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if you dont love me, say it. i can take it. you already own my whole heart as it is.

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It hurts because after everything they did to me you still love them more

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Why does this shit hurt so bad

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Everyone is getting to move on in the next chapter of their life together and I honestly think they're all going to forget about me and I'm so fucking useless why they even held contact in the first place is a mystery what the fucking point

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Honest to god believe everyone would be better off without me

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After all that, how do you just move on

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still in disbelief

it hurts me so much to know before you left you had to tell someone our personal business “our ” more like my personal business see if you would’ve kept your mouth shut and not said anything then I wouldn’t have known a thing but nope you had to proudly announce it to the group oh how my heart sank and I felt all the fury , hurt and resent all at once but I still am hurt by what you did I have a question for you and that is why did you do it ??  you thought I was kidding when I told you I was mad the answer was  nope I wasn’t kidding if anything it reminded me not trust you  again

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After everything I did for them they still don’t fucking care

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I rlly wanna gut myself, my organ don't feel like they belong in me anymore. My heart is like an alien in the cavity that was once my chest. My lungs are two burlap sacks that scratch for an escape with each breath. My body is a fucking prison filled with wrongness and I need to fucking purge myself

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After everything I did for them they still don't fucking care

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I gave them everything I could and they used me for the tool I was and now that I'm broken they don't care abt me anymore...what the fuck?

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Just throw me in a pit and set me on fire at this point thanks

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breaking up with friends is so much harder than breaking up with significant others just an fyi. it’s way more personal and usually you’ve known each other longer and sometimes more deeply and it destroys your trust on such a microscopic level. 

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ppl that shame other’s for blocking and unfollowing ppl are the most toxic. If it hurts someone to see something daily such as an ex moving on when they’re not coping as quickly, or friends branching out, then they’re allowed to unfollow them until theyre in a mental state to actually see that and not get effected. But our society has this stigma today that by blocking or unfollowing ppl you’re being the lesser person and deserve to be shit on simply bc you’re being ‘selfish’ and not putting up with other’s bullshit and hurting urself more. 

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Just cried for 20 minutes straight and I don't feel any better or any worse than I did before hand.

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U think I'm being edgy and joking when I say this and I know it's rlly pathetic but Good Mythical Morning is the only reason I haven't killed myself within this last month. Like Rhett and link have given me enough reason to wake up every morning.

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I know I should post this bc of how personal it is but this is just a tip for yall. It's good to make a list, and to set a number that you want to see on that list. I chose thirteen bc of 13rw and I needed 13 rw not to go through with it. No matter what number you give yourself no one can judge you for how hard it is to obtain it and no one can judge you for what you choose. This is my list. Make one if u need to.