Kayla

For one to love, requires you to love yourself. If you cannot love yourself, then your love and affection means nothing.

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This clamp filter is an aesthetic

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I think the scariest thing about depression isn't what you don't know but what you do know. You don't know what it'll be like later but you do know that it never leaves, that it is with you forever. You don't know when depression will hit you but you do know that when it does... it'll leave you empty and unable to move, or keep yourself afloat. The scariest part is knowing that you cannot do anything at all to control your mind.. knowing that no matter how hard you struggle to be okay- no matter how hard you climb to get out- you will always be stuck. It's like your happiness is being held hostage and you can't do anything but sit and watch as it slowly shrivels into nothingness. You don't know how to make it stop... but maybe you do... and that is the scariest part- you know how to end it... you just don't know when.

Thoughts from deep inside

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Even when I have everything I still feel like nothing.

My mind

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From the Past

He saw the healing cuts and yelled at me. I searched my mind frantically trying to find a plausible excuse. Before I could say anything he yelled at me again, “why do you do this to yourself?! you have no reason to be depressed!” As those last words left his mouth every single thing flashed through my mind; being hated, bullied, drowned, used, tossed aside. Everything came flooding back and I wanted to die.

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But that was the problem. Parents weren’t empathizing with their kids but yelling at them. Which just made them feel worse and even more suicidal..

A piece of me

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I like this a lot

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Where did the name Onision come from?

Hell.

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#recolor

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Aesthetically pleasing

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how do you know if you're in love???

I honestly asked my friend this same question just hours ago as I was clueless myself but thinking about it now I think it’s when for the first time after what seemed like a dreadful year (or life), you look forward to waking every morning knowing he (let’s use he as it’s me talking) will be there for you. I think it’s just plain seeing him and being happy that’s he’s around. It’s being happy just by hearing his voice. No matter how bad your day is, one message from him would make your entire day. It’s when he makes you want to write long letters and huge poems. It’s not all about “lust”- it’s more of the intimate relationship you have together. It’s when the simplest of things count. It’s when you start to mature and start to plan something with him for the future. It’s when he makes you want to start fixing your life. It’s when he’s always in your head 3 pm or 3 am. It’s when you can’t stop talking or thinking about him. It’s when you just really always miss him even if he’s right beside you. It’s the “I used to like green eyes but now blue eyes are my favorite”. It’s when all love and cheesy stuff just apply for him. It’s when you begin to see nothing but him and you value him like you value yourself. It’s not the “heart pounding, hands sweating” feeling but more of the “I feel home” feeling. It’s more of like talking to yourself- being yourself with someone without worries. It’s when you begin to really trust him with everything and that includes your happiness. It’s when he’s your happiness. It’s when subconsciously you change for the better. It’s when you once again start opening up after a long time. It’s when you are denying it at most cause you are afraid of how strong you feel and last I think while you’re reading this- there’s someone in your head right now and you’re just contemplating whether you’re in love with him or not but hey the fact that he or she is the person (out of billions of people) in your mind while you read this must say a lot.

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This honestly just took the words right out of my mouth

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