* 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑛 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 !

𝒋𝒖𝒍𝒊𝒂𝒏  𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒙  penned  by  𝑎𝑐  .

[hubrlstic]

blairvdm​:

     she did not expect julian to agree , not at all , though when he reached to take the cup from her hands she tensed up - ready instantly to argue . lips agape but to no avail when she recognized the look in his eyes . “ this will come back to bite you in the ass . “ blair huffs under her breath , green hues rolling to the back of her skull . “ my love , you were there .. all one hundred times i spoke with our realtor on the phone . and what did i say ? “ cupped face stares back at him , not even bothering to protest against his touch as it was the only thing keeping her from bursting into flames . “ french . arch . “ she lets out slowly . and while she did in fact put the ‘ demon ‘ in demontfort , blair recognized his words as true . would she say it out loud in front of him ? absolutely .. though , not right now . defeat was visible in the way she rolled her eyes , tongue swirling in her mouth . “ i guess the first apartment he showed us today had that french arch i want . “ blair sighs . “ but the closet was tiny , so you better figure it out because i’m done compromising for the month . “ eyebrows raise up . “ and don’t forget how many boxes i’m packing . “ a smile creeps on her face .

it probably would come back to bite him in the ass but he would lose his sanity if she had another sip of that long gone cold coffee. it clearly did no wonders for her, so he just rolls his eyes with a slight smile. “ well it’s new york, everyone’s probably dying for french archs. ” he shrugs, he had no clue if that was the case but he knew apartments were sold before they even hit the market in the city. “ the closet wasn’t that tiny. maybe it’s the perfect opportunity for a spring cleaning. ” he suggest, bravely so and to distract her from just suggesting she’d throw out some clothes he offers her a cheeky smile as he drops his hands to her waist. “ did you see the size of the shower? ” he wonders, hands sliding further down as he tilts his head in question “ if you’re thinking what i’m thinking. ” he jokes before stepping away to admire the view from the bedroom. “ we can keep looking though. i want you to be happy. ”

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blairvdm​:

     it’s been a long day . the flight - delayed , her coffee - stone cold and her sanity ? on the edge .. heels click over the naked wooden floor of the next spacious apartment in the heart of manhattan as the sun was setting down over her dream destination , yet the frown on her face was deep and sending chills over the agent that has been dealing with her short temper the past few days . “ i hate the windows . “ she drags out , gaze set on the man that she swore was tired at this point and she takes another sip from the cold drink in her hands . inhaling sharply through her nose she turns so she can look the only man in existence , capable of tolerating and handling her worst - julian . “ i said i want a french arch and this is plain square . “ she shakes her head lightly , shocked before turning to the sweating realtor . “ i can sense from your body language that the closet will barely fit my shoes , let alone my boyfriend’s .. “ 

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personally he’d liked every space they’d seen, but as with everything, blair was extremely extremely particular. always a detail off somewhere. he didn’t get it, he didn’t try to get it either he knew it was impossible. leaning against a kitchen counter he watches as she examines the room, arms crossed as a grimace cuts across his face. the poor realtor in for yet another round. he shakes his head a quick polite laugh leaves his lips as he steps forward to take the coffee out of her hand, placing it on the counter with a look that said, don’t even question me. then he takes her hand and leads her into the adjoined bedroom. “ hey, ” he grins, hands cupping her face “ i know you’re not good a settling, but sometimes you gotta compromise baby. ” head tips to the side “ i’m pretty sure you’ve made our realtor shit his pants at least twice today. cut him some slack. ”

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blairvdm​:

      “ i’m pretty sure that’s what roommate means . “ eyebrows raise up and she chuckles , finding it charming he needed the extra reassurance . maybe they were rushing it , but blair was confident . they have seen the worst .. and he was attractive when angry . there was nothing really there that could scare her away and with their recently confessed adoration to one another , nothing was  setting the bright red alarms in her mind . “ come on now .. “ she lets out breathedly , pushing herself so she can sit up next to him and let her hand rest on his chest . monterey has deprived them from their need to fly , but the wings were still there .. “ i know i was yelling at you or whatever , “ she rolls her eyes , sighing , “ but you really seemed in your element that day on the field . and you said you are so good that you even got offers while in college and that wasn’t that long ago .. “ blair reminds softly , wanting to spark the same fire in him that he helped burst in her . “ you don’t know if you’ll fail . “ truth be told , she never expected to hear those words ever exit julian’s mouth but she can mock him for everything else , never his dreams . gentle hand moves up to cup his cheek , “ i’ve never seen you fail in anything . “ fingers tighten the grip over his face enough to push his cheeks together . “ so snap out of it ! “ she lowers herself to peck his squished lips under her grip before she releases his face . 

“ right, just making sure. ” a light laugh leaves his lips. if he was ever gonna move, now was the time. he knew they’d completely drive each other up the walls when it came down to it, but right now, he couldn’t think of someone he’d rather have drive him up the walls. and they’d been able to overcome their problems a stupid amount of times, he was pretty sure nothing was too much for them at this point. “ can’t wait to watch my girlfriend conquor the world. ” he says without even thinking about it. the first time he’d adressed her as, well, as what she was and there wasn’t even a hint of regret to spot on his features, only a fond smile that doesn’t disappear as the focus shifts to his soccer predicament. “ you don’t even understand soccer.. ” he notes, as she mentions him looking like he was in his element, but he appreciates her words and maybe he should listen. her words kind of take him by surprise as he falls silent, just staring up at her for a moment before she’s squeezing his cheeks and literally snapping him out of his funk. a chuckle leave his lips as she pecks them. he pushes himself up like he hadn’t had enough, cupping her cheek as he leans in, eyes find hers “ you’re fucking amazing. ” he sighs, pressing his lips to hers in a sweet kiss “ and i love you. if only we weren’t in such a public space right now, i’d show you really how much. ” smirks grows on his lips but he just leans back on his hands instead of giving her an idea of where his mind was going, she knew.

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blairvdm​:

      a smile spreads on her features , warm and alluring , and all for the man . “ yeah .. “ she repeats , this time quieter like she was envisioning the picture . her , julian , stella and their apartment in manhattan that blair will most likely decorate herself , hence driving julian insane with her high expectations . eyebrow quirks up , eyes not moving an inch from his features . head bops down lightly while a little smirk plays on her pout , gaze finds his through her long lashes while she sends out a challenge . blair was familiar with his ability to survive .. even under water , and this alone was a reason for the femme to admire julian at times she hardly even tolerated him . “ yes , your dreams . “ blonde head nods , frowning momentarily when his hand repositions under his head . “ i mean .. you got your dream girl . “ shoulders buck up in a shrug when she quips , somehow managing to keep a straight face . “ so i think it’s time to go for your dream job . while the boss and aspiring choreographer in pr relationship fantasy was hot , you looked far more comfortable on the soccer field that one time than in the club . “ she muses . 

a fond expression takes over his features as she falls quiet , he could only imagine her already picking out decor in her mind and wanting east facing windows or something extremely specific like that. “ just to make it clear , we are going to live together right ? ” he laughs , making sure he wasn’t getting ahead of himself . it felt like a natural step even if some would say they were moving quick . but he loved her and they were both desperate to finally get out of this god forsaken town , he wasn’t in the least bit of doubt about it . he falls quiet , only a smile pulling at his lips as she mentions him getting his dream girl , he couldn’t really argue against that . well he could but he was pretty sure she wouldn’t appreciate him saying she wasn’t megan fox . he looks thoughtful as she speaks although he’s not convinced at all . “ i don’t have what it takes . i’d rather not do it if i know i’ll fail . ” he says honestly as his gaze diverts from hers . probably the first time he’d ever really admitted to not being a living legend around her .

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blairvdm​:

      she forcibly pulls corners of her lips downwards , not wanting to break character of the lead in her current melodramatic . gaze , however , glazed with playfulness and radiant warmth lets out what blair would surely let out loud sooner or later again . “ stop it ! “ eyes squeeze shut and a smile graces tired features while actions contradicts the request and she leans against the touch . his words make a curious gaze find it’s way to his features and send her deep in thought . the signs were right there in front of her and she feels almost foolish not recognizing them earlier , he was just as much in a rot as she was . something new clicks in her , his question instantly making her look up at him as now his confession burned over her mind . “ yeah .. “ confident in the little word , she even nods . “ just , as long as you’re sure you’d find that ‘ play ‘ button to your life and won’t wake up one day hating me for that decision . “ lips pout in thought as even more fear downs on her when she said the words . getting accustomed to the new position , she makes herself comfortable on his chest . “ and when will you start chasing after your dreams ? “ eyebrows raise up , done with talking about her turmoils . head jerks up to julian , hand drawing lazy patterns over his torso 

laugh tumbles over his lips at her request it was pretty weak in his opinion and she practically leaned in to his touch which only propelled him to continue although , he also wanted to actually take his time and listen . it wasn’t everyday blair demontfort opened her heart and especially not to him . not his fault she was such an easy distraction though . and a pretty one too . “ yeah ? ” he repeats as he nods along , feigning thoughtfulness at her confession . “ i think i’d might like that too . ” he replies before he clears his throat at her next words “ don’t worry , i always find a way . ” he assures her and she of all people knew he (most of the time) found a way . chuckling when she mentions him waking up hating her one day , surely they wouldn’t always be this content but he was pretty sure it was too late for hate . he moves one hand from her waist and props it under his head . “ my dreams ? ” he questions , acting dumb . the idea of being too out of shape and having lost his touch with a soccer ball was enough to keep him not chasing his dreams .

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blairvdm​:

      all these years , blair selfishly believed she never needed saving . having gone through troubles and tribulations on her own , she trusted only herself with her crippling fears . and there he comes , the man she least expected , allowing her to be weak for him and making her weak all at once . but she did not want to put up a fight . instead , eyes close and she allows herself to take in his scent and ravish in it for a second . in a short amount of time , julian managed to do the unthinkable . “ no .. “ denies in a half-whisper , instinctively shielding away from the only person who handed her comfort . “ this is just so new . “ hands meet in her lap and fingertips start picking on one another as she tried her best to gather the words to contradict her initial response . “ i won’t even be able to come back as frequently and you have the club , i can’t expect you to jump on my every whim and catch a flight whenever i’m free . “ gaze fixates solely on dainty fingers now as she let the cloud of fear spread through the huge room . “ and it would be cruel of me to ask you to wait or ditch your whole life and follow me . and also my family needs me here , so .. “ she shrugs , “ i’m just .. trying to figure it all out . “ with a groan , head presses further into his chest , moving so her face can sink into the material of his shirt , wanting to hide from him , herself and her stupid fears alike . 

he really can’t help it , the small laugh that leaves his lips , it wasn’t that he was laughing at her more so the fact that he didn’t see the problem or you know , the bigger deal . and it was clearly a big deal for her . “ no ? ” he repeats in a teasing tone , dipping his head as lips trail along her jaw . maybe he was cheating a little but he wanted to cheer her up and honestly he’d never been good at putting himself in someone’s else’s shoes but he could she was upset and he tried to make it better the way he knew how to . chuckle falls against her skin before he withdraws with a smile on his face , “ you think i actually have a life right now ? it’s been on pause since college . ” he admits , maybe this was the sort of push he’d been waiting for all along . “ would you want me to follow you ? ” he wonders ignoring her words about her family ‘cause he figured that couldn’t be true but merely an excuse to crush her own dreams . “ you should absolutely go . no matter what anyone tells you . ” he lets a hand stroke over her hair before laying down on his back again , still holding her tight .

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blairvdm​:

      who knew five little words were able to make blair’s stomach flutter with happiness . this was both a blessing and a curse , especially in the mess of a mud she had found herself in . julliard was her dream , new york was her dream .. but so was what she had with the man . sure , it was never julian that she envisioned experiencing this new and foreign feeling but he was providing rather handsome personification of what she thought was impossible to have in a place like monterey . “ sure , yeah .. “ she agrees , though the words were hollow . blair was supposed to be happy , to be soaring to the ceiling with happiness even , yet she was low on the ground – accepting the shelter julian offered . snuggling into his chest , she sucks her lips in . clearly , he couldn’t see the problem , or rather did not acknowledge it as one and that alone made her question her own reaction to everything . “ well .. i mean , i haven’t danced competitively for so long . i have barely practiced my acrobatics all this time .. “ head shakes , messing up the top of her head as she was comfortably laying it over his shirt . “ atop of all that , if i agree , i’ll have to move to new york which .. “ she sighs , ‘ is great ‘ , ‘ is my dream ‘ , ‘ is what i’ve been working for my whole life ‘ “ .. is an 8 hour flight with one stop away , if you’re flying united . “ head jerks up , searching his face while she anticipated a reaction . 

he was usually quick to pick up on details and put two and two together , but this one time he had to admit he was lost . he couldn’t see the problem in fact it seemed like a luxury problem if anything . “ blair , ” he sighs , fingers gently tugging a stray strand of hair behind her ear before she snuggles into his chest , arms instinctively wrap around her small frame , fingers running up and down her back in a soothing manner . words couldn’t really explain the way he felt about her and he sure knew she didn’t need protecting , yet all he wanted to do was provide her shelter when she needed it and when she didn’t even know she needed it , ‘cause sometimes in his opinion she was in too deep . “ you seem pretty flexible to me . ” he can’t help the remark , trying to keep in the laugh but his chest still moves as though it was out loud . “ is that really your concern ? you think they would’ve let you in if you weren’t up for it ? ” he wonders , brows raised in confusion . it was one if not the best performing arts school so they probably knew what they were doing . he looks at her , eyes narrowed for a moment not catching her drift at all but then he lets out a sigh “ are you worried about me ? us ? ”

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blairvdm​:

     catching his innuendo flawlessly her brows raise up slightly while lips part in a perfect circle , “ oh ! “ blonde exclaims , “ there’s no way i’m posting a review on that magic of yours . “ grin spreads lewdly over features . “ i’m not willing to share . if anyone asks , the territory’s already marked . “ gaze flickers from gaze to lips and she has a hard time deciding which she fell to adore more . they were still the same - julian and blair , pros at their game and it is proven to her once again when his grip finds the soft skin of her face to lock their lips . and although touching him excited her as if what they had was still a secret , there’s no denying she can get used to being loved properly . she could , and she wanted to .. precisely why sight sinks low to the ground and her hand finds the back of her head to scratch the skin that was not even itching . one way or another , word would spread and last thing she wanted was for him to find out from a source that’s not her . “ i – well .. “ she stumbles over words , head moving so she can find his hues . rip it out , like a band-aid . “ i got accepted into julliard . “ she lets out , swallowing down the lumb that had formed from having these words stuck on the back of her throat . blair takes a deep breath and bucks her shoulders up , “ and i don’t know what to do .. “ she lets out alongside her breath , fear evident in her words and eyes – as for once , she stands choosing between two things near and dear to her heart . 

soft laugh rolls over his lips at her words , he surely preferred not sharing her either . something they could agree on . “ good . ” he murmurs as his lips ghost along her jaw , an attempt to somehow wriggle whatever she was so reluctant to share out of her . “ ‘cause i’m yours to keep . ” at this point he shouldn’t be surprised at the words that left his mouth around her but whenever they were as genuine and foreign exchanges between the two it still kind of made him laugh internally . he takes her hands in his again , drawing soft circles on her skin as she searches for words . julliard . he knew of the school obviously but he didn’t quite see the problem in that . “ that’s good . ” he says , smile growing his lips despite her lack of enthusiasm . “ it’s good no ? ” he questions with a raised brow , as he thought she’d be happier to share that news . “ what do you mean ? ” he can’t help but laugh , tugging at her hand to guide her onto his lap , she looked like she could use a hug for some reason .

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blairvdm​:

         nose scrunches up at his comment , cheeks turning red . while julian could be the last person to give her constructive criticism on her dancing , as her technical errors were probably non-detectable to him , it did feel good to know she was not too shabby in his eyes . her teeth find her lower lip while watching him chew up and swallow down the end of his sentence . “ well , i’m glad you’re here because .. “ shoulder bucks up , action masked as nonchalant while hand allows him to adjust it to his liking , before her thumb finds his skin and brushes over it tenderly . “ .. you know . “ while the words stayed lingering between them , it truly warmed her up to know they’re there . it was almost surreal to think that they’ve come so far from where their starting point actually laid and while blair was certain she had sworn off love forever , julian provided a twist to the previously off-putting flavor that the blonde couldn’t possibly get enough of . he was standing there in a completely foreign light that the demontfort could not deny her love for , the thought alone tearing her up even further as julliard meant potentially dimming it . “ is that so ? “ the sudden glimpse of sorrow is replaced by one of playfulness , deciding that she can spin her mind into overdrive later on . “ i would love to take advantage of your skills then , my love . “ she nods , “ might even give you a rating on yelp if you’re as good as you claim to be . “ eyebrows raise up , torso leaning closer to him when she chuckles , teasing him . 

soft smile spreads on his lips as her cheeks turn red , indicating that despite his lack of knowledge his comment still meant something and that was a win to him . “ yeah ? ” he can’t help but let out a quiet laugh , they both knew what they were indicating and yet , he didn’t wanna jump the gun and scare her away . things were going pretty smoothly right now and that was new for them , he kinda like it despite his habit of chaos . he can tell from the look on her face that she’s not telling him everything but he knew from experience that pushing anything out of blair was a bad idea unless you were ready for it . “ yeah , these hands are basically magic . ” smirk turning devious “ nothing you don’t already know though . ” casual reminder that even if things has changed between them , when it came to all things physical things were still the same , maybe even better . “ anything to make you feel better . ” he replies , a chuckle leaving his lips as he leans in “ you already know it . ” hand gently grips her chin as he presses his lips to hers . still not used to just being able to do that but he definitely didn’t mind . “ now would you tell me what’s really wrong ? ”

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blairvdm​:

     his voice alone captures her whole attention and makes her head snap in julian’s direction . unable to control it , a small smile breaks through her sweaty face . not expecting him there was understandable , yet the confused look in her eyes was caused by her inability to understand why he decided to visit . “ yeah .. “ lies quickly , though a sigh follows shortly after and her arm moves away from her face . it was easy to cover your tracks with little lies until the final destination is finally clear , but this was julian .. and while what they had was fresh and brand new , she still felt that little kick in her stomach that prompted her to be transparent with him . “ actually , no . “ shaking her head , she turns to her side , elbow tucked under her weight so she can rest her head on her shoulder . emeralds take in the man while he made himself comfortable on the wooden floor . “ my whole body hurts and i feel almost ancient . “ groaning , other hand moves to brush over her face . “ what are you doing here ? .. wanted to get a private class or something ? “ blonde quips , manicured hand squeezes in a fist and moves to offer the male a little nudge . 

he doesn’t say a word , having a feeling that she’d somehow end up telling him what was wrong at some point . and he knew something was up . with the screaming and all , he was pretty sure that wasn’t a part of dancing . then again what did he really know . he certainly hoped she felt like she could tell him , with everything happening between them he just hoped they could be honest with each other . brows lift as she admits to not being okay and he sits up , scooting a little closer to get her within his reach . legs cross and he leans forward a little . “ you didn’t dance like someone who’s ancient . ” he points out with a careful smile . she probably didn’t care for his uncultured opinion . he lets out a quiet laugh , catching her fist in his hand “ no , i just wanted to check up on you since you know ... ” he shrugs , they hadn’t exactly made anything official yet . “ that’s what i do . ” that’s what boyfriends do .. gaze fall to their hands as he starts opening her fist up . man if he’d told himself just a couple of months ago he’d be here trying to cheer up blair like this because he genuinely was in love with her , he would’ve laughed in his face . “ and regarding your sore body , i’ve been told i’m a pretty good maseuse . ”

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blairvdm​:

        one , two , three .. she counts under her breath . sweat visible along her hairline as blair spins her body in a pirouette once then twice and with a shaky breath , she jumps off her starter leg in a front aerial but right before she could continue , her exhausted body , from the hours spent in the studio , falls on it’s knees and blair lets out a loud groan . ignoring the burning pain in her joints , she falls to her back , long legs lifted up so she can kick the air in pure frustration . “ idiot ! “ she screams to herself , not even noticing the intruder in the room , the music from the speakers helping with the illusion she was alone in the room . with everything going on , it was only dancing that could get her mind off the turmoil in her body , but coming back to the place she called home for many years only seemed to prove her she was a failure . with fury in her system and drive in her veins she jumps on her feet even faster than she fell down , soaring her body on a one-hand front aerial before handsrping-ing to the other end of the room , making it look it’s as easy as breathing . and to an extended and to blair , it was – it’s what she knew her whole life . gymnastics then dancing , it was like a second nature to the blonde . however , the abuse over her body finally takes hold and hands fall to grab her own knees , slouching and panting she couldn’t catch her breath . the months away from the craft did not affect her skills but it definitely took a toll on her stamina . though , despite the screaming pain in her muscles and joints , a broken grin appears on her face . she proves herself she still got it , despite failing and falling – she still did it . and maybe , just maybe she could still have a chance when it came to feelings .. when it came to julian .. and julliard . the remembering of the email she got that morning made her once again shaking legs loose the balance they so gracefully gathered and let her body fall on it’s back . not even recognizing the pain anymore , she only closes her eyes , arm moves to shield her face from the fluorescent lights beaming over her from the ceiling . “ teach those vermins hip-hop blair , the choreo will look good in the club . come on , why practice acro when you get paid for modern ? stupid , stupid , stupid ! “ keeps murmuring to herself . 

he’s never fully witnessed blair in action , most of what he’d seen had been from others doing what she told them to and he knew that was only like 10% of what she could do . well he didn’t know but he felt it . that way they were both passionate about something and had found them stuck here waiting for an opportunity or a sign of some kind . he didn’t know if he was even allowed in the studio , pretty sure she’d flip when she saw him and not in the good way but none the less he’d dared to go there . watching her silently from the door . he didn’t wanna interrupt , he wasn’t even sure he should . it looked to him like she was working through some things . none the less he enters as she falls onto her back , seemingly done . “ hey . ” he lets out a small groan as he sits down on the floor next to her , leaning back on his hands . “ you okay ? ”

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blairvdm​:

          curiosity sparked in her system . “ and you ? “ eyes search for his . if he didn’t want to answer , that was totally okay with her , but truth be told - she wanted to know . to say she was already planning a future with him was far fetched but it didn’t hurt to know that maybe if things worked out , maybe he turns out to be the one that all rom-coms seem to mention – he’d be ready to pack his bags and travel the world with her . “ and you realize it now ? “ she inquires playfully , “ dramatics run genetically in my family . when my first tooth fell out , my dad threw a whole ball about it . “ it was an amazing pr ploy , shedding a light of warmth and togetherness over the demontfort’s . and it would be nice to think the crazy event was thrown because they actually loved their daughter so much , but sadly – it was far from the truth . a little scream escapes when he changes his position all of a sudden , hands moving to intertwine behind his neck for balance . smirking , she allows him to grace her jaw with his lips . once again finding herself dancing a choreography her and julian came up with – their own love language . the compliments were like honey to her blown-out-of-proportion ego . and while she was aware of the things he sweetly whispered to her , coming from him – they made her feel almost god-like . manicured digits find the scalp of his head , tugging on some messy strands of hair while grin shines on her features . “ you really know how to make a girl weak in the knees . “ she purrs out , darkened greens respond to the eye contact with a mischievous glimmer . hands move from his back to his chest , pushing him gently down and positioning herself to hover over him . “ but when have i ever followed the rules ? “ speech was low , seductive . julian knew perfectly well where her buttons were hidden and exactly in what combination to push them . “ i mean come on , “ she lowers herself so her lips can find his neck . “ i got into a fake pr relationship with a guy i barely know , then fucked around and fell in love with his family’s enemy . “ words vibrate over his skin , loving the dominating position she had . “ i even let you poke fun of my favorite jumper , damn .. “ she chuckles , head moving to finally face him . “ and you were sweet enough to move to thai away from the bed . “ eyebrows raise up . “ i think you deserve to be caught naked in my bedroom . “ nods , while eyes flicker from his lips to his eyes . 

he nods slowly as if figuring out in this moment but truth be told he knew exactly what he wanted to do and had known since he graduated college even . he just never went for it . “ yeah . i got some offers from a couple of teams back in college . ” he notes with a slight shrug before continuing with a slight smile “ and to be honest , i think i’m done with the west coast . ” he definitely hadn’t just realized the dramatics than ran in her family , obviously she would’ve gotten it from somewhere . if only julian had shared genetics with his dad’s maybe he would’ve turned out less of a flop . “ you’re your fathers daughter . ” he jokes bracing himself to be clapped right across the cheek for comparing her to her parents in any way , seemed like a sensitive topic . they’d spent quite a lot of time pushing each others buttons , figuring out how to get the other going , what made them tick and they’d gotten pretty good at it . not that it took a genius to figure out that compliments was always a good way to start . he really didn’t even do it to get anywhere with it , it just felt right . it felt like it had to be said and he wanted to , so he did it . “ not to brag , but i’m pretty well versed in blair demontfort . ” he reminds her as he lies down but still keeps himself slightly elevated on his elbows . his eyes remain steadily on her , signature smirk stuck on his lips “ depends what rules you follow . ” he notes , pretty sure she was only ever following her own , if even . he lets out a low chuckle , moving his head slightly to allow her more space “ i am pretty lovable . ” he agrees as humor flits across his features . probably not everyone would agree to that statement . “ i said it was cute . ” he defends himself as he shifts his weight onto one elbow so he can reach out for it with a grin . “ i think so too . ” he agrees as a laugh slips past his lips and his eyes find hers , shining with amusement . “ might be the best decision you’ve ever made . ”

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blairvdm​:

          a dry chuckle falls from her lips . has she ever ? her biggest dream was to travel the world with her a team . the only kids she ever recognized as siblings , despite being handed two biological ones . “ almost every day . “ she splurts out before she even has the possibility of rethinking another answer . truth be told , she already had a real-estate agent on the call in manhattan – all she had to do was gather the courage and make the call . the pinterest boards on her phone were all archived , but they all had the same theme to it — they did not envisioned her life in monterey . and despite her having over thirty titles under her belt and it would take a video and an interview to be accepted to any dance company , she still lacked the spine . her daydream was cut short , a death stare now over his features as her hand moves to actually push his face away . annoyed , “ it was a test ! “ she protests , unable to admit she did in fact insinuate it first . “ all i know is that i couldn’t stand you .. we might be dealing with stockholm syndrome here , my love . “ in all honesty , she could not recall the day she felt that slight spark for the very first time , and the possibility of her falling first was unexpectedly high . but even if it was true , there was no way she would go down without a fight . finding herself genuinely startled , eyebrows go high on her eyebrows . “ are you rejecting me ? “ she shrieks , perfectly shaped items now low on the bridge of her nose . and while she allows him to move her over himself , offering him no resistance , she is quick to fold her arms over her chest . rejection was even more foreign to the heiress , especially when it came from julian . the remark on her attire didn’t help as well , feeling now what shined bright and beautiful for julian and julian only — sheer annoyance and irritation . “ oh , fuck off . “she growls , pushing his hands away from her beloved jumper . it’s been with her through thick and thin . though , she could not hide away the little chuckle that follows . some girls had silky pj’s and while blair had probably too many of those herself , she somehow found the oversized sweatshirt with her old dance company logo on it way more comfortable . “ going camping … “ she repeats mockingly and rolls her eyes .

he doesn’t reply , just kind of makes note of it . who knew , maybe things worked out between them , maybe fate would have it they ended up the same place . it was way too early days but in reality he’d grown accostumed to having blair around , whether they were fighting or actually getting along . in fact most of the people here he’d grown up with and despite not wanting to admit it , it felt absurd to leave what he knew so well . julian loved living the easy life , he’d never have to move a finger himself , he didn’t even know if he knew how to . but that was a topic for another day . “ sure it was . ” he grins , a knowing look on his features , pretty sure lightning had struck them both at the same time . julian just had trouble keeping his mouth shut , so of course he had to blurt it out first . “ you’re so dramatic . ” he tells her in amusement . an amusement that only grows as she reads his words as rejection and decides to ride a wave of annoyance . he simply lets her till he notes the chuckle that she can’t hide . he sits up hands grabbing the back of her thighs , making sure she doesn’t accidentally tumblr off in the process . “ i would be crazy to reject you . ” he laughs and it was far from what he was doing , but he knew how easily she misread him and so he was simply making sure they were on the same paper . “ just don’t wanna get in trouble for making you break your words . ” he teases , lips trailing along her jawline while hands move up her legs , “ i like casual blair . ” he murmured in her ear, his hands roaming over her backside for a moment before slipping under her sweater and up her back , to rub gentle figures against her skin . his eyes find hers as a genuine smile lights up his features . “ you’re beautiful . ” he spoke , hushed , but then a mischiveous grin takes over as he leans in for a kiss “ very sexy ” he adds before dipping his head to the crook of her neck “ kind of intimidating . ” he lets out a laugh , “ intelligent , unfortunately , ” he looks at her as though wanting to know if he should go on .

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blairvdm​:

          “ shut up . “ vibrates onto his lips , while still pressed on each other . who would’ve knew ? definitely not blair . and while the surprise was pleasant and she gladly rendered herself oblivious when it came to the hundreds of questions that popped in her head – they were still there . tugging on her mind and begging her to think them over . eyes meet his right as she feels the touch on her back , making her eyelids heavier and hues darker . annoying voices – discarded . finally , some familiarity in this foreign situation . and while emotionally , they still had plenty to explore -their bodies spoke the same language .. fluently at that . hands move to intertwine behind his neck while they switched positions . “ ah , you’re being cute and all .. but you won’t find it as funny when you find your club burned down . “ she quips . eyes widen in feigned shock , one hand even moves to hover over her mouth . “ admitting a flaw ? .. my goodness , julian , you really do know how to make me swoon . “ she purrs out , same manicured hand now moving to wave some air to her face in her overly dramatic antics , until she’s stopped when his lips once again met her . smile pulling the corners of her lips upwards . “ i know , my love . “ she says softly . the newly found fondness of the male was certainly both unexpected and anticipated . a oxymoron to say the least . but she wouldn’t let it ruin their dynamic . after all , it was what draw blair to him . – the fact that he was indeed her equal in both intelligence and lack of mentioned . that , and their absolutely ridiculous banter at the most inappropriate of times . “ i really do love the fact that you cracked first . “ finger moves to bop the tip of his nose playfully . lips purse in a pout before she moves her elbows to support her torso , elevating herself upwards , closer to him . “ you can be greatly rewarded .. “ she breathes out , hues moving to his lips . “ who knows maybe that was my ploy to get you in bed . “ with a little smirk and humour in her eyes , emeralds again find his brown hues . teeth grind over her lower lip . sure , finally being adults was growth and all but you can always leave it to blair to ruin a wholesome moment . and while she was clearly joking about her confession being an elaborate scam , the mentioned reward was indeed on the table . 

“ or maybe i’d thank you . ” he suggests , the club was really the only thing keeping him tied to monterey at this point . maybe blair if things didn’t crumble and burn before it even really started between them . but he had a feeling she wasn’t too eager about sticking around till the day she died either . " you ever think about leaving this shit hole ? ” he wonders out loud , not that he was proposing something crazy . he just often found himself thinking this town was holding him back and he thought the same for blair too . he rolls his eyes heavily as she starts poking fun at him for admitting he wasn’t perfect . “ in more ways than one . ” he agrees , she stood no chance if he really turned on the charm and while he did wanna make her eat her own words , he also didn’t wanna strip her completely of her pride . he found it kind of attractive after all . “ me ? cracked first ? did you hear yourself ? kiss me like you’re in love . ” he reminds her , dramatically reenacting her words for sheer entertainment . “ think you might’ve known before i did . you don’t have to say it though , i’ll pretend . ” he shoots her a wicked grin before brows raise in curiosity at her words . he certainly did like being rewarded and especially the kind of rewards she was putting on the table . “ you were pretty adamant about no sex , earlier . ” he reminds her before rolling onto his back , pulling her on top of him . he can’t help but laugh a little as he takes another look at her , sweatshirt basically pooling by her thighs . he tugs gently at the hem of it , “ going camping ? ” he jokes , by the size of it , it might as well be a tent .

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blairvdm​:

       with two absolute heartaches and one social circus under her belt , blair was sure she knew how to protect herself and her emotions . she was sure she had the sources needed to detect the possible feelings and eliminate them before she dives too deep . but now , that her lower lip is trapped by her teeth , nibbling on it nervously as she waited for him to do something .  she once again proved she was not capable of following the rules . not even the ones established by herself . her patience is rewarded generously when he takes the steps needed to reach the edge of the bed . a breath she had been holding ever since she heard him say those words was finally let out . relief , that it wasn’t just her mind playing tricks on her . eyes follow him carefully and her lips curl into a smile – obeying quietly without unnecessary hassle , probably for the very first time , she is back on her knees . emeralds now perfectly aligned with the most beautiful shade of brown , by her standards , and she only dares herself to move her attention to his lips to see him say it as well . something that would usually have her running away , with five excuses under her arm and counting was now making her heart flutter . nodding , she slides closer to the man , hands finding his shoulders . “ i’m in love with you too . “ a secret for a secret . but this time she didn’t mind him outing this one . leaning in close , blair presses her lips onto his in a kiss she never imagined was possible with julian . the butterflies she thought were long gone appeared once more and she could swear he tasted different now . “ this better not be a ruse or i swear i’ll build a parking lot over every soccer field in town . “ she drags out , still high on him , once lips stop inspecting his . 

this was without a doubt the weirdest that had ever happened between the two . even if he wasn’t in denial about it anymore it was still so weird . the physical aspect came to no surprise , very easily , he figured the emotional part would follow . least the hardest part was over with . he lets his arms encircle her as she moves closer ever so slightly . everything far from their usual antics and toying each other around . least he hoped she wasn’t just toying with him , making a fool out of him just for shits and giggles . it wasn’t everyday he went around spilling his heart and it most definitely wasn’t just to anyone . he lets out a short laugh , upon her words , almost of disbelief , it sounded so weird coming from her and yet he felt .... content “ who would’ve thought . ” he remarks before their lips meet , unusually tender , unlike any other times they weren’t in a rush . for the moment they knew exactly where they had each other and julian for one was gonna cherish that while it lasted . he was after all an idiot . at least , blair knew . of all people she definitely knew . hands drop lower for a moment before slipping under her shirts and moving back to grab her waist , thumbs lightly tracing over her skin . he lets out a laugh as he coaxes her to lie down on her back “ caught me , it’s all just a ploy to get in your pants . ” he tells her , sarcasm dripping from his words as he moves to hover over her . “ i think you and i both know , i’m not that good . ” he laughs quietly , leaning in to press his lips against hers for a short moment before pulling away slightly . “ jesus blair ... ” he pauses , eyes finding hers , humor glinting in them “ i’m baring my soul here . ”

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blairvdm​:

          she doesn’t even acknowledge the little quip out of his mouth , just kept getting closer and closer . she could feel the heat in her cheeks and just as she was willing to press her lips onto his , the little words traveled to her and her eyes stay frozen on his own hue of brown , widened . she blinks a couple times , not exactly sure if what she heard as in fact it . her face melts down in sudden shock , finding herself gobsmacked and his quick departure from her and the bed only proves she did in fact heard him right . she waited for a second more so the fear can kick in . for her inability to accept the confession too , but it never came , instead her cheeks blush deeply and she stands up on the bed . “ say that again ! “ she requests in a high tone , no fear nor hesitation visible in her voice . finally the question mark was erased from the box and now she was staring at the man she could safely say she was head over heels for . the man that once again proved himself superior by saying out loud the one thing that lingered between them first . “ no .. no , “ spoken softly she even takes a step in his direction , still on the bed as she was afraid she can actually scare him out of the room if she dares go down on the floor . “ no apologies .. just repeat it . “ a smile threatens to stretch the corners of her lips upwards and her own palm moves up to hide the fact . she patiently waited for julian to come to terms with his own little confession , the one she didn’t even knew she wanted to hear until this very moment . 

he felt like a deer caught in headlights , the words had left his lips so easily , he hadn’t even needed to think twice and it caught himself off guard . an almost impossible feat, and yet here he was . he feels a little dumb , like he just broke the rules of how to break that sort of news as if there were rules , what did he know ? he didn’t fully know what sort of reaction he was expecting , part of him thought he’d read her signals right and yet he also thought he’d just been spun around her finger like a fool . as she requests for him to repeat himself he turns around in confusion , had she not heard him the first time ? he could barely come to terms with it himself and now she wanted him to repeat it . “ what ... ” he mumbles , starting to realize that she’d definitely heard him and she even looked pretty happy about it . feeling even more startled than before , slightly overwhelmed too , he steps closer . “ i think ... ” he stops himself . what the hell , he’d already practically said it and he wasn’t the type to not stand by his words . he stops right at the edge of the bed hands reach for her hips , beckoning her back on her knees as a smile plays on his lips , “ i know, i’m in love with you . ” he then says , easily .

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blairvdm​:

          her smile crooks down when he involved his parents in the conversation . the alvarez-montgomery had such a lovely dynamic , so much love radiating from the men . it was obvious they loved each other . and while the blonde would never dare to say it out loud , at least not yet – she envied the example julian  had at home . it must’ve felt nice to be loved and to see how two people should properly love each other . instead of that , all blair knew was how to lie , mend the truth so it can serve a purpose and push people away . “ yeah .. “ she is only able to drag out , only now realising she was too deep in thought and firing julian a stretched fabricated smile that was only able to last a couple seconds on her face . “ that’s nice of you to admit . thank you ! “ she flashed her pearly whites in a teasing grin . eyes follow every little movement of his face , curious to see his reaction . eyebrows raise up as he moves to discard the food , touched by the fact that he remembered her little request . and while feeling his hand traveling up her leg did not help the fastened beating of her heart she shakes her head . swallowing what felt like lump in her throat , she gets up to position herself on her knees before him . “ not like that , my love . “ she says softly , hands offered for him to take so he can position himself like her . “ kiss me like you’re in love . “ eyes pierce his . “ like we’re in the ninth grade and you’ve had the biggest crush on me for the longest time . “ thumb glides over the skin on the back of his hand before she moves it to caress his cheek and lean further . “ just .. pretend for a second . “ it felt like an experiment , testing her own limits to see if she could finally put a label on what she’s been feeling for the longest time . the question mark plastered on that little box in the back of her head kept bothering her and she needed an answer . she did want him , however .. very much , but having him the way both of them were used to at this point couldn’t help with blair’s need to figure out what was hiding underneath the layers of self-deception . 

julian didn’t really know what to make of the demontforts , he knew they were dysfunctional as hell . blair rarely talked about them unless it was shit and that was basically all he had to know . surely he could read all about them in the tabloids but he knew they perfected lying and manipulation , so how much of what you read could you really believe ? blair’s reaction to his words said enough though . that what he’d grown up with was far from reality for her . he lets it go though , adding further onto it would probably just be like punching her in the gut and that’s not exactly his intention . he rolls his eyes at her words “ i already did apologize . ” he reminds her , and it was a pretty good apology if he had to say so himself . he watches as she moves , potitioning herself on her knees in front of him , he’s visibly confused and a small laugh leaves his lips at her proposition , certain that she’s joking right now . he doesn’t follow suit , although he does sit up . his thoughts a jumbled mess like he wasn’t sure what he was about to get himself into . while he’d been pretty certain just moments ago . “ seems illegal . ” he just jokes , unable to imagine himself anywhere near ninth grade although he probably peaked back then . he runs a hand through his hair . when things really got serious he always seemed to lose his nerve and coming to the conclusion that things weren’t worth it . fact of the matter was , it wouldn’t be hard to kiss her like he was in love and that shit truly meant something . that wasn’t just something he could get out of . “ i don’t think i have to pretend . ” he says , words leaving his mouth before he can do anything to stop them . as realization hits , he quickly moves off the bed , taking a couple of steps away as he suck in a deep breath . “ sorry . i ... ” he find himself struggling to explain “ don’t know where that came from . ”