adorable, right?

Callie. 20. she/her. I make edits and write fic. my ao3.

[huphilpuffs]

Do you think you’ll write anymore chapters for flares?

answering this at 7am cause I still haven’t slept and remembered tumblr exists.

short answer: yes, eventually.

long answer: yes, eventually. I’m currently dealing with a pretty significant flare (pun not intended) of my own fibro that has left me pretty much bed bound, unable to sit up for extended periods, and needing to nap after just about everything. so, honestly, besides guilt at the fact that I haven’t been publishing much, flares hasn’t really been my priority. I’d really hoped that getting out of school early was gonna let me write more, but my body decided to fuck that plan. so uh. I really want to. 100% intend to. but I have no capacity to promise it’ll be any time soon. I hope my readers can understand 💛

[huphilpuffs]

callie!!! hi angel how have you been?

hi!!! i’ve been, um, surviving. i’m still in quarantine in my hometown. my health crashed pretty bad. my orthostatic intolerance has been terrible. I’ve broken my “highest heart rate ever” record MANY times in the last few weeks (record currently sits at 191). generally speaking pain and fatigue and stuff is much worse and i’ve never hated stairs more in my life. but my family is safe rn, so that’s good. i’ve been burying myself in animal crossing (currently embarking on crazy week-long renos lol) and uhhh that’s p much it. how are you guys holding up?

[onebadghost]

tshirt that reads "I went to the doctor and all they tested was my patience"

[ilovedirt]

this post is aging well

[huphilpuffs]

just had to pull out my wrist & braces. i haven’t had to use both since my transition into uni so uhhh as you can tell my health is doing great. a+ to my body on handling this pandemic.

[utopians]

after a thorough medical assessment, the doctors have described me as ‘a lot. just like a lot to deal with’

[huphilpuffs]

hey callie how are u!!

hi anon!! I’m uhhhh surviving. super struggling with school atm with everything going on. my health took a serious downturn too with stress and moving and losing access to physio and massage :(( but I’ve been burying myself with animal crossing and having fun!! currently planning island design with my sister

[huphilpuffs]

i’m about to go to bed but i’ve been playing animal crossing since it launched and if anyone wants to be friends send me your friend code (preferably off anon so i know who you are) and i’ll send requests when i wake up! 

ps if you have pears i’ll love you forever and will trade literally any other fruit

[huphilpuffs]

i need a hug. or like. a hundred hugs. but gentle ones because my fibro is bad rn. but hugs. because life fucking sucks rn.

[laughingatmynightmare]

URGENT. PLEASE READ.

My emotions surrounding the following announcement are complicated. I’m nervous for the ever-increasing severity of the current pandemic, but also grateful to be in a position to help. I’m excited, because we’ve developed a program that I believe will help a lot of people who are struggling right now, and I’m optimistically hopeful that many of you will join me to amplify our impact.

Here’s what’s up: My charity, Laughing At My Nightmare, Inc., is beyond pleased to unveil a brand new program that we have created to help the disability community during this time of uncertainty, isolation, and fear. Before I explain this simple program, please know that for the first time in our company history, we are opening up applications to individuals with ANY disability/diagnosis/chronic illness. Supporting the muscular dystrophy community is still at the heart of our services, but our board of directors felt that this specific program should be open to people with ALL disabilities.

The program is called COVID-19 Resource Relief, and it’s a way for people living with a disability to apply for a $100 Visa Gift Card to help with purchasing essential items during these difficult times. The simple application is now available at the link below, and if you’re approved, the gift card will be mailed directly to your home.

To kick off this program, Hannah and I have donated $2,000 to fund the first 20 applications. We have heard from so many of you how the quarantines and social distancing requirements have drastically affected your financial situation, and we want to use our platform to help. Our hope is that all of you who are able will consider donating $1 to $10 to help us fund 30, 40, 50+ more urgent applications. The link to donate is also below. Please consider joining us in supporting this vital program.

For many of us who live with a disability, quarantine is not a choice, but a necessity for survival. I highly encourage anyone with a disability who is in need of essential items to apply today.

Again, if you are reading this and you’re able to donate a dollar or two, your gift will help us fund MANY more applications.

Apply or donate here: https://www.laughingatmynightmare.com/covid

[youngchronicpain]

Please donate if you can (and share if you can’t). I think it is very important to support our community in this difficult and scary time. ❤️

[huphilpuffs]

anyone have tips for functioning rn? i have schoolwork to do but everything is so overwhelming that my brain just can’t close read frankenstein or write about being sick but like. I have to.

[huphilpuffs]

you guys have an hour to vote for which flares timestamp you want

[huphilpuffs]

4 flares :D

4. what’s your favourite line of dialogue?

fair warning this is a 110k word fic so I didn’t go through the whole thing but off the top of my head I really like:

“I don’t want to die,” he blurts.

Phil squeezes his whole body, pulling him even closer. “I know.”

“But you don’t,” says Dan. “You– I didn’t used to care and now I do and it sucks because I’m terrified and I don’t know how to fix it except to wait.”

talk to me about fic to distract from the pandemic

[huphilpuffs]

5 & 14 Flares

I just answered 5 about flares!

14. is there anything you want readers to learn from reading this fic?

for able-bodied/healthy readers, I hope it teaches them a bit about how chronic illness and chronic pain can present itself, how it can impact every single aspect of day to day life, and perhaps have some better idea of how to help and support those of us who live with it.

for my fellow chronically ill people, I just hope they feel like I’m doing the experience some level of justice and that, if they need the reminder, it shows them that they’re not alone.

talk to me about fic to distract from the pandemic

[huphilpuffs]

5, 11 for flares and 3 for santa pally

3. what’s your favourite line of narration?

“Maybe he should just print out one of Dan’s ads and frame it, call it a decoration for his loo. It would probably match the rest of his flat. 

Okay. Maybe not.”

idk. i tried to be funny i guess.

5. what part was hardest to write?

hm it’s probably between the parts with doctors, and the current plot of dan trying to figure out how to tell his mom. both of them relate back to my own experience with doctors and how it shaped my concept of myself and my body, so drawing upon that is difficult. 

11. this fluctuates but i generally feel like it does a pretty good job of representing chronic pain, its pervasiveness and impact on day to day life. writing it, i wanted to be very careful to not treat dan’s pain like a plot point that only acted up when it was convenient, and that wasn’t only triggered by the same three things, and i think i did a good job of that.

talk to me about fic to distract from the pandemic

[huphilpuffs]

9 flares

9. were there any alternative versions of this fic?

yes!! there were a few actually. I was originally gonna make flares a 2009 au where most things were the same but dan had fibro when they met which contributed to his youtube obsession. then I started a version set in 2017 where dan developed fibro gradually, where it would be more about adjusting within an established relationship. then I started one set in like 2012, with the same general idea. and then I started the version of flares that got published, and it flowed the best and had the most fun ideas to explore, so I went with that!!

talk to me about fic to distract from the pandemic

[annaxbolina]

Reblog if you are a fanfiction author and would like your readers to put one of your fic titles in your ask + questions about it

[ghostcat3000]

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

2: What scene did you first put down?

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

5: What part was hardest to write?

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

7: Where did the title come from?

8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?

10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?

11: What do you like best about this fic?

12: What do you like least about this fic?

13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?

14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

I always wind up reblogging these at midnight on a sunday when there’s maybe like, two people I know online but yeah, why not? I just ate an orange and I’m about to force myself to drink a glass of water so humor me and my boredom and my silliness.

[amazingspidermans]

everyone do me a favor and rb with where you live and if you’re getting school/work off bc of coronavirus