(( yup its dawn again and i didnt sleep again and im writing emre fics again, this is a followup to the previous fic about losing sleep, from both perspectives ))
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Another Sleepless Night (Emre x GN Reader)
It happened again- yet another sleepless night, this time after having a nightmare about him. Tonight he wasn't with you, instead staying at his own place after a horrible mission the AI sent him on. Of course, you didn't know this, but that didn't stop the nightmares about the AI taking over his body once and for all.
Your suspicions, however, were answered when your phone rang on the nightstand. He only called this late when something horrible happened, and you stared at the phone silently, your heart sinking a bit. One ring, two rings, three... finally, you picked up.
"... hey." His voice sounded a tad surprised. You rasped a hi back into the phone. "... couldn't sleep again?" Nope. You wanted him to come over. And to your surprise, after a moment of silence and contemplation, he agreed.
A short time later, there was a knock at your door. You stumbled out of bed, head pounding, eyes burning and tearing up from the tiredness, slowly opening the door like a zombie. Emre softened at your face, dark circles and facial lines visible as you yawned, and let out a small laugh. "You look like hell." You felt like it. You ignored the eye staring daggers into you.
He walked in, slowly removing the armour on him as you shut the door, and you smiled seeing him changed into a comfy pair of sweatpants you had left for him whenever he came over. "Come on, let's get you in bed." For once, you didn't have a witty, sexual comeback. You were too out of it as he led you by hand.
He lay next to you, not intent on sleeping tonight. Technically he more recharged. It was hard to tell what exactly his body did at night, in a way he just shut down and rebooted the next day. Or rather, reactivated? It didn't matter. The events of earlier were torturing him, but he knew you were too tired to tell. How many people had he killed today? Five.
Emre had called you, hoping to forget about it, and he was lucky you were awake. And if he could help one person, if he could help you sleep... whatever higher power was out there may take pity on him and consider this a good deed to scratch out the bad. You calmed him down, made him forget about the eye, made him feel human again. He held you tight as he spooned you.
Eventually you rolled over to make eye contact with him, sensing how he was a bit off. You mumbled out an "are you okay" as your eyes struggled to stay open. "Fine, balım. Rough day." So your nightmare was true. He didn't like to talk about it. Admittedly, you were used to it. This was outside of his control. And you wanted to help him, almost fix him. Maybe the same higher powers he prayed to would grant you both some peace if you did, smiling down on you for your efforts.
But being used to it didn't stop the nightmares. You mumbled again, admitting to having them, and his eye twitched. He tortured you more than he'd like to admit, and the guilt wrecked him. But you insisted on staying with him, too intertwined to want to end things. Its not like the nightmares would stop if he left, anyways. You were in this together.
He moved a hand to your face and stroked it slowly, almost sadly, eventually watching as your eyes slowly closed, the warmth of his hand helping you relax. His own eyes closed and he sighed in relief. He had no plans to sleep, recharge, whatever, but he needed a minute. You were finally able to shut down for the night. He wished he could do the same. He spent the night watching you sleep and the eye in his chest seemed to still itself.
In the morning, you were up later, snaking your arms around him as you wandered into the kitchen to thank him for his help. He was making brunch, you were well rested now, and for a minute, things felt normal again. He relished these innocent moments, even as he felt out of it though, running on fumes.
Though you weren't 100% official, he found solace in how you gave him a chance and made him feel. He wanted to be around you 24/7; You put him at ease, and he admittedly needed you. Whenever he was forced into a mission, AI or not, you were there to put his worries to rest. The only other person to hear him out was Freja, whom he also confided in when he didn't want to overwhelm you.
Sometimes he contemplated leaving, but as your smaller frame hugged his, he knew this was worth it. And besides, Emre always felt a bit better when he was able to help you out in return for all you did, regardless of his situations. Today was an off-day, so he was looking forward to spending the day with you and putting yesterday behind him.
Being there for eachother made a world of a difference. As the following night came, you finally got to sleep, and he got to do... whatever it was his body did at night. But you were both at peace, in eachother's presence, and thats what mattered.
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