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I’ll just leave this here e.e

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/15 Fandom: Final Fantasy XIV Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Warrior of Light/Estinien Wyrmblood Characters: Estinien Wyrmblood, Ser Alberic, Warrior of Light (Final Fantasy XIV), Aymeric de Borel Additional Tags: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Drama, Adventure, Self-Acceptance, self-actualization Summary:

Before the Warrior of Light there was only Amoret Mewrilah, a renowned thaumaturge, adventurer and solitary hunter treading a road of uncertainty. Plagued by the Echo and wary of the Scions’ intentions, the renowned adventurer attempts to return to a simple life of her own making. However, a quest into the icy and unforgiving lands of Coerthas to apprehend a thief, vault her back onto a hero’s dangerous road. Will she accept her fate as Hydaelyn’s Chosen? And what of this Ishgardian thief?

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Vitala

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Absolutely adore this piece of my assassination rogue, & I think I’m going to put it over my computer. 🖤🖤🖤

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THIS is what I deal with. Jynxie was such a good girl and loved being brushed. But now I’m stuck with this little delinquent. 😑❤️

He’s lucky I love him.

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Last post about her, I promise...

Today I’ll be putting my baby to rest @ 4:30pm. I’m doing this ahead of time because I know how I deal w/ grief and this will never get done because I’ll be avoiding feels like the plague. So here goes:

Eleven years ago, my mom and I went to our favorite feed store in Santa Rosa. My bengal cat Otto had gone missing a month or so before, so my family was putting in money to help me purchase another of his breed. But while I was wandering the store, I came across two kittens that were up for adoption. Out of the two, one of them hurried forward and started chirping, clearly wanting to be taken out of the cage and played with. Her pretty colors and big green eyes immediately charmed me alongside that very outgoing personality. So right away I knew I needed to take her home.

Jynxie was the sweetest female cat I’ve ever had. She felt glued to my hip! She was also the first cat I’ve ever had that enjoyed “talking”. I couldn’t make eye contact with her without her immediately meowing. I’d make dumb sounds back and she’d follow it up with much cuter sounds.

When I moved away from home, I chose to stay with a family member that I never got on well with just so I could keep her while I was going to college. For four years she rode with me back and forth from college to my parents place for the holidays. On a student’s salary I could never afford back then to go anywhere or even purchase a car, so I was nearly always at home. But with her I was never lonely. I always had someone and I was so happy to care for her.

She got sick in Oct 2018. Suddenly a creature that ADORED food and had always been round suddenly did not want to eat and began to lose weight. Somehow I always knew cancer would take her from me. All of our cats passed of old age and so it feels cruel that she’s being taken away so young by something so painful.

I could just ramble but what I mean to say is I will always love Jynx and I will NEVER purchase a cat. Instead I’ll adopt in her name. There are so many animals in shelters that need homes and maybe they don’t fit your aesthetic but PLEASE. Adopt. It’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

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Galunir & Vitala

By: yagihikaru

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“Double, double toil and trouble; Fire burn and cauldron bubble.”

Thank you so much Shunkaku for the wonderful work of Amaranthe in her costume–just in time for Halloween! 🌙🎃🍂

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Amaranthe

draconeusmuses

Regarding the current Rosedawn shit

Yeah, turns out Naz was a Nazi the whole time, and lied to her guild members about it. After an entire day of being called a Nazi, and then finding that out, decided I was done with her. I’ll still be around, and I’d still stand by my defenses of Centari (who was equally blind-sided by the screenshots that were sent to him ahead of time, and was then a beautiful enough soul to share with us) which gives me the opportunity to apologize and clear the air before it goes up later.

(I was the second to leave tonight after the mentioned lost officer over a Scion’s blacklist)

I made the mistake of defending someone who was nice to me, and thinking that just because someone is kind to you (to your face at least) that they have no ill will towards you. I didn’t speak to Myro much, and thus was under the impression that many of the issues arising regarding it could have been cultural misunderstanding, and something I could clear up after his hand had healed WITH him. And honestly, for the most part, other members of the guild were willing to take Naz’s word at face value, and my only reason I can present is that I believed that she had no reason to lie.

A lot of us thought Myro was just kinda wacky, and I thought shit would probably subside on that front when Naz took control of the guild, not realizing she was just as bad. A big thing is that the types of people she detests are types of people that a lot of us in her guild were, so I’m unsure of her end-game.

I guess ultimately what kept me in was the idea that we WERE an antagonist guild (with the irony that I was playing a stupid kid who was just kind of naive and along for the ride) and felt that most of what was presented to me (specifically the wheel thing that is a neo-nazi symbol which I even consented the point that it was weird and meant to look into it at my earliest ability to do so) I was able to write off as conjecture for either cultural confusion, or the above antagonist purpose. It was a militant-nationalist-Sin’Dorei guild, which frankly based on the lore SEEMS like the type of shit that would pop up. Thus, the suspiciously (in hindsight where it’s all 20/20) worded ads to me looked like something that made sense for the lore of what they were doing, and formed some type of stupid coincidence.

For all that, I’m really sorry. I was bull-headed, stubborn, and did what a lot of people would have done in similar (not the same because I really f’d up on the nazi component of it, but similar) situations where you take a side with the people you know over strangers who have hurt your friends.

I’ve only spoken to a few people regarding this, and made the brash threat to report folks (the people I threatened to report I never actually did, the only people I ever reported were people who called ME a Nazi directly, personally, over whispers; of which there was a large number of the last couple of days) for which I was an idiot and am also sorry.

There’s a blog I can’t tag that’s named buttart that I need to apologize to, at least for the parts of not listening to you when it came to Myro, and rest assured I didn’t report or do anything to your accounts. It had gotten to the point where I was just saying words to see if they could eventually hurt, and if they did, there are no words to express how sorry I am over that.

So the specifics of the situation:

Myself (A Jewish agender person who loves all genitalia), Elante (a multi-racial bisexual woman), and Centari (a black man…. I don’t know him as well so I can’t put as many things in there) were all fooled by kind words and friendly actions into thinking that we were playing villains, and that it would be a creative outlet.

This whole course of events occurs, and we stick to the people we know, as explained above.

Elante leaves because the stress of dealing with all this, and her Scions blacklist, was not worth such a small-time guild. I left shortly after, because Elante was really my best friend in the guild, and the overwhelming messages of people calling me Nazi (over 30 of them TODAY) was not worth my mental health. I would explain this to Naz who supposedly “understood” but then would immediately block me before I had the opportunity to discuss re-obtainment of anything I had put in the gbank from her (I am told that Blizzard can help me with this), which struck me as odd. Then another guild member would later show up (Xanthrax if you must know) and called me a Nazi Faggot and Jew-Boy, both pejoratively. I would then later find out from Centari, as he had been notified of this picture ahead of time, that Naz WAS in fact a Neo-Nazi.

I have never felt so betrayed, manipulated, and down-right lied to in my whole fucking life.

And I’m sure I deserve it, and in no small amount, the hate that will probably be directed towards this character for the rest of the toon’s existence on this server.

I don’t expect any of what I say to absolve me of any sin I have committed, or any revilement and ridicule of which I am due. This is simply me saying what I need to say, which is:

Sorry.

~Oranthus Dawnblade

zanpyr

I’m sorry you all had to deal with this shit.

You were charmed by a highly charismatic person who played the nice as pie routine, who played the victim, who was probably gaslighting you. Sometimes it’s hard to see the red flags, because someone is so fucking nice, or because you just don’t know what they are.

It’s not your fault, don’t beat yourself up. You’re human. You make mistakes, and that’s okay. Give yourself some grace. What matters is you learn from those mistakes. While not everything in this article may apply (I didn’t know Naz well enough to say for sure) I’ve observed enough red flags to think that this may help give you some understanding of what happened, closure, and tools to not fall for it again.

It takes great courage to give an apology, especially as someone who is a victim of manipulation and nastiness. It speaks volumes about you as a person. People will probably leave you alone without the guild tag, especially since you spoke up. In the end people will forget about this and life will move on. At this point, anyone who still gives you shit should be ignored, or at the very least linked this post. No, you don’t deserve harassment, and people who are harassing you should stop.

Thank you for your courage.

If you need someone to talk to, my Btag and Discord tag are on my blog.

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I’ve been in your position before. I defended a sexual predator a couple years back. Albeit i didnt know until i was being harassed ingame over it and had such a stressful time that i chose the person that was being nice over the hate i got spammed with. Wrong decision, but my gods people need to stop viciously harassing people that have no idea what’s going on. At least educate them instead of blind siding them.

It’s what i have told people so far. If anyone in Rosedawn that had no idea what was going on and needs a place to go, i can show them to guilds that don’t judge or they give second chances (even if the person doesn’t deserve one).

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Admin of Wyrmrest Accordians here - We were fooled by her too, and made the mistake of giving her a platform to rope more people in. I’ve never completely trusted her, but with her leftist beliefs on her personal pages and her never attempting to cause havoc in our group, the other admins and I never suspected such things of her. I was actually sympathetic towards her at first. Not now. I’ve received multiple screenshots before yesterday of Myro’s “interests” (she was apparently telling people he was “someone that wanted to reclaim Norse Pagan symbols from Nazis“) Since yesterday, more has been revealed to us, such as her apparently telling her guild mates that she was going to “remove the nazis” from the guild and write up an apology. By now, we all know what actually happened. Centari is a good friend of mine and is also a moderator of Wyrmrest Accordians. A supportive, very happy-go-lucky type of guy that’s great at making others laugh. He was the person that shared the imgur link to us first, and we all gagged when we saw the content. A lot of the information pertaining to her actually came from him. He’s the farthest thing from a “Nazi”. Just another victim of guilt by association. He didn’t deserve the way he was treated. I have reason to believe that many others are just like Centari in the scheme of things–unaware of what was actually going on, and being punished for it. As for Ni, we do have history with him since the first installment of our Ark servers. He’s a shitlord and a major pain in the ass, but this isn’t the first time he’s given us a heads up regarding Naz and her manipulation–first time was almost a year ago. Naz has contacted me in the past in a lame attempt to get me to take screenshots of her guildies in MY Discord to spy on them, and a couple days later she kicked a few members of her old guilds for… Guess what? “Being nazis.” The fact that she tried crawling to Ni to “join forces” wasn’t just scummy to her most recent guild, but downright hypocritical. Naz is the reason I have a big fat disclaimer on the welcome channel of my Discord. “We will not provide outside sources, such as GMs from other games, information or screenshots of your activity within this Discord or the server cluster. Wyrmrest Arkordians is not partnered with other groups. While I am an admin of Wyrmrest Accordians on Facebook, WrArk staff rulings and punishment will be kept within the cluster servers UNLESS I receive solid proof of threatening behavior that could potentially bleed into the FB group. Under those circumstances, the Head Admin of Wyrmrest Accordians will be notified.” I don’t agree with his methods, nor do I like the racism–but he helped remove a stain from our community. She will no longer get our people involved and wrongfully blacklisted or labeled as a “nazi”. We were all lied to and manipulated. I hope the garbage rots in her bin.

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:^)