cin

22. they/them. sideblog, so i can't follow or like posts. hyacinthesia on ao3. 18+ only, minors will be blocked.

[hyacinthesia]

intro / pinned

hello! i'm cin. i'm 22, use they/them pronouns, and transmasc. i tend to post my art here and my writings on my ao3 account.

DISCLAIMERS:

this sideblog mainly focuses on whump, nsft and dead dove content. for a list of topics i enjoy/tolerate/cannot handle, please refer to my spreadsheet here.

i'm a trans person who enjoys writing about misgendering and the like into my works. i do not support real world transphobia. if that makes you uncomfortable, feel free to block me.

just because my blog is into the things above doesn't mean it is only about that. i'd like to make friends, so i will not mention any topics that make you uncomfortable around you! i'll follow your dni/boundaries as much as possible!

minors and anyone who heavily engages in pro/antific discourse, please leave my page.

ZIONISTS, ANTISEMITES, RACISTS, TRANSPHOBES, SEXISTS, FUCK OFF. if you truly believe what israhell is doing is right in any capacity, you are NOT welcome here.

MAIN INTERESTS/DOL INFO:

i mostly post about OC content and degrees of lewdity (DOL). my favorite LIs/PoIs in DOL are avery, harper, alex, remy, wren, niki and bailey. though i try to follow canon, i love adding in my own lore for them. if that bothers you, then you are free to block me.

my main PC is shin the dropout who i love to psychologically and sexually torture :) my little whumpee playtoy...

my main LI oc is dillon the police officer! mwah mwah mwah basically my whumper playtoy

i have other ocs i've yet to introduce (lazarus the dealer, etc.), which i will get around to eventually. this'll update when i put something out for them all.

for dead dove content, expect frequent dub/noncon, forced feminization, age gaps, mindbreak, emotional abuse, etc.

BOUNDARIES:

my dms and asks are open! feel free to reach out to me about anything :) i'd love to have more friends in the dol/whump community

will update this if ever anything weird happens. as of now, i can't think of anything else.

[hyacinthesia]

So mad they made Gwylan an LI instead of the literal love of my life Niki. (Please get my PC out of the underground farm Niki oh my god)

- 🥕 anon

NIKI WOULDVE BEEN SM BETTER, YOURE SO RIGHT!! (imagine if niki as an LI still doesnt help you in the underground... the true morally grey test)

also omg hi again carrot anon!! it's been a while!! i hope youve been doing well!

[hyacinthesia]

Gwylan has been an li since the last update that was released on Oct 31, gwylan is very much a slow burn li since they will be a people of interest first and then later they will kind of slowly become an li if you want the requirements I can't tell u

damn... last time i checked in, avery's mansion was the biggest update. this one seemed to have no buildup whatsoever.

and nah dw i don't think i need the requirements. tyvm tho for letting me know anon!

ramble below on my thoughts, feel free to click away.

i tried to give it a bit of a test run in a new, random throwaway save file, and...

i don't think i'll be pursuing gwylan ever, not that i'm not interested, but i'm particularly turned off by the fact gwylan "breaks the 4th wall". and by that, you can't use the traditional cheat mode methods.

i like to give every LI a test run through cheat mode to see if they're ever worth the investment in my non-cheat save files, but i quite literally have to go the extra mile for gwylan. you can definitely still cheat, but rather than clicking the option to unlock every outfit, you have to run through so many different events just to unlock a few pieces of clothing. (i know i can look at other people's game screenshots, which i'll probably just do.)

maybe some others like the grindiness of their route, but i don't.

i'm also more interested in npcs like niki, wren and remy being LIs... but oh well. i still need to play out avery's mansion! when i find the time.

[hyacinthesia]

since when was gwylan an LI????

[hyacinthesia]

francis xie's avery/bailey art reviving me from the dead ngl. i need to forcefem shin

[daiquiri-ssi]

the male LIs

[villainwithacrush]

[hyacinthesia]

I read your fic!! I really liked it. Even though I don't like detrans/misgendering stuff, it was still really interesting and you portrayed Avery super well (or at least how I perceive him).

- 🥕 anon

oh tysm!! 🥹 i'm glad you liked it even if you're not into that!

yeah, my portrayal of avery circles back to a post i made about how he'll always want a femme partner, regardless of their assigned gender at birth. the business world isn't progressive enough for queer representation, and despite his wealth, he seems to not have enough power to set a trend or example.

i'm also interested in exploring how f!avery will be like around this. i think she has more variety and options for explorarion compared to m!avery, but i feel like when i write it, i'll be too into character exploration instead of making it an x reader 😭

but tysm again!! glad to see you again carrot anon 🥹 (i will get to your niki ask soon, i have been slowly brainstorming for something i'm satisfied with!)

[hyacinthesia]

pretty girls make graves

(m!avery x tm!reader)

summary: A date with Avery goes really wrong, so he teaches you a lesson after your usual dates on Saturday evenings.

warnings: rape/non-con, transphobia, dead dove, whump, usage of terms like "pussy" for reader's genitalia, more in ao3 page

note: i wrote this during my horny free time while waiting for the avery mansion update since i haven't had much time to draw. please enjoy and don't read if you are in a bad headspace 🫶 take care of yourself, dear reader.

you can read it here on my ao3!

[belthegore]

old kylar doodle

[kiranoc]

Who's Kiran famous ex? You sometimes mention her.

And here she is! Meet Carmen!

Well, you never actually get to properly meet her since she is out of the story now but you know

Also she is the reason why my color wheel for characters didn’t have any true red assigned

Her presence in Kiran’s life defined red as a “love” color amongst other things

For once a character that isn’t inspired by comic books lmao, she is inspired by Malena (specifically when she cuts her hair and colors it red, you can really see that I tried to make her face resemble young Monica Bellucci) and Max from two broke girls cause I definitely imagine her to have that snarky and witty personality when she doesn’t play dumb and lovely for the customers at the brothel

/I often imagine an AU where Kiran agreed to run away from the town with her when she asked and think of them living that happily ever after together whenever I feel bad for putting Kiran through nightmares and when I feel horrible for basically fridging her/

[defire]

hi! i’m here to ask if you have any whump prompts for a whumpee that’s trapped as like. a consort/concubine with the king.

apologies if that’s too specific

Not too specific! I enjoy this trope...

Concubine/consort

Content: restraints, degrading language, non-explicit rape, noncon touch

a prisoner of war dragged in among other selections for the king's taste. Thrown to their knees in shackles and daring to slowly raise their eyes to the king's face, angry.

"I thought you might have your eye on this one, sir."

"What do you think--could your men wrangle this one down for me, general?" the king says to the man who captured the prisoner.

Tied down to the bed ahead of time for the king so he doesn't have to struggle to hold them down and can just... take them.

"Wear this." Soldier tosses a gold-embroidered outfit at consort. "He's showing you off tonight."

Being fondled by the king over their clothes in public. Hand slipping in past underwear as the king speaks to guests at his table. It's not weird... consorts are made for that, right?

Forced to pose in compromising positions, in compromising outfits, for all the guests at the king's table, showing off the king's new acquisition. And when they refuse, guards come in and force them to.

"Tug it down a little.. like that, yes... See? Handsome and submissive. An impossible little brat. Worth every drop of blood."

King, hot and heavy in his chambers. "Come on, consort," he pants, "open your mouth." He roughly rubs across their genitals as if to arouse them. "Do it for me. I know you love me." A couple pats as if to encourage a horse. "Open. Now."

[hyacinthesia]

I have been sick the last few days so I just saw your post!

Never be sorry for not responding quickly! As the owner of this blog, it is your choice what questions you answer and when. You have a whole ass life outside of this god forsaken website and I don't expect you to respond immediately. Also! I too am a fan of Celia Lede and I loved seeing your reposts!

Aight that's all have a good one!

- 🥕 anon

omg i hope you feel better now!! and dw about seeing things late :]

YES IK... BUT I DO WANT TO RESPOND IMMEDIATELY. i love interacting with other people over shared interests!!!! so tysm for being one of those people for me :D i hope that when i'm more active again you'll still be around :,] (i love celia sm... aughsdjfdf.... i also have my eye on fox/ren but i need to complete derek's and mason's endings which i'm not Too motivated for, so that'll have to wait for when my schedule clears up)

have a good one as well, carrot anon!!!!

[hyacinthesia]

i'll be active again when the sneaky update becomes a public one because i am unfortunately dying with academics rn... and i have no time to regrind (cheats or not) on vanilla dol...

but if anyone is interested in an avery/pc or alex/pc fic, i might be able to find time to write one. who knows

[l0rhael]

Celia!!

[myosotis-raph]

24 karat gold labubu

Ref under the cut

[hyacinthesia]

i had writing juices for a bit and tried to write lazarus and shin sex but i always get lazy by the time it actually starts. i just wanna watch it in my head