicked off by the door. She was half-awake, eyes glassy with fever and tears, cheeks blotchy and flushed, hair stuck to her forehead with sweat. You held the phone so she could see him, propping it against the pillow beside her.

"Daddy?" she rasped, voice small and wrecked, so small it made your chest ache in ways you didn't have words for.

"Hey, bug," he said, and his voice cracked wide open, raw and wrecked and completely, utterly broken. "Hey, my little bug. I'm right here. I'm always right here, okay? Even when you can't see me. Even when the phone doesn't work. I'm always thinking about you."

She reached one chubby hand toward the screen like she could pull him through it, like if she tried hard enough she could bridge the distance with her small fingers. "Come home, Daddy. I want you to come home. My chest hurts and I want you."

"I'm coming," he promised, tears slipping freely down his own face now, his voice hitching on every other word. "As soon as the tour's done, I'm on the first plane. The very first one. You and Mommy are coming home to me, remember? That's the plan. We're gonna have the biggest welcome-home party with ceiling pancakes and glitter and all your friends and Bee and Bun-Bun and-"

Another cough tore out of her, so violent her whole body shook, little limbs jerking with the force of it. When it stopped, she was crying not loud, dramatic crying, but the quiet, exhausted kind that's somehow worse, tears just leaking out while she gasped for breath.

You pulled the phone back, panic spiking hot and bright behind your eyes, your heart hammering so hard you could feel it in your temples. "Noah, she's burning up again. I just-I felt her forehead, she's hotter than before. I think I need to take her to urgent care. I think-I need to go now."

His eyes went wide with helpless terror, that particular look of a parent who would tear the world apart with his bare hands if it would help his child and can't because he's eight thousand miles away. "Go. Now. Don't even hang up, just keep the phone, put me in your pocket, I don't care. I'll stay on the line the whole way. I'll be right there, I'll-"

The call dropped again.

Signal gone. Just like that.

You stared at the black screen, heart hammering so loud it drowned out everything else, Kara's crying, the hum of the refrigerator, the distant sound of a car passing on the street below. Kara whimpered "Daddy?" again, smaller this time, more broken, and the sound shattered something deep inside your chest that you weren't sure would ever fully mend.

Your hands shook violently as you bundled her into her coat, wrestling small arms through sleeves while she cried and coughed and cried some more. Bee clutched to her chest like a talisman, like the stuffed bee could protect her where her father couldn't. Car keys were already biting into your palm so hard they left marks. The apartment felt like it was collapsing in on itself, the walls pressing closer with every second, the ceiling lower than it had been an hour ago. The future you'd both promised each other weeks ago; sunlit mornings in the house you'd found together, shared pancakes with faces made of fruit, no more goodbyes ever again, suddenly felt like the cruelest kind of mirage, something that would dissolve the second you got close enough to touch it.

Because what if he couldn't answer the next call either?

What if love wasn't enough to bridge an ocean and a tour schedule and a sick child crying for a father who couldn't get there in time?

What if you'd been wrong to believe that this time would be different, that you could fix what you'd broken, that three years apart could be made up for with a few good months and a lot of promises?

You slammed the door behind you, Kara's fever-hot cheek pressed to your shoulder, her small arms locked around your neck with surprising strength, her tears wet against your skin, and ran for the car without looking back at the phone still glowing on the couch with one last missed notification from Noah:

Noah [3:57 PM] Call me the second you know anything. I'm losing my mind here. I love you both more than anything. More than anything in the entire world. Please.

The screen went dark before you could answer.

And in the cold Oregon night, with your sick daughter trembling in your arms and the man you loved an ocean and a stage away, you realized, with a clarity that cut straight to the bone, that you had no idea if love would be enough this time.

You only knew you were terrified it wouldn't be.

NOAH

The bus was moving again, tires humming over German autobahn like white noise meant to drown out everything else. It didn't. Nothing drowned it out tonight. Not the rumble of the engine, not the distant snoring from the front bunks, not the low murmur of whatever movie someone was watching on a laptop two compartments over. Nothing could touch the sound of his daughter coughing, the look on Y/N's face right before the call dropped, the way Kara had reached for the screen like she could crawl through it into his arms.

Noah sat on the narrow couch at the back lounge, knees pulled up to his chest like a child, phone clutched in both hands like it might explode if he let go. Like it contained all the answers to questions he was too afraid to ask.

The screen was still dark.

No new messages.

No missed call log update.

Just the same frozen timestamp from forty-seven minutes ago when the call dropped mid-sentence, when Y/N's voice had cut out right in the middle of a word, when Kara's face had frozen for just a second before disappearing entirely.

She's burning up again.

He could still hear Y/N's voice looping in his skull, thin, frayed, terrified in a way he'd only heard a handful of times before. Could still see Kara's small, fever-flushed face on the screen reaching for him like he could crawl through the pixels and hold her, like he was supposed to be able to do that, like that was his job and he was failing at it. He couldn't. He was eight thousand miles and a timezone away, stuck between Mannheim and Munich with a setlist in his pocket and a daughter who needed him right fucking now, and there was absolutely nothing he could do about it.

His thumb hovered over her name again.

He'd already called six times since the drop.

Seven? He'd lost count.

Voicemail, every single time.

He knew she was probably in the car, or the waiting room, or holding Kara while some nurse listened to her lungs and checked her vitals and asked questions Y/N would have to answer alone. He knew that logically, but it didn't stop the panic from clawing higher up his throat with every unanswered ring, didn't stop the images from flooding his brain Kara on a hospital bed, Kara with an IV in her tiny hand, Kara scared and crying and asking for him while he sat uselessly on a bus in Germany.

The lounge door slid open with a soft whoosh. Jolly ducked inside first, his face drawn with concern, followed by Nick, then Folio, and Matt bringing up the rear like a quiet honor guard, like they were approaching someone in mourning. They didn't speak at first, just filed in, took seats around him like they were circling a wounded animal they weren't sure how to help. Jolly sat on the arm of the couch closest, close enough to touch if needed. Nick dropped onto the floor, back against the wall, long legs stretched out in front of him. Folio perched on the edge of the table, hands clasped between his knees. Matt stayed standing, arms folded, leaning against the door frame, watching Noah like he was waiting for the moment the thread finally snapped, the moment he'd need to catch whatever fell.

"You're shaking," Jolly said eventually, voice low and gentle, the way you'd talk to someone on a ledge.

Noah hadn't noticed. He looked down at his hands, at the phone still clutched between them, at the fine tremor running through his fingers like he'd been standing in the cold too long. His knee was bouncing hard enough to rattle the empty water bottle on the floor, knocking it against the leg of the couch in a rhythm he couldn't control. He still forced himself to look up, to meet their eyes. Didn't help. Nothing helped.

"She's sick," he said, the words scraping out like broken glass. "Like last time. Coughing. Fever climbing. Y/N's taking her to urgent care and I-" His voice cracked, splintered, fell apart. "I'm not there. Again. I'm never there when it matters. I'm always somewhere else."

Nick exhaled through his nose, a long slow breath. "You talked to her a few minutes ago. She said she was heading out the door. They're probably still in triage, filling out forms, waiting. You know how urgent care is. She's probably sitting in a plastic chair right now filling out paperwork."

"I should be the one carrying her in there," Noah said, barely above a whisper, the words meant more for himself than any of them. "I should be the one holding the shitty paper cup of water while the doctor listens to her chest. I should be the one making stupid faces to distract her while they take her temperature. I should be-" He broke off, pressing the heels of his hands into his eyes until colors burst behind the lids, until the pressure was almost painful enough to drown out everything else. "I'm her dad. I'm supposed to be there when she's scared. That's the whole deal. That's the only thing that actually matters."

Matt finally spoke. Calm. Measured. The way he always got when everything else was on fire, when the rest of them were falling apart and someone needed to hold the pieces. "You are her dad. That doesn't stop because you're on a bus in Germany, that doesn't stop because there's an ocean in between you. You're still her dad when you're on stage, when you're sleeping four hours a night in a bunk that's too small for you, when you're answering FaceTime at four in the morning so she can show you the glitter glue she got on Bee's wings. Distance doesn't erase that. Location doesn't define it."

Noah laughed once, short, bitter, hollow, a sound that didn't have any humor in it at all. "Tell that to the part of me that's losing its fucking mind right now. Tell that to the part of me that's been sitting here for an hour imagining every worst-case scenario where she grows to hate me. Tell that to the part of me that knows, that knows, that I should be there and I'm not."

Folio leaned forward, elbows on knees, eyes steady. "Then lose it for a minute. Scream. Punch something. Cry. Throw this water bottle across the room. I don't care. Whatever you need to do to get through the next hour, do it. But don't sit here convincing yourself you're failing her, because you're not. You're just... human. You're in an impossible situation and you're doing the best you can, and that's all any of us can do."

Jolly reached over, squeezed the back of Noah's neck the way he used to when they were younger, new to all of this and everything felt too big and too scary and too much. The way he had when Noah's almost broke down when the pressure of the first album hit. "You've been running on fumes since we left L.A. You think we don't notice? You barely eat, you barely sleep. You stare at that phone like it's gonna grow legs and fly you home. We're worried about you, man. Not just about Y/N and Kara, about you."

Noah dragged a hand down his face, felt the stubble that he hadn't bothered to shave in two days, the roughness of his own skin. "I can't cancel shows. People paid money. They took time off work, arranged childcare, drove hours to be there. The label would-"

"Fuck the label," Nick said flatly, with the kind of certainty that came from years of dealing with labels, of knowing exactly how much weight their opinions actually carried. "They'll survive. They'll figure it out. They've got insurance and lawyers and people whose entire job is handling this kind of thing. You've got one daughter. One. She only gets one childhood, one version of right now. If she needs you, then she needs you. Full stop. End of discussion, the fans will understand, the true ones will."

The words landed like stones in still water, sending ripples through the silence of the lounge. Noah looked up, eyes red-rimmed and glassy, meeting each of their faces in turn. "You'd be okay with that? All of you?”

Folio shrugged, easy and certain. "We'd be pissed if you didn't, honestly. Tour dates? They come around again. They always do. Next year, the year after, five years from now. A little girl who's scared and sick and asking for her dad? That's once. That's right now. That doesn't wait."

Matt stepped closer, hand landing on Noah's shoulder, solid and grounding. "I already talked to management. While you were on the phone with her, I called. They're not happy, I'm not gonna lie to you, they're definitely not happy but they're not suicidal. They know how this looks if they force you to stay. We can push the last six dates to next spring, refund or reschedule, and give people options. Insurance covers most of it. The crew will still get paid, that's already handled. You walk off this bus tomorrow morning, you're not burning the band down. You're not ending anyone's career. You're just choosing your kid. And we've got your back. All of us."

Noah stared at him for a long beat, searching his face for any hint of hesitation, any sign that this was costing them more than they were letting on. He found nothing but certainty. Then he looked at each of them in turn, Jolly's quiet nod, Nick's steady gaze, Folio's small, encouraging smile, and something cracked open in his chest, sharp and painful and relieving all at once, like a dam finally breaking after years of holding back.

He exhaled like he'd been holding the breath since the day they left LA, since the moment he'd kissed Kara goodbye and promised he'd be home soon, since he'd watched Y/N's face through the window as the car pulled away.

"Okay," he said. Voice barely there, barely audible over the rumble of the bus. "Okay. I'm going home. I'm going home to my girls."

No one cheered. No one clapped him on the back or made a big deal out of it. They just moved.

Jolly pulled out his phone, already scrolling through contacts. "I'll call the travel desk. Earliest flight out of Munich, first class if there's anything available, if not, whatever gets you there fastest. I don't care if it's cramped and awful, you'll sleep when you get home."

Nick stood, cracking his neck. "I'll pack your shit. You're not in any shape to do it without forgetting half of it. Where's your suitcase? The black one? And you've got stuff scattered all over the bus, I've seen your shit in three different bunks."

Folio already had the iPad open, stylus moving. "I'll email the statement draft to PR. Short. Honest. Family emergency, need to be home. Respect our privacy during this time. Done. They can tweak it if they want, but the bones are there."

Matt stayed where he was, hand going to Noah's shoulder, grounding him to the moment. "Breathe, brother. You're doing the right thing. The only thing. In a few years, this will just be a story you tell the time you flew home in the middle of a tour because your daughter needed you. And she'll know. She'll always know that when it really mattered, you came."

Noah nodded once, numb and certain all at once, the two feelings tangled together in his chest like vines. He didn't text her yet. Didn't call. He wanted to see her face when he said it. Wanted to watch her eyes widen, watch the relief flood in, watch the fear drain away. Wanted to watch Kara run to him at the door or maybe in the waiting room, maybe in the hospital, wherever she was and know that this time Daddy wasn't just a voice on a screen, wasn't just a face in a rectangle, wasn't just a promise that might or might not come true.

So he sat there in the dark lounge, surrounded by the only four people on earth who truly understood why he was about to walk off the biggest tour of his career, surrounded by the brothers who'd just proven, again, that they were exactly that brothers, in every way that counted and let himself feel the first real breath he'd taken in weeks.

Tomorrow he was going home.

And he wasn't coming back without them.

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