Change for better

I'm Braden, I write poetry. I'm influenced by music mostly. I hope to be published one day.

[effervecent]

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Void

*Knock* All I hear is an echo, Bellow deeply in my heart, It's empty and tart, I just want that part back, Keeping my insanity on track, I lack the reflection in this vanity, Fan me because I'm feeling hot in this corset, My tears are a debt, They'll be repayed once I've met the healing to this emptiness, Bless me, Pray for me, Even though I don't believe in god, Still this mod in my brain, Refrains me from motivating, The tingling taste of the smoke of pot, It taught me an escape, Raped my mind so I wouldn't have to think, I'm drawing a blink, I mean blank, Frankly I can't stress enough how my mind wanders, I'm extremely fond of her, Endure this pain to heal what I'm missing, Excruciating fears tears my body from my soul, Taken a toll on the absolute, My mouth is now feeling mute, I still refute that I can fix myself at times, But these rhymes numbs my mind, Trying to be sublime, It feels like a crime in this empty room, A tomb trapped like a mummy, But all I'm doing is screaming for my mom, Maybe I'm wrong, This tongue spews only truth, My brain is still ruthless, But bless me, Even though I still don't believe.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

In Pursuit

Pursue your dreams as it steams inside your brain,

Don't refrain from action,

If you lack factioning the motivation in your brain,

You'll have disdain for the rest of your life,

Don't let the knife called regret fret your anxiety,

Tie yourself to thee dreams,

Believe that you can redeem anything with enough power,

Tower over others and make them remember your name differently then in high school,

You use to be a tool, 

A fool,

Now awe inspired you're "cool",

But your face is still a ghoul,

Scary and near fiction,

Don't lack the diction to start conflicition,

Addiction risking the fame the goals,

Told you need to continue to the easy way out,

I have my doubts that a pill a line and maybe a little time can cure my pain, 

Tame the scars as the flare up,

What do I do when the scars always feel like open wounds,

Tombs for the ancient,

My past is a task I can't hold onto,

But it continues to drag,

 I'm about to call it a fag,

Drop a mag into it,

Written this shit and sometimes I can't even understand my problems until it's on paper,

Tape my past shut,

Hunt it and kill it if it escapes,

However sometimes it feels too late,

My fate is so on my plate,

But my date today,

May keep me into stupidity,

Hideously burning,

Turning my cheek to another direction,

But I still have affection,

My complexion on my face is a resemblance of how fucked up my mind is,

Why do I want to live,

Because it seems so empty and when I arrive at my destination,

It's a desert,

I only wish it was a dessert.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Bury me

Cut my hair,

Tear my eyes,

Lie to my face,

Trace the outlines,

Follow my spine,

Lead me to my mind that I lost,

An infatuation that had an insatiable lust,

You see this white dust?

Encrusted with baby power and meth,

It's called cocaine,

Let this overpowering powder into me,

Ream out the demons because they've been fucking me,

Believe that I've been fucking myself,

But you see I'm just a dusty book on a dusty shelf,

I'm a little elf in Santa's workshop,

A hobbit that is still at the shire,

I'm working my way higher,

An entire army couldn't stop me,

Because I'm a book,

An elf,

A hobbit,

I've got the potential,

Exponential to the power of ten,

My friends gather around,

You see I'm not gonna be stuck in a small town,

Crown me as the king because I'm over being a champion,

Vamping my motivation,

This elation is not up for debate,

Let me rape your mind with words,

Tie you up with a noose,

Duck,

Duck,

Goose,

I'm going to let loose,

An obtuse angle that's newfangled,

I can ramble on forever,

I've got my brain and I've got this lever,

I've just gotta pull 

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Let me

Let me hold your cheeks, You have a sense of bleek in your heart, What is left tart by the tarnish of foolishness, You bless that your skin stay pure, However your face cures others, Although there is mother in your personality, This reality keeps your personality strong, The tongue words absolute truth, I need no proof that you're not the one, Because I feel like I've already won, I know we're young and dumb, But let's just run, Let's find the fun, As my lung fill whole of breath, I feel less even with you on shoulders, I told her I don't mind who she is to me, As long as I plead for, Thats all the beauty I need However your creed is will lead us to where you want, Your personality taunts me into your arms, As your garments slowly leave, I believe that I'm still in need of this personality.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

I'm too hipster for titles

Riddle me this, Why is ignorance so bliss? Its always a hit or miss, Whisper into my ear as you sleep, Something deep that I don't believe, Reave my core, Adore it like your own.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Spatially adept, well I wish

Fish your mind to find the right settings, Blessing yourself into a social situation, Confusion bursts your mind like prions would as if you had mad cow disease, You plead for a better ending, Ask for a lending hand, How can you even get better when you’re being tossed aside by your own mother, Rather your own family, Tap into the connections that ran deep, That is no easy feat as they seem remotely perished, I wear it like dog tags, Its my identity that I feel like I have no family, I lack the feeling to feel at home, So I roam in my truck, With the best of my luck, These two year old shoes, Will last me just a little bit longer.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Don't forget about me

Route me towards a cause I believe, Sign my life away without reading a certain clause, Pause the movie on the screen, I've always been keen to reading minds, The times I notice that they don't actually care, Is it fair to say we all pay a price for friends, Although in the end, All they can do is forget about me.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Wish we could?

I remember growing up, It started out in the hood of Tigard, I wasn't much but a die hard kid of the age 5-6, Ah man the bliss of the N-64, This was only a deceiver from the truth, My youth shattered by the abuse of a man, His hand hit me several times, I wish life was more sublime, But all I can think about is another rhyme, I'm still caught in a bind, Grinding my way out to the top, I'm feeling sometimes I drop, A copout of what I need to do, I know I need help, To develop a better life, Rather then feeling this knife to my throat, Someday I'll croak, However..I wish it won't be tomorrow.

[bloodyknvckles]

i need to finish shopping so i can buy pot with left over money because this depression shit got me fucked up

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Same

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Silence

Blindless keeps me trapped, Haplessness keeps me in a spiral, You see I have no capital, Everyday I battle to get out of bed, My eyes feel like they cry out lead, Even though I haven't shed a single tear, I sear my eyes shut, I thought I was tough, But even the roughest man can't escape the tolls of emotions, I need recognition for the pain I have suffered, Or I'll just muffle out the parts I hate, Berate myself to death, Until that last breath, Put what I hate to rest, Maybe it'll make a bigger mess, But I'll be less connected, Weak and neglected, To the point of my shadow being reflected, Detected to the point of evil, I need to level myself, Several ways I want to cry, Several ways I want to die, So I lie with the smile on my face, Can you taste the gloom in the air? It's not fair that I feel this way, The silence... It's eats at me, I feel...alone.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Smiles or Sun?

My eyes run towards this heat, My legs seem utterly weak, My eyesight is suddenly bleak, But your smile is so meek, Putting me at a peak, Now I seek this smile, A wild chase, My mind races to the ends, It tends to linger in dangerous places, But my mind laces no ill-will, Until I find a way to have that smile as mine, I'll sit here in sublime, Wasting time...till you're mine.

[trugazi-deactivated20131113]

[i-am-piercing-pride]

This is my time

I'm in this bind, One of a kind, All i can do is rhyme to express how I feel, Until I pop into a fury, As all of the girls I've liked they turn into a jury, They murder me on the spot, I'm left to rot without trial, Miles along an empty road, I've lived by a code to give up on loss, I continue to toss each relationship to the side like it has no effect, But do you detect that I have no heart? I'm as tart as a lemon, This feminem relations I've had torn me inside, Quaking tides of tears fall once fell down my face, But I no longer taste the salt, As you peer into this empty vault, There is still no heart...

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Did you write that anon?

Which one?

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Moving

Diminished down to dust, No longer feeling much lust, My heart is a rust, What a fuss this had become, Just one simple mistake, Brought an entire lake of tears, My wildest fears proven true, But now I hold the cue, Fuel my ignition, Come to fruition a new start, Now apart of me is actually feeling whole, There is no longer a toll of anxiety and depression, Let it lessen with the brisk feeling of motivation.

[i-am-piercing-pride]

Now you decide where you go.

As you he slipped his tongue into my ear, I fear I could hear hissing, But oh my only my heart was listening, Glistening smiles he gave me on the phone, His tone was so soothing, Removing all doubt from my mind, There is time where I pray, Even as I lay I know I don't believe in god, Now my heart is a wad, Throw into the trash like a ball of paper, How can you hate her, Fear her, Feel her...