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I love you, Cam...

#mission: accomplished #;)#cameronharris

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No I haven’t. Knowing Savannah, she’d try to convince me that I wasn’t a hazard to her. Which I am. My life is living proof to that. Sav might be able to move past things, but I can’t. I hurt people Ethan. Hell, I even hurt you without even wanting to. I’m… you should go back to hating me. It’s best for you, cause.. those that care about me seem to be caught in the crossfire. I… don’t want to hurt you again.

huntingethan

You're not a hazard, you're her sister. Stop acting like you're Satan or the plague. You can turn your life around and let go of the mistakes you made! Exactly, you didn't want to. So you can't blame yourself for things that aren't your fault. Stop being so damn stubborn, Cam! I don't hate you, I never hated you and I'll never hate you! So just...accept it and shut up.

#ignore Savannah lol #cameronharris

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I’m more than willing, but I’m just scared of screwing up again… I saved my sister. I would never let them kill Sav. Over my dead body. I turned my back on her, to be able to keep her safe. Which backfired. But there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to keep Savannah out of harms way and she might have a bigger shot without me in her life. Yo-… Ethan stop. You shouldn’t be saying things like that…You shouldn’t love me. I’m… I’m n- .. you just shouldn’t.

huntingethan

You won't screw up. And if you do...you'll apologize and try to do better. That's how life works. Have you tried telling her that? I'm sure she's more than willing to move past all you two have been through. No, don't tell me to stop. Because I won't. I spent two years pretending I hated you to make things easier for me. But the truth us, I've loved you from the moment I saw you, Cameron. I knew I was meant to be with you. I just have to wait until you realize it too. And trust me, I'm more than willing to wait for as long as it takes. You're more than your mistakes.

#cameronharris

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It was a rash decision okay? I just… I didn’t know what to do, or where to go… I tried not hurting them, and yet it happened. Time and time again. I just jumped into it, and once I was in, there was no turning back. When I made the choice, my sister hated me, my best friend wasn’t talking to me, Alex… he was completely ignoring that I even existed. I was lost, Ethan. And when the Pure thing came along, I just.. went for it.. I don’t want to fail those people every moment, Ethan.. I can’t handle that.

….How would you help me?

huntingethan

I know... I really do, Cam. But none of it matters if you're willing to make up to them. You saved your sister from death. That's more than most would ever done. All that you did in the past...it doesn't matter anymore. You're still you. The same smart, kind, beautiful girl I met two years ago. You just need to see it too again. And that's how I'll help you. I'll remind you of how great you are. And how much I love you for being you.

#cameronharris

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Not if I keep doing the wrong thing over and over again. I just.. don’t want to take the chance to hurt them again. I thought joining the Pures would give me… distance. I mean, if I hurt people I love, why no join an organisation that hurts them. Just go with what apparently is my destiny.. but that didn’t work out. Seems I just don’t belong anywhere…

You… wait, you joined the Pures because of me and Alex? You mean when you fell off the grid, that’s where you went? Because of us?… I.. I knew you were pissed Ethan, but.. that’s..

huntingethan

So instead of finding a way not to hurt them, you joined a group that could teach you ow to hurt them even more? That's...stupid. And I'm sure they would rather have you the way it was before than not at all. Hey, don't say that... You do belong somewhere. You belong with the people who love you no matter how much you screw up.

It was a stupid choice, I know. I wasn't thinking. I was pissed, I needed to blow off some steam and they took me in. Back then I hated everyone around me. So trust me, I get what you're going through right now. But believe me when I say there's a way out of it. I could help you...If you let me.

#cameronharris

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Did you ever near kill your own mother? Attempted to kill your best friend? Hurt you sister to a point of emotional wreckage? And many more? Oh, let me word that differently. Have you ever been toxic to the people you love? Story of my life…

You left? I- I don’t know what to say… I never asked you why you joined them in the first place, but… I’m glad you left. What happened was an eye opener for me.. I can’t be part of a group that’ll hurt my sister more than I do..

huntingethan

No...I never did any of those things. In fact...I never even killed anyone. I couldn't... But the fact that you know you did wrong and regret it must count for something, right?

Yeah... I just...I was pissed back then, Cam. I felt lost and confused. And they took me in and filled my head with all sorts of bad stuff about you, the gifted people. But I couldn't bring myself to hurt someone else. It wasn't them I thought I hated. It was you and Alex.

#cameronharris