Do you like to dramatize things and always exaggerate the problem that is just actually ordinary happen in life? If your answer yes then you can almost certainly be detected as a miss drama queen.You may confused about this post. Some people that close to me call me miss drama queen. They say it’s because I worry too much with negative thinking.
Just like what happened yesterday, I dont know if this thing is a big deal or not. Because normal people will think its like nothing to be argued actually. But because I am a “miss drama queen” I don’t react like normal people.
My future husband asks me to do a treatment that make my cheeks thinner (my cheeks look so chubby that is what he always say). This one always his concern. Then my evil side said, “so He can not accept you whatever you are. Are you sure He is the one who you looking for?”
Alright! Let me explain what is exactly just happened !
First, As I have mentioned above. That my chubby cheeks is the thing that his concerns. He wants my cheeks to be thinner. He told me He want to look at me more beautiful during the wedding day. At that time I said, “is that really much important?” He said, “yes why not? I am capable and have money to do so. All you have to say is “Yes”. Then, I agree with his request that I find strange. It is look like He does not accept me for what I look? I think this thought is still normal is not it? not excessive. But some people close to me say why should you worry. You should be glad though. It means He cares with you.
Second, Last week we agreed to go to one of the beauty clinics to do a treatment that can make my chubby cheeks to be V-shape. Before that I phoned, they say this treatment can only be done with a face that is not problematic (I mean free of acne and not too much sensitive in other word normal skin) and coincidently my face is showing some acne. somehow ? Maybe stress? Stress with job problems, and certainly stress before the wedding. This is natural is not it? But we still went to the clinic on Monday. Upon our arrival there we were immediately greeted by customer service. She said if my face is not worth doing that treatment. The first thing we should to do is get rid of my acne. And She said I need 3 times treatment and the price is too expensive. Then my future husband surprised because He thinks nothing wrong with my face. It’s just a little acne. Why should we pay too much? and 3 times treatment does too much. Then the customer service said, no we have package price. You should pay 3 times treatment for acne treatment. Then my boyfriend said again, why? could you look her face. nothing wrong! then the cutomer service a little bit yelled at us. and saying “Alright, if you both of you want to still to do this treatment its up to you, but you should sign an agreement letter if anything happens both of you will not sue us”.Then my boyfriend a little bit afraid and finally he said we will heal my acne elsewhere because in my opinion my girl does not need that acne treatment. Later, we will come back. Then we left the place. In the car, He looks disappointed and can not understand why the healing of acne as small as it can be that expensive. He laughed. He finally asked, “what the hell do you have acne so? You stress why? Because of me? yes?”. I replied, “no. Because of work problems”. “Yes but you can tell me”, he said. “I'm okay”, I answered slowly.
Third, On our way to home, no matter what demons possessed him. He looks very annoyed because today's treatment fails. His face looked moody and unenthusiastic. Then he said one thing that might make me severely disappointed. He said first when we had not started this relationship, he did not fall in love directly to me. The first to fall in love with me are his parents. As I mentioned above. My chubby cheeks became the scariest specter for him. But because of his mother's talk that says my cheeks can be reduced, he finally wants to start this relationship with me. To be honest, I was very disappointed. But on the other hand he has the courage to tell the truth as it is. Do you think I deserve to be disappointed over what He said? Or I react like miss drama queen that always dramatized everything? Always negative thinking.? My boyfirend is the type of person who always honestly say what it is. But for some things he said too honestly that sometimes makes me sad and disappointed. After saying so he asked, “is my honest words too rude for you?” I honestly want to say “yes” your words are rude, so you should be able to choose more soft words. But I try to catch my breath and remember if his nature is like that, do not like to ramble. I replied, “no. At least you tell the truth. Sorry if I'm too demanding about my wishes, but here I am, that's what I want, I can not calm you either”, he says. “It's okay”, I said. It's 10:45pm, He must go home because it's late, tomorrow we have to work as well. He came home with a gloomy face. I also entered the room with a sad and disappointed face. This is noticed by my mama. then I tell her about the problem. First, She looked angry and she wanted to call my boyfriend back. and He need to explained all the things. but I said to my mom, no mom. it’s okay. I will be fine. My mama calm down, and let me sleep because It’s almost 11.00pm. We need to wake up at 4am tomorrow. Then we sleep with all the bad thinking on our heads. Anyway, my mama also said, “it’s okay if you want to cancelled all this. It’s okay if you want to stop this”. I WAS COMPLETELY SHOCKED. LIKE MOM,?!?!? OH NO?!?!?! IT’S IMPOSSIBLE. I LOVE HIM! :/ :( I just need to calm the heck down, not react too much.
Fourth, He woke up late in the morning, his cell phone dies. I can not contact him. Exactly at 9 am he just woke up. And he was late in the office. We were silent that morning. We didn’t text. Maybe he's still upset because yesterday. And I am still disappointed with his words. Oh yes, I forgot. Morning, upon my arrival at my office, I can not stand it anymore. I cried sobbing on my office desk. The office was still quiet. And I was alone in my room. I was the only occupant in the room. Whether demon or It’s true that I am the miss drama queen who always dramatize everything, how can I cried like that. I took deep breathing. After that I am relieved. And thinking there really is nothing to be debated about and made a big deal because his wishes were actually good for me as well. Then why can I be like this? Maybe the words he said that the first one who fell in love is his parents and not him. At first he was very concerned about my cheeks and after his mother said that my cheeks can be made to be thinner, he wanted to start relationship with me. This is the main trigger why I am so very disappointed to be honest.
During the day, I have lunch with my office friend whom I already consider to be my sister. I told him my problem and asked for her advice. Her input was enough to help me, and at least I felt a little calm. And unexpectedly, my former office friend also came. I consider him just like my dad. God is always good, He knows what I need. I need people who love me to calm me down. Thank you Jesus. Upon my return to meet my old friend, I entered the room and I was shocked by a very good dermatologist in my room. She always nice to me. She is pretty. Initially I was shy to ask that V-Shape treatment. Then finally I ventured to ask. I asked if my face deserves to do that treatment? She said, “yes it is worth it, why not”. There is a promo at the beauty clinic where she works. She sent me the promo through what’s app. Wow, God is great. He always knows my need. Unexpectedly the dermatologist came, and brought the good news. And the fact that my face worth to do the treatment. He also gave some suggestions for what treatment I needed. I immediately tell my boyfriend related to this. And you guys know what his reaction is? He was very happy. And very grateful. Of course he is happy, this is his greatest wish.
We also agreed that this Saturday we will go to the beauty clinic where the doctor works. Slowly but sure my disappointment also decreased. For some reason every thing that makes me sad, annoyed, and disappointed about him it can not last long.
is this Love?
Last, basically I am the kind of person who always carries everything with feelings and all tends to negative thoughts. And I always dramatize everything. This is what makes me get a nicknamed Miss Drama Queen.
PS: Everything is fine now. I feel better , He also feels the same.
