INACTIVE @hyaeniidae - Tumblr Blog

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After watching multiple trans women and trans fem creators get nuked off this site in a day, after the constant silencing of black voice, of literally any non white voices, I genuinely cannot bring myself to use tumblr anymore. It sucks, because I’ve been on this website under various aliases since 2012. But I just can’t be here anymore.

For now, you can find me on bluesky, I know it’s not much better, but for now it’s the lesser of evils

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25 • ♿️🏳️‍⚧️🔞 • It/Hyr/Maw • fuck censorship The lesbian Muppet Joker

#my post #important

jujoobedoodling

happy new years sluts

#rb #added this to my queue in July #world of warcraft #sylvanas windrunner

dragonstailbutch

a couple of you noticed, or were told, but for everyone else guess what they got novas - @/puppygirlpregnancyscare - blog again! woopee <- sarcasm. we know it was because fae keeps speaking up and talk about trans womens experiences, and like wow do a lot of people here HATE women when they arent letting themselves be fucked by the closest man. crazy how the queer community scene at large at this point just continues to encourage this. i say encourage for a reason, im not just picking words at random here. a bunch of neonazi assholes and terfs (which to be frank atp theres no difference, their actions are exactly the same and their goals) are trying to get rid of trans women from this site and every other community, remove the flower of our existence and theres nothing from my brothers and sisters in the queer community. and people wonder why and whine and complain when we make communes or our own little groups. even making posts like these, asking for help and telling the others in our community whats happening puts targets on our backs and people call us hysterical or tell us to shut up and go be fucked by men. how are we expected to just keep tolerating this, let alone live like this. ground down every day until were so isolated and hate ourselves so much that we'll either let anything be done to us cause we 'deserve' it or we die. we kill ourselves to lessen the pain - emotionally, metaphorically and literally.

anyway, nova is our main source of income rn, and w/o faer we have no food or groceries, if you could help us out wed love to keep living. even if this is so exhausting:

v3nm0-@Prince_Nova

c@sh@pp-$StrayNova

problemnyatic

holy shit they literally JUST deleted dragonstailbutch. I was ON HER BLOG but couldn't reblog a post because she was deleted right in front of me. what the fuck

problemnyatic

Kind of hard to deny that the problem exists when trans women are literally getting banned from under our fingertips in the scant few moments between clicking her blog and reblogging a single fucking post. If you don't throw away a trans woman tumblr tells you to, you get tossed next! Surely if we ban enough of them we won't have to listen to those pesky trannies try to be people anymore.

#rb #I am fucking appalled #like holy fucking shit

only-cat-memes

#rb #me core

puppygirlpregnancyscare

tme people will do anything to blame transfems for what people say to us

puppygirlpregnancyscare

"oh turn off anons, don't have messages, stop saying things, cut yourself off from the world, remove yourself from society so men won't harass you" like yall realize you are inches away from telling a woman she deserves to be raped for how she dresses

puppygirlpregnancyscare

it should not be an expected prerequisite to avoid harassment to isolate yourself from anyone and everyone and the fact that it's expected of women and especially trans women when men are the ones choosing to hurt us, choosing cruelty, choosing to assault us. i might be out there for saying this but i think men are responsible for their actions and the main reason to peddle this kind of nonsense is because they know they're being cruel and don't want to face the social consequences for that, and if you agree with them erasing their agency or do it for them you are complicit in their cruel acts

puppygirlpregnancyscare

I LIVE HERE TOO I EXPERIENCE THE SAME WORLD AS YOU AND I FEEL PAIN LIKE YOU DO AND I CHOOSE AS MUCH AS I CAN KINDNESS EVERY DAY WHY DO YOU GET A FREE PASS WHILE I MUST REGULATE MYSELF TO "AVOID" YOU COMMITTING VIOLENCE AGAINST ME WHY ARE YOU ARE ENDLESSLY PERMITTED TO DIRECTLY ATTACK WOMEN WHO YOU DEEM HAVEN'T "DEFENDED THEMSELVES ENOUGH"

hyaeniidae

And they nuked her again. Once again proving that this gods forsaken website hates trans women

#rb #important

antifainternational

queeranarchism

YES.

And leave out the speculation. If you didn’t see any weapons, the phrase ‘potentially armed’ is not useful. Everyone can guess that agitators might ‘potentially’ be armed. Stick to what you actually saw.

This is true about other threats too, by the way. If you, for example, want to warn people about transphobic attacks happening somewhere, mention these kinds of specifics. How many perpetrators? What sort of actions? Where? What did they look like? Time & date? Did they have weapons?

#rb #important #very important

derrickwildsun-deactivated20250

That video of Alex Hirsch reading S&P notes for Gravity Falls conveys a few things to me:

1) the U.S. entertainment industry (especially animation) is run by older conservative types who make up offensive terms and get really mad about them.

2) the people who run Disney would be the first to fall in line with a fascist regime.

3) most of the media we consume is tailor-made and watered-down to appeal to the tastes of older, deeply religious conservative audiences.

4) conservatism, not the left, is and always has been the biggest voice of censorship in American culture.

sci-fantasy

J. Michael Straczynski, creator of Babylon 5, was before that a producer and writer for a number of cartoons in the late ‘80s/early ‘90s (The Real Ghostbusters and the original She-Ra, most notably). After a few years of dealing with the censors and their obsession with finding Satanism (or at least looking for Satanism to further political agendas) he wrote an article about the whole corrupt and bullshit system.

And published it in Penthouse, to force those same censors to buy a skin mag. The editor there asked, why Penthouse?

That one is from his autobiography, Becoming Superman. See also:

(As he goes on to say, he’s never worked in animation again–he’s effectively been blacklisted by the cartoon industry.)

transhuman-priestess

Every time something like this comes up, I remember two stories about making media. The first is about movies, and comes from Quentin “Feet Man” Tarantino.

When he was making Pulp Fiction, he was worried that the MPAA would object to the high level of violence in the film, so he shot a bunch of extra-gory stuff that he didn’t actually want in the film, and added it in before submitting it to the MPAA. Predictibly, they asked him to cut most of it (without even commenting on some of the things that had him worried, like the bits of Marvin’s skull that lodge in Samuel L. Jackson’s hairpiece). The resultant cuts were actually more permissive than he’d expected, so he cut a little more and submitted it, and it got passed with an R.

The second story is about that artist on Morrowind whose name escapes me (I’m not a big ES fan tbh) who figured out that if he made two creature designs, one weird and what he wanted, and one even weirder, he could get Todd Howard to agree to just about anything by showing him the whopper first, then going back and “working” for another few hours on a second, “toned-down” version, and it worked every time.

The reason I bring these up is that the thing that drives censors isn’t some extant physical rubrick of what is and isn’t acceptable, it’s the idea that they can have absolute power over someone else’s creative work. It’s about the social dominance of the interaction.

There is nothing so innocent, so clean, that a censor will not find some fault with it. Because they must find something wrong with it to justify their existence, and because it makes them feel powerful.

This is true of all censorship.

brady-like-the-bunch

I’ve been a professional designer for 8 years and that last bit is so true. In addition to politics, a huge part of people meddling with creative work is just ego. They want to feel like they had a hand in the final product, even though they not only did not create it but are in fact incapable of creating something on that level. So they reach their hand into someone else’s work and command it to change, not in service of a mutual artistic goal, but simply because they have the power to do so and they like feeling that power.

#rb #important

metalheadsagainstfascism

Further, some authors may never even find out the lawsuit is happening. The court's suggested notification scheme "would require class claimants to themselves notify other potential rightsholders," groups said, overlooking the fact that it cost Google $34.5 million "to set up a 'Books Rights Registry' to identify owners for payouts under the proposed settlement" in one of the largest cases involving book authors prior to the AI avalanche of lawsuits.

If you're an author, please use this database to see if you could qualify for that sweet GenAI lawsuit money.

Millions of books and scientific papers are captured in the collection’s current iteration.

I have never ever ever in my life asked someone to blaze my posts.

But if you want to throw me some pennies blaze this. I want ALL OF THE AUTHORS to know that they have the opportunities to get some sweet sweet GenAI lawsuit money.

Like to charge. Reblog to cast that Anthropic will have to pay out the ass.

-fae

gothiccharmschool

Oh look, my book is in there. GIVE ME MONEY.

elodieunderglass

Interestingly, I reblogged this thinking it might be interesting for my followers - but as I’m not an author I didn’t think further.

Then I did think for a second. I realised I had fallen into the classic tumblr trap of believing that Authorship Equals Fantasy Fiction Writer. It’s amazing how that gets into your own head.

I went back and found a clutch of my scientific papers on there.

Not something that’s worth me pursuing any farther - and a lot of those works are very openly open access, and so they are honestly the exact sort of content that SHOULD be used to train responsible models. But worth remembering that it’s very common on tumblr to think of all writing as, like, genre fiction, and there are other types of writing too.

cassolotl

Settlement shows AI companies can face consequences for pirated training data.

Authors revealed today that Anthropic agreed to pay $1.5 billion and destroy all copies of the books the AI company pirated to train its artificial intelligence models. In a press release provided to Ars, the authors confirmed that the settlement is "believed to be the largest publicly reported recovery in the history of US copyright litigation." Covering 500,000 works that Anthropic pirated for AI training, if a court approves the settlement, each author will receive $3,000 per work that Anthropic stole. "Depending on the number of claims submitted, the final figure per work could be higher," the press release noted.

each author will receive $3,000 per work

#rb #get that bag!!

ship-of-skitties

rt's havin a fun time in silksong

#rb #I love you rt game

scoliosiswizard

maybe this is a bad take but idk how I feel about people adamantly saying "this disability or disfigurement or level of fatness or age are NOT body horror". Like horror is subjective. I do not think it's OK to say someone has less worth or value as a result of disability, and it IS fucked up to treat a real way that real people look as a horror trope, to those people, but Also. Like a large part of my conception of myself is centered in my skills and abilities, and the way that I look. For me, a haircut is a level of body horror, but that doesn't mean that people with short hair are horrific. By no choice of my own, a large part of my identity is being small and agile and able to fit I to small spaces. Were I to become fat against my intention, without SIGNIFICANT muscle growth, I would feel a ripping away of both a longstanding part of my identity, and a shrinking of the furthest extent of my influence on the world. I like climbing buildings. If I could not climb buildings I would find my lack of ability to move in ways unintended by the designers of a space limiting and somewhat claustrophobic. I would be no less of a worthy person or whatever, but I do find that horrifying on some involuntary level. Same for my ability to sing and going mute, my ability to make music and going deaf or losing control of my hands, for my ability to command a crowd and losing my appearance, and for my ability to communicate effectively and losing my intelligence. These things are horrifying by the loss of ability, disability is horrifying. The disabled are not horrifying. I don't know if a movie representing the viewpoint of the character experiencing what is to them body horror (usually with it occurring unnaturally or suddenly somehow also) can really articulate this difference. I lean towards "make whatever weird bad offensive movie you want, it'd never be anything else and at least we can critique it for it's bad messaging when it all comes out in the wash"

scoliosiswizard

No worries, I completely get where you're coming from! I'm just trying to kinda walk a tightrope though because like.

I do think a lot of horror is needlessly ableist and cruel to people that don't look "normal". And that often they perpetuate harmful ideas about disabled people that lead to real life cruelty. And I do think that, more than horror AT disability, horror at society from a disabled perspective is a WAY more interesting, untapped well of ideas. "what if you got fucked up real bad" horror has been done to death. Though there's always room for more. Uh. Death.

And also my disabilities make me who I am. My URL is scoliosiswizard. I wouldn't give up my very weird AuDHD+something unidentified brain for anything because I think I'm fascinating and cool or whatever, but also. My scoliosis scares me. My back hurts by the end of some of my jazz classes just from sitting at the piano bench that long. I intend to be a musician, largely a pianist. I've been told it'll probably mostly only get worse, though I can avoid the pain with PT. How bad will it get? Will I be able to pursue dance as much as I want to? I don't know. That scares me. My ADHD scares me. Will I ever get a sleep schedule that doesn't harm me even if I don't have any timed responsibilities? Will I die young of mold exposure from no cleaning and sleep deprivation and failure to remember to take my meds?

I feel like there is genuine horror in my disability that would still be there if society somehow removed all of the things that can be attributed to the social model of disability. I fully believe that if I couldn't play piano and I couldn't run and climb and dance that I'd still find happiness and passion. Life is long and I am here to enjoy it, even it's rougher bits. It's all experience or whatever. BUT. I want to dance and jump and feel the rhythm in my feet. I want to learn Sean Nos dancing and shuffling specifically. If I can't do that I'll be sad. If I can't do the things I can already do, no matter what, I will have to entirely reconfigure my conception of who I am and what my future is, and that's scary.

Also maybe that fear is immature because one must reconsider oneself anew with all experiences, as the world is ever different. And maybe my fear of being fat is, in part, some ingrained fatphobia I have not identified, in addition to the specific sorry about loss of ability, which is also possible. I don't think horror has to be based on like. Fears that are reasonable to think and good to have. I think it just has to resonate with something that hits for a lot of people. But I don't know how to reckon that with the fact so many people refuse to be anything other than terrified of trans people and immigrants and disabled folks. When is media reinforcing biases versus just taking them into account to make reactions more visceral? Idk. Maybe the difference is whether something portrays the disability or the disabled as the scary thing, and whether it plays it as "scary because of lost ability" vs "disgust at the unfamiliar"

hyaeniidae

I hope you don’t mind a reply to this!!

So to give context to myself because we’ve never spoken directly before this, hello! My name is Heron, and in 2023 I fractured my spine (L1 to be specific) and it didn’t heal well. I also have; fibromyalgia, multiple traumatic brain injuries, hypermobility (a 6 out of 9 on the scale), severe chronic pain, POTS, AuDHD, C-PTSD, a whole bunch of other mental crap, I wear glasses, and I’m hard of hearing. I have to use mobility aids and go to physical therapy twice a week. I’m also just over 300lbs and 5’9”. I also live in extreme poverty that keeps me from accessing a lot of whatever bullshit disability resources exist in the hellhole that is America lol

I used to do musical theatre, I used to hike, I used to play volleyball. I don’t anymore, for a multitude of reasons, but primarily because of how disabled my body has become. It’s ok to be scared, of your own disability, I know it scares me. I live on a third floor walk up, I was more or less apartment bound for an entire year after I broke my back because I could barely handle the stairs. That level of isolation nearly drove me insane I won’t lie, like it was some of the hardest shit I’ve ever done in my life.

I dreamed of being a Broadway performer, even while I was in art school, that has always been my passion. Realistically now, it’s out of reach, and it’s taken me a long time to come to terms with that. And yeah, that loss is horror for me, I can no longer do what I dreamed of since I was performing my own operas and musicals in my living room 22 years ago as a toddler. It fucking sucks ass.

But I think the key thing here is; the horror is *mine*. Not someone else’s to make media about, if there is gonna be horror around a disability, I think it should be made only by the people with that disability. Not because I’m like “only disabled people should tell disabled stories” (though in horror I do think this rings a little true) but because it’s not as effective to me if it’s just some abled projecting their fear of becoming disabled onto my already lived experience.

The horror of being stuck in a room with a broken back is not some dramatic moment, it’s a slow building, crushing horror that most ableds wouldn’t have the knowledge or patience to properly drag out the way it needs to (and no, being stuck inside during the pandemic doesn’t count). That horror’s true effect can only be felt through the pen of someone’s whose lived it, in my opinion.

I’m not going to tell you not to be afraid of your disabilities and the impact they could have on you, that would be silly. But the opposite of fear is knowledge, so always continue to listen and learn from your own body, and from other disabled bodies you keep community with!

Also final point, and not from a place of judgement; yes, the fear of getting fat and being fat is rooted in fatphobia. And I don’t blame you! Media and society at large does a LOT to push fatness as a moral and social failing, as well as the pinnacle of “poor health”. But in reality; there are so many fat dancers, musicians, hikers, performers, swimmers, athletes, etc. you just don’t see them because that would defeat this narrative that has been pushed about how unhealthy all fat people are. If you’re interested in knowing more about this stuff, looking into fat liberation is a great place to start! Fatphobia is so rooted in misogyny and racism and classism and ableism that unlearning it is helpful when becoming just a better all around human, in my opinion.

I hope you never stop making music. I hope you find some ease from your pain, and that the world becomes kinder. You deserve to shine and be heard just as much as anyone else! I apologize this is so long, but I hope I got my point across!!!!

#rb #heron yaps #lordy this was so long #I hope literally any of this makes sense #disability Justice

tostyart

‼️‼️PLEASE DONT SKIP‼️‼️

!!TRANS IN OREGON PLEASE READ!!!!

I need a place to live, a spare room or a couch, I'll pay rent, I want to rebuild my life, I always lived with roommates. I have one esa animal.

Please consider me, I'm an artist, I have income, and I'll work more, I can pay 800-900 a month

Some of my work. im begging for a second chance, i miss being able to draw.

Please share and dm me, I'll vc and video call potential roommate, I| need support from community, im losing hope

#rb #important!!

gh0stbreath

I do not do "warm up sketches". I do not "thumbnail". I do not do "art studies". I sit down and raw dog it. And if I hate it....?

I KILL MYSELF.

#rb #real

punishedjesterodoll-deactivated

shoutout to all the fat bitches whose fat distributes unevenly, shout out to the fat bitches with stretchmarks and cellulite and major fucking shoutout to fat bitches who are breathing heavy asf rn i see you i know you i love you

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