Suffering

[She/her] [20] [Arts of all forms] [Imprecise grief] [Random quotes] [Feminism]

[hum-suffer]

Introduction:

I write and I recite.

You can call me by the pen name I never use, i.e., Shuchi.

My personality consists of Hindu history, poems, dark jokes and stories. Deep thoughts come to me at the wrong times and I suffer daily as a result.

Demonstration of my personality:

Mahabharat:

Abhimanyu loved palash flowers.

It's a farce

It's a lie, between you and I.

Devout

The death of us.

Three clues of falling

Painting (Nakul)

Brothers (Nakul)

Poems:

उसको कॉफी पसंद नहीं

फ़साना

पलकें

My eyes

लकीर

A healing kiss

Kabhi socha hai tumne?

Kuch aise pyaar kijiyega humein

Kumkum

Breathe.

My wrathful god

एक पत्र लिखु

श्याम रंग

जान-ए-ग़ज़ल

Dogs

खूबसूरती

Patne ko taiyaar hu, patane wala chahiye

Fics:

How will my story end?

The brothers Black

Gauri Bhairav aesthetics (and story links) (Twin of Bahubali fic)

Honour (Derek D'Souza)

The Predator's Nightfall (Rehman Dakait)

Ni Main Vaari Jaavan (Mera Sohna Hathiyaar) (Jaskirat Singh Rangi)

Jaime and Addam

Ishman fic

Prongsfoot 1

Others:

Rambheem rant

Terrace inspired song vibes examination of friends

Two understanding daughters

Movie comments: 3 a.m.

My obsession with Rockstar

Noor

Insha ji ka chaand, mera aaftaab

Wattpad comments

Watching supernatural

Instagram: hum-sufferr

Sincerely, the girl who definitely failed to be the girl next door.

[hum-suffer]

Season 1, Epsiode 2 of SPN:

Dean absolutely already has a chip on his shoulder about keeping his little brother safe. It's very very visible when he immediately understand the victim's elder sister's urge to find her own brother. Especially when Sam thinks she can be turned away but Dean KNOWS come hell or heaven, no sibling would leave their sibling alone in danger. At least, he wouldn't.

[hum-suffer]

S1E4

Dean looked so proud of his little EMF 😭😭😭 and Sam just went "....ew cheap" 😭😭😭 help

They know this flight is about to crash and their solution is to get on the plane????? When one of them is deathly afraid of flying and the other is currently emotionally unstable!???? ARE YOU TWO MAD?

Sam's lack of faith in Dean's knowledge of Latin is even more hilarious when you realise that Sam is the one who had a break from hunting for years 😭😭

[hum-suffer]

Supernatural is pretty fucked up because what the fuck do you mean I just saw a creature steal Dean's identity, invade his mind and memories, try to manipulate Sam, try to coerce and kill a girl, frame Dean for it, then change his goddamn appearance by MELTING HIS SKIN!!!!!! WHAT!!!!!

And Dean deflects the fucking horror by saying something about how he's mad the creature took his CAR?!

Baby boy, you need therapy. And a hug.

(also I love the fact that Sam knew immediately that it wasn't Dean wldkwkdkskskakls feeding my sibling dynamic brain)

[hum-suffer]

Dean doesn't understand why Sam hates John so much because:

1. He remembers John as a good dad and thus thinks that good dad is still buried somewhere under the disappearing act. (He's WRONG i can feel it)

2. He still resents Sam for abandoning him with John and he still thinks John was only ever proud of Sam because John only ever talked about Sam to other people, especially in front of Dean. (Re: Season 1, episode Phantom Traveller, the dude that contacts them says John always talked about Sam and was extremely proud of him)

3. Dean idolized his father and understood that going against John would only result in more and more conflict and wanted to avoid fights and in doing that, he made himself in the image of his father— the exact one that Sam resents.

4. Dean knows that John preferred Sam. Smarter, kinder, more capable Sam, who wanted to make something out of his shitty life. He knows John visited Stanford. He knows John wouldn't have done the same for him.

5. Dean tried to contact Sam and Sam never came back, choosing to remain angry on both, Dean and John. It hurt.

6. Because John didn't raise Sam. Dean was Sam's dad. And when Sam left them because of John, he didn't come back for Dean. Because when Dean says Sam shouldn't teach the kid to disrespect and abandon his father, he's talking about himself and Sam, not John and Sam.

And ALSO, Sam is completely right in hating John and he's literally so much better adjusted than Dean, recognising the way John treated them was borderline abuse while Dean normalises it and rationalises it, it absolutely breaks his heart to know that Dean still can't be anything but Dad's Soldier ™. Sam dreamed a better life for himself BECAUSE Dean taught him to live his life in the best way possible. Just, he wishes Dean would understand that his and Sam's definition of "best" varies.

[hum-suffer]

Why did no one tell me how cute Hoodie Dean™ and how absolutely adorable Puppy Eyes Sam™ are 😭😭😭

Dean, implies he has emotions:

Sam: GO KYLIE GO IM SO PROUD OF YOU 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻✨✨✨🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️✌🏻✌🏻😤😤🤧💃🏻💃🏻

I love the fact that they don't even have to say anything to understand each other and yet when they use words they misunderstand eachother

[hum-suffer]

Season 1, Epsiode 2 of SPN:

Dean absolutely already has a chip on his shoulder about keeping his little brother safe. It's very very visible when he immediately understand the victim's elder sister's urge to find her own brother. Especially when Sam thinks she can be turned away but Dean KNOWS come hell or heaven, no sibling would leave their sibling alone in danger. At least, he wouldn't.

[hum-suffer]

S1E4

Dean looked so proud of his little EMF 😭😭😭 and Sam just went "....ew cheap" 😭😭😭 help

They know this flight is about to crash and their solution is to get on the plane????? When one of them is deathly afraid of flying and the other is currently emotionally unstable!???? ARE YOU TWO MAD?

Sam's lack of faith in Dean's knowledge of Latin is even more hilarious when you realise that Sam is the one who had a break from hunting for years 😭😭

[hum-suffer]

Supernatural is pretty fucked up because what the fuck do you mean I just saw a creature steal Dean's identity, invade his mind and memories, try to manipulate Sam, try to coerce and kill a girl, frame Dean for it, then change his goddamn appearance by MELTING HIS SKIN!!!!!! WHAT!!!!!

And Dean deflects the fucking horror by saying something about how he's mad the creature took his CAR?!

Baby boy, you need therapy. And a hug.

(also I love the fact that Sam knew immediately that it wasn't Dean wldkwkdkskskakls feeding my sibling dynamic brain)

[hum-suffer]

Dean doesn't understand why Sam hates John so much because:

1. He remembers John as a good dad and thus thinks that good dad is still buried somewhere under the disappearing act. (He's WRONG i can feel it)

2. He still resents Sam for abandoning him with John and he still thinks John was only ever proud of Sam because John only ever talked about Sam to other people, especially in front of Dean. (Re: Season 1, episode Phantom Traveller, the dude that contacts them says John always talked about Sam and was extremely proud of him)

3. Dean idolized his father and understood that going against John would only result in more and more conflict and wanted to avoid fights and in doing that, he made himself in the image of his father— the exact one that Sam resents.

4. Dean knows that John preferred Sam. Smarter, kinder, more capable Sam, who wanted to make something out of his shitty life. He knows John visited Stanford. He knows John wouldn't have done the same for him.

5. Dean tried to contact Sam and Sam never came back, choosing to remain angry on both, Dean and John. It hurt.

6. Because John didn't raise Sam. Dean was Sam's dad. And when Sam left them because of John, he didn't come back for Dean. Because when Dean says Sam shouldn't teach the kid to disrespect and abandon his father, he's talking about himself and Sam, not John and Sam.

And ALSO, Sam is completely right in hating John and he's literally so much better adjusted than Dean, recognising the way John treated them was borderline abuse while Dean normalises it and rationalises it, it absolutely breaks his heart to know that Dean still can't be anything but Dad's Soldier ™. Sam dreamed a better life for himself BECAUSE Dean taught him to live his life in the best way possible. Just, he wishes Dean would understand that his and Sam's definition of "best" varies.

[hum-suffer]

Season 1, Epsiode 2 of SPN:

Dean absolutely already has a chip on his shoulder about keeping his little brother safe. It's very very visible when he immediately understand the victim's elder sister's urge to find her own brother. Especially when Sam thinks she can be turned away but Dean KNOWS come hell or heaven, no sibling would leave their sibling alone in danger. At least, he wouldn't.

[hum-suffer]

S1E4

Dean looked so proud of his little EMF 😭😭😭 and Sam just went "....ew cheap" 😭😭😭 help

They know this flight is about to crash and their solution is to get on the plane????? When one of them is deathly afraid of flying and the other is currently emotionally unstable!???? ARE YOU TWO MAD?

Sam's lack of faith in Dean's knowledge of Latin is even more hilarious when you realise that Sam is the one who had a break from hunting for years 😭😭

[hum-suffer]

Supernatural is pretty fucked up because what the fuck do you mean I just saw a creature steal Dean's identity, invade his mind and memories, try to manipulate Sam, try to coerce and kill a girl, frame Dean for it, then change his goddamn appearance by MELTING HIS SKIN!!!!!! WHAT!!!!!

And Dean deflects the fucking horror by saying something about how he's mad the creature took his CAR?!

Baby boy, you need therapy. And a hug.

(also I love the fact that Sam knew immediately that it wasn't Dean wldkwkdkskskakls feeding my sibling dynamic brain)

[hum-suffer]

Kal raat mere sheher mein tez hawa aur baarish thi.

Fir bhi, mujhe dekh ke ya mere baare mein soch ke kisi ke background mein ye gaana nahi baja

[hum-suffer]

Bbg your writing and fics are soo good! Are you on wattpad??

...I am...but I'm pretty sure all my Wattpad readers are going to come after me with stakes so....

[hum-suffer]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 (or more) people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out <3

Akdkwkkdksks omg 😭😭 thank you so much I absolutely love you 😭😭😭😭

[hamzakamehroomkurta]

𝔅𝔶𝔬𝔪𝔨𝔢𝔰𝔥 𝔅𝔞𝔨𝔰𝔥𝔦 ℌ𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔠𝔞𝔫𝔬𝔫𝔰

(I'm not experienced at all, so i apologize for any mistakes,etc. Take this with a grain of salt and a glass of thanda aam r juice xoxo)

𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽 1

♤intellectual, loves riddles, solves cases like it's the next easiest thing, daaba/chess champion

♤intentionally leaves the first two buttons of his saada farshi kameez open, so that you can play with him later👅

♤khopa te golap guje deowa, loves owning you, dom, loves leaving you w bruises from last night,(my man's genuinely freakyy) loves seeing u yearn under him, tumul eye contact, doesn't wanna wear thick glasses, but wears them when you want him to see u in just gamcha and bheja chul.

♤loves eating you out, knowing no one can do it the way he does(he says years of gache uthe aam parar experience helps), sometimes vanilla, pins you to the lazarus khaat, gently unfurling the moshari as its woven threaded tapestry falls to the floor

♤His daaknaam for you is Satya(my truth), as he calls himself Satyanweshi(truth-seeker)

♤gramaphone paglu. Loves buying you ur favorite records and plays them as yall get freaky, so that ajit doesn't hear(he does😭)

♤chaand er raate chaad e giye golpo gujob, shares case details, looks at you as if the moon's reflection from ur iris is all that he needs to see. When asked, he says, 'amar chaand amar chokhusomokkhe thakle, akash er ta toh boyei gelo'~

♤bhor sokal yawns, as he wakes up and notices u sleeping, he whispers 'subho sokal satya' and leaves, but not without waking u up 5 mins later with ur fav Darjeeling cha and a rather long makeout sesh disguised as a 'missed you sara raat'(as if yall didnt do each other sara raat)

♤wears dhuti and golden pocket watch, a gift that u gave him, everyday without fail. When he goes out to solve cases, especially when he needs some extra courage, he holds onto that pocket watch tightly, as if gaining shokti from his Shakti.

♤he loves when u sing his favorite songs, and hold his biceps tightly during pujo pandel crowds, but will never say that. Gotta keep up the Satyanweshi image in front of others, but he is always the no 1 boupagluuu

tagsss:

@catharsis-9 @rosesandpeoniesthings @sparksfromhell @yearnerray @gloriouspurpose01

[according2thelore]

dean who pretends to be gluttonous to hide the fact there’s an endless black hole in his center that can’t desire anything and sam who pretends to be self-restrained and ascetic to hide the fact he has an endless black hole in his center that craves and craves and craves ✨

[hum-suffer]

Season 1, Epsiode 2 of SPN:

Dean absolutely already has a chip on his shoulder about keeping his little brother safe. It's very very visible when he immediately understand the victim's elder sister's urge to find her own brother. Especially when Sam thinks she can be turned away but Dean KNOWS come hell or heaven, no sibling would leave their sibling alone in danger. At least, he wouldn't.

[hum-suffer]

S1E4

Dean looked so proud of his little EMF 😭😭😭 and Sam just went "....ew cheap" 😭😭😭 help

They know this flight is about to crash and their solution is to get on the plane????? When one of them is deathly afraid of flying and the other is currently emotionally unstable!???? ARE YOU TWO MAD?

Sam's lack of faith in Dean's knowledge of Latin is even more hilarious when you realise that Sam is the one who had a break from hunting for years 😭😭

[hum-suffer]

Season 1, Epsiode 2 of SPN:

Dean absolutely already has a chip on his shoulder about keeping his little brother safe. It's very very visible when he immediately understand the victim's elder sister's urge to find her own brother. Especially when Sam thinks she can be turned away but Dean KNOWS come hell or heaven, no sibling would leave their sibling alone in danger. At least, he wouldn't.

[hum-suffer]

To honor pride month, im gonna watch the biggest bisexual idiot of our century: Dean Winchester and his tired but supportive and slightly fruity brother: Sam Winchester and their non label Angel™ Castiel.

I'm watching supernatural, people 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻

[hum-suffer]

Bhai log sabko pride month ki bohot bohot badhaiya 🙏🏻 phulo phalo aur chutiye logo se dur raho, tathastu

[livingtheparadoxlife]

Aise logon se dur kaise rahe? Tips? 🥺 Jaha jati hoon mil jaate hai.

[hum-suffer]

Mujhe bhi mil jate hai behen 😔😔😔😔 the only tip I have is; before getting emotionally attached, get to know what their political and societal opinions are. They tell a lot of people 🙂‍↕️ (I wrote feminism in my Tumblr bio to keep incel men away, for example)

[hum-suffer]

Bhai log sabko pride month ki bohot bohot badhaiya 🙏🏻 phulo phalo aur chutiye logo se dur raho, tathastu

[luminote]

I remember it all and it makes me want to die.

[hum-suffer]

Tum log ka pata ni but bearded shubhman looks like a hear me out idk man

[hum-suffer]

Match dekh ke maja aa raha hai 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻